Евгений Сергеевич Мешков
Simple Truths of Life
Analyzing recent events, it was clear that the lack of communication had a very strong effect on my psychological state, and on my chances not only to get acquainted with a girl, but also to interest her. I thought of approaching girls just for chatting, and not for the specific acquaintance. Although they are very similar, the first option does not force anything, but the second can be misinterpreted by someone as the need to enter into a relationship almost at the first minute of acquaintance.
Then it is important from a psychological point of view, because if a person sets a goal to find his second half and does not find it day after day, then he could begin to feel worthless, perhaps even a failure. But if a person puts segments of mini goals between the main goal and himself, for example, just to communicate with people of the opposite sex, which can be done almost on any day, then the person, on the contrary, will be inspired, since he will not suffer failures (here is the same story as with people who want to stop masturbating completely, and then blame themselves after another masturbation for being weak). Also, a person will gain experience of communication and, possibly, learn something new for himself. Then this approach will only raise your chances of finding a girlfriend, since you will not be nervous and you will be yourself while talking to a single girl, since you will not initially set yourself grandiose plans to win her heart.
I want to write that girls can also (naturally!) approach guys themselves in order to get acquainted, and there is nothing bad or vulgar in this. The logic is that it does not matter how the acquaintance begins – whether the girl herself comes up to meet the guy, or the guy approaches her – further events will still go the same way; namely, people are going to get to know each other in further communication and, based on this knowledge and other data – for example, whether there is a spiritual affinity between them or not, which will show how ideal they are for each other – they will decide whether they want to be together or not. It is simple. Remember that meeting the opposite sex [usually] does not mean that you will go choosing wedding rings on the next day!
So, while walking in the evening in Gorky Park, I went up to get acquainted with a woman who was most likely over thirty. She said that getting acquainted with her is not the best idea. I asked her if we could just chat, and she agreed.
Her name was Katya. As was often the case that summer, me mentioning my book prompted people to ask for details. Without losing anything, I practiced telling my story about Thiaoouba and about my experience with Thiaooubians, the reasons for the creation of the Universe, Palantius, and some other things. I noted for myself that even though Katya tried to listen to me, she still tried to look for alternative interpretations of some of the things I said.
For example, she said that the things Michel wrote (I said only about the creation of the Universe) are part of many religions, hinting that Michel had people to copy off from. I think she either failed to hear me talking about why I know that the book is true, or I needed to be clearer when telling my story – or maybe both.
I do not remember if during our quick conversation I mentioned to her the simple truth that many religions were originally based on truth, but over time, many truths mixed with legends and, in some cases, deliberate distortions. Therefore, it is not surprising that people could in one way or another hear about many of the things that Thiaooubians taught Michel, and also us through his book.
As it turned out, Katya was married. She wished me luck in all my endeavors, we said goodbye and went our separate ways.
On Tuesday, August 25, I went for a walk in Izmailovsky Park. It is not very crowded and I usually go there mainly to just take a walk.
Sitting near the monument to Lenin, I saw a girl walking into the park. She was alone, and I decided to approach her.
The girl asked me why I wanted to get acquainted, since she was in a relationship; although she had not seen her boyfriend for a while. I said that I was looking for a girlfriend to have a relationship, but we could just chat.
I began to tell Yulia, as the girl was called, almost memorized things about my work on the book. Without losing anything, I myself decided to start a conversation about my experience with Auras. To my unexpected joy, Yulia was also interested in Auras and even took a photo of her Aura many years ago. I told her a little about Auras, and then we talked on various other topics while walking in the park.
Then Yulia by herself decided to ask me about my story with the book “Thiaoouba Prophecy”. Immediately after revealing that Michel Desmarquet had been taken to another planet, I asked Yulia if everything was okay. She replied that she believes in life on other planets and in other things related to this topic. I continued to tell her my story, which you already know.
I decided to tell her about my early sexual experience, its negative consequences, and about my erroneous decision to go to a prostitute. Yulia again reacted to the whole story with full understanding, also noting that Natasha should have had an exotic appearance, since she has ancestors of different nationalities – yes, that is how I remember her…
Then Yulia herself told me several details of her personal life, in which there were also some mistakes.
I got a little upset when I heard about her experience with drugs. Worried about her, I asked Yulia if she had ever used hallucinogenic drugs, saying that under their influence our soul is saturated with false data, and recovery can take several lifetimes – if hallucinogens have been taken for a very long time. Fortunately, she has tried them only once, and she no longer has the desire to use any drugs.
We talked about various other topics on the way to the hotel, and at the same time we exchanged phone numbers.
Yulia was glad to meet me and thanked me for telling her so much. She also did not mind meeting again and talking more.
Walking away towards the setting sun, I was very inspired by my unexpected acquaintance with Yulia. There were people who were also interested in Auras and other spiritual things after all.
Then my acquaintance with Yulia helped me to start working on my book again with newly found enthusiasm – I could hardly find the strength and desire to continue translating my book into English after my communication with E and Olya. Although I thought about the need to complete the book as quickly as possible; this would not only complete an important period of my life, giving meaning to everything that I had to experience and learn in it, but I would also not need to talk about Auras and other as yet little-known spiritual things on the first day of meeting girls. Perhaps, if a person gets to know me better, he will not make hasty and wrong conclusions about me…
The chances of finding a girlfriend with similar interests also slightly increased in my mind.
But I was hoping that maybe E would also want to listen to me, and so I decided to go one last time to Ostankino on the weekend and to try to talk to her.
Walking by the pond near the place where I had met E a few weeks earlier, I saw a girl walking very fast with a dog. She walked past me, and I turned my head to look at her, not being sure if she really looked familiar to me. Could it have been E, given that more than a month had passed since our short meeting?
Anyway, if it really was her, then I could approach her at the dog shelter.
A few minutes later I saw that girl again. I wanted to go up to her and find out if she was E, but the girl suddenly ran with the dog to the shelter. Perhaps she was in a hurry to take another dog for a walk? Although there were a lot of volunteers, there were many times more dogs, and each one needed to be walked and fed.
Soon, that girl went out with another dog. I could not approach her, as she went on the lawn with two other women. Soon they went slowly to walk with the dogs under the trees. Could it be E? The girl had different hairstyle and different clothes, and I had doubts.
I decided it was time to end this whole strange period of my life, and I slowly walked towards the exit from the oak grove, intending to go to VDNKh.
I was near the road crossing when I saw the three young women coming out onto the asphalt. I thought that I would lose if I just walk up to them and ask my question.
I was not even close to them when the previously noticed girl addressed me somewhat rudely and formally by name (for the first time calling me “Evgeny”, and not “Zhenya”) and asked not to walk after her – but I did not walk after her!
Walking closer I politely said “здравствуйте!” (hi!), to which E replied with a sharp and rude “до свидания!” (bye!). If it was not for my acquaintances with Yana and Yulia, then perhaps I would have been upset by such an unfounded cold attitude towards me, given that I did not wish anyone anything bad – on the contrary, I spent a lot of time and energy trying to help other people to have a better and worthy a life…
Well, it really was E, but I did not recognize her at all, and from the surprise of the whole situation I even asked the girl if it was her – it was. Because of her unexpected rudeness, I suddenly did not feel like talking to her at all, but since I was there, I decided to say that I wanted to talk to her. E had no desire to speak with me. I said nothing more to her and slowly went for a walk around VDNKh.
I want to clarify that before E, only one girl out of hundreds told me a rude “bye!” to my “hi!”.
I remembered the words of my father, when a very long time ago he told me how he went to confess his love to a girl, and it turned out that she was not worth it – I think I had similar feelings towards E.
Well, it is important not only to find a girlfriend, but it is even more important to find a girlfriend who will not “gnaw” on your brains – this is a light version of what the married woman Katya told me a while ago in Gorky Park.
I would like to briefly clarify one point related to psychology. When addressing a person with a formal “you” (Вы), I usually feel a mental barrier and a feeling as if I and the interlocutor are separated by some distance, but after switching to an informal “you” (ты) I immediately psychologically feel the difference in how I perceive the interlocutor, and here I can already open up, feeling that the interlocutor and I are close and have normal, friendly communication – even if we may part after the conversation and never see each other again. When E addressed me as “Вы” – and we switched to “ты” almost immediately after we met – I took it as her disrespect for me; as a sign that she does not want to be close to me and is trying to distance herself from me – her free choice, of course.
Having touched on the topic of psychology, I will also add how during the summer of 2020 I would sometimes return to masturbation, and then on the same day I would go to the other end of the city where I would calmly walk, without experiencing any health problems. This again showed me that my early problems with cardiac arrhythmias and breathing after masturbation were associated with psychology and neurosis, and they happened, by and large, due to my worries and thoughts, which I myself chose to have in my head instead of quickly understanding at what moment I made a mistake that led to the unplanned masturbation, remembering it, and then just focusing my mind on the real material world.
And speaking about the mistake and unplanned masturbation, I deliberately chose to masturbate about once every two weeks while I do not have a girlfriend. In doing so I try to find a balance point between excessive masturbation and the absence of any sexual release at all. But I sometimes wonder if it is still a mistake not to quit masturbating completely.
After VDNKh, I had lunch and then went to Gorky Park where an interesting case of synchronicity occurred.
I saw a girl walking alone and decided to catch up with her. Once I was by her side, I told her about my desire to get to know her in case she does not have a boyfriend or husband.
She looked at me for a while and then said that firstly she needed water. I replied that the water kiosk was a few meters from us. The girl went into the rose garden, looked around, and said that earlier there was water there. Then the girl turned around and walked in the other direction – perhaps failing to catch what I told her about the kiosk.
Thinking that we were getting acquainted, I asked her name.
Veronica told it and then asked me a couple of questions about how I met [with girls]; whether I only approached single girls, or I also approached those who were not alone – I replied that sometimes I approached a group of girls, but only if they were not busy chatting with each other. This summer I decided to step out of my comfort zone even further in order to have a better chance of finding a girlfriend, and also to have a better chance of just chatting with someone and learning something new.
Then she started giving me advice to go and get to know all the dancers who danced on the dance floor by the Moscow River – not a good sign; but I still thought she had no one since she started talking to me after I asked her if she had a husband or boyfriend.
Then Veronica asked me if I was going to keep to “ходить за ней” (walk after her) – the very words that E told me a few hours earlier. Being a little puzzled, I asked Veronica if we were getting acquainted or not – to which she replied that she had a boyfriend, and that she had already told me about it. I mentioned that I asked her if she had someone and she did not tell me anything; but Veronica kept insisting on her words. I said goodbye to her.
I thought then, how interesting it was that on the same day two different girls told me the same thing, and in both cases both girls did not understand the whole situation, making me guilty in their own eyes. I do not think that I myself did anything wrong in both cases.
Then I remembered how a couple of days ago I had a conversation with a girl in the rose garden of Gorky Park. Both she and Veronica mentioned dancing. It made me wonder if Veronica could have been that same girl? If I was to assume that this is the case, there are several lessons to be learned.
Firstly, it was another sign that you should not be shy to take a good look at the girls you talk to. I sometimes thought that it is quite possible that I had already approached to meet the same girl several times, because I simply did not remember her appearance. This, in general, is not at all surprising, since girls often use different cosmetics, and also often change their hairstyles and clothes – the main reasons why I did not recognize E.
Secondly, this moment reminded me of the so-called first impression.
It may seem strange, and I am not sure myself what the exact reason is, but when I accidentally heard the girl in the rose garden talking on the phone and answering her interlocutor that she had not epilated the “oyster” yet, I started to be slightly repelled by that girl. This is odd considering my years of problematic experience with pornography. But despite my slight disgust, I still decided to talk to that girl when she finished talking on the phone, in order to learn something new for myself. She had a boyfriend, and in the further conversation she emphasized that the main thing is not to despair in search of a girlfriend.
As for Veronica, even after her words not to follow her, she still remains pretty for me in my memory. If Veronica and the girl from the rosary are really one and the same person, then one could conclude that one should not rely heavily on the first impression, but it is better to draw conclusions about a person based on several impressions after several meetings. By the way, the girl from the rosary was talking about the same when she told me that people can be in different moods on different days and segments of days, and finding a person at such a moment can lead to a completely wrong conclusion about him.
We continued to correspond with Yulia in WhatsApp. She had serious personal problems – her boyfriend beat her badly. I tried to cheer Yulia up and advised her to meditate and concentrate instead of using alcohol and cigarettes, which she began to lightly use to soothe the physical and psychological pain. She appreciated it.
After some time, I met with Yulia for the second time to take a walk, but I was in even worse shape than when we first met, and I will not be at all surprised if Yulia will never want to meet again. But at least we continue to text each other from time to time.
The reason for this regression lies in the fact that I allowed myself to heavily think about the details of my acquaintance with E, thinking and imagining what went wrong that day, what I should have done differently… The irony of this regression lies in what I said to E about how I managed to make great progress in my life, letting go of almost all thoughts and fantasies… and so she was destined to become one of the links in the chain that temporarily returned me to the abyss of almost constant thinking and fantasies… But I was able to realize the negative effects of my decisions, and I left only the knowledge I learned from that life lesson, regaining control over myself.
Thanks to the people with whom I was able to talk over the summer of 2020, by and large it became clear to me that, on the one hand, my life experience is quite unique and unusual compared to the experience of many other people of our time, but on the other hand, it is quite ordinary experience for a person living on a planet of the first category. I was clearly not the only one who had problems and who suffered.
Simply put, I made a big problem out of my whole life and my experience, but that problem never really existed – this is an ordinary life, and I should not put this or that experience of my life much higher than another. This approach will help to shed the burden from the shoulders that exists only in a person's head, but at the same time is well reflected in his general behavior – body language, speech, and facial expressions.
The material and spiritual knowledge acquired this summer also helped me shed even more light on a dream that I had almost 14 years ago. Mirror reflection told me then in the dream: “I will never let you get out of yourself.” The word “never” is used only when you are absolutely sure that something will happen (or, alternatively, not happen), and so it means 100%. Where can we find one hundred percent in the Universe? At its very foundation – in cause and effect, when absolutely all actions have absolutely precise consequences. Correct decisions will one hundred percent bring happiness, but wrong decisions will one hundred percent bring suffering. The fact is that a person’s decision to have conversations in his head is a mistake, and it causes negative consequences in the form of tense facial expressions which, in turn, after a certain time can cause damage to the physical body. That is, I cannot build fantasies in my head and expect that my face will not show this or there will be no other negative consequences – this is not possible according to the Law of the Universe (this is the same as on an ordinary summer day to put an ordinary metal pot of water over an ordinary fire and wait for the water in the pot to freeze). Perhaps my old dream spoke about this in an abstract way. Dreams do not occur to us to do harm, but on the contrary – to help us. But we need to learn our lesson ourselves and look for the meaning of something. Nobody will give us anything on a plate.
The Golden Mean
In the end, I would like to devote a few pages to how people sense themselves, and to balance in our human lives.
In fact, this is a very serious topic, especially nowadays, when the words “transgender” and “transsexual” can be heard very often.
Unfortunately, due to the lack of knowledge about reincarnation, some people have taken matters to the extreme, and therefore they are making a mistake.
When you pull the swing back from its resting state to its extreme point, you are giving it potential energy. And when you let go of the pulled back swing, it now has kinetic energy. Having it, the swing will not stop instantly in the middle, at the state of rest, but it will almost reach the opposite extreme point. Due to the friction of the rope and the resistance of the air, the swing will be losing some of its energy and eventually will again reach the middle point between the two extremes and come to the state of rest – the balanced state.
I noticed that people, being part of the Universe, also tend to rush from one extreme to another. That is, a person, being at the extreme point, sooner or later will be disappointed in it (since the extreme is a mistake, and all mistakes lead to suffering), and when this happens, that person due to lack of certain knowledge can go to the other erroneous extreme, considering it the right decision, as it seems to him that the opposite of something that is a wrong thing must be the right thing. This is not true. Only the middle point that contains all the best of the two extremes is the right decision (we can determine what is useful and what is harmful, using logic and common sense). And if the swing slows down due to the loss of its energy due to friction of the rope and collisions with molecules in the atmosphere, then people slow down due to the accumulation of spiritual and material knowledge, which more and more protect a person from making serious errors – roughly speaking, a person is brought into balance thanks to the resistance of his knowledge.
I am reminded of a quote that can be seen on the Internet, and the main idea of which is that the person who speaks the truth is often the most hated (It is attributed to Plato, but in fact I could not find the source; nevertheless, I like the meaning of this expression). Since people arrive to the balanced middle point thanks to the accumulation of spiritual knowledge, and those people live on the planets of the ninth category, I am not at all surprised that that quote is very relevant on the planets of the first category, where there are usually not so many highly spiritual people.
On the FAQ page of www.Thiaoouba.com website it is said how, after returning to Earth, Michel found himself in opposition with most people, including his family and even ufologists.[15] Having my above-stated understandings about life, I am no longer surprised by this fact.
Returning to men and women, both of them can think in the same way, being a single part of the Superior Intelligence, and having, in fact, identical souls (except for the accumulated spiritual knowledge), as well as psychic bodies that are part of the soul and also do not die. Knowing this, it should not be surprising that some girls who have not yet accumulated a lot of spiritual knowledge, can easily deceive others for personal gain using their bodies, for example. Material and spiritual knowledge plays a primary role in calculating what decision a person will make in any given situation, and not his appearance – no matter how beautiful it is. Appearance is a part of that life situation.
Further, men and women, by and large, have the same sensations. Only the genitals give each sex its own unique sensations, which are different. By the way, for me the word “man” means a person who from birth, or from nature, has male genitals; and a “woman” is a person who has female genitals from birth. These words have nothing to do with how people think or feel in their bodies – we think and feel the world around us as people, human beings.
I had one case when I was thinking and imagining about children, and suddenly, unexpectedly, I felt inside my being a distinct “feminine” feeling of motherhood. I put the word in quotation marks because it is obviously not feminine – otherwise I, as a man, simply would have been able to physically feel it – but I can see how many men might panic thinking they are a woman. No, you are human.
Masculinity and femininity mean human traits and qualities that people of all genders can physically have. But because of the upbringing of children, many girls began to lean to one extreme, and guys began to lean to the other one. There are situations when it is worth being compassionate, sensual, gentle, while in other situations it is better to be courageous, assertive. Balance is needed everywhere.
For example, when your 5-year-old is threatened by high school students, then courage and fortitude are definitely among the traits that a person (regardless of gender) should activate in himself in order to have a loud, stern voice and protect the child; but if a baby is crying without stopping and needs to be lulled, then a loud, harsh voice will only aggravate the whole situation, and here, in order to calm the baby down, a person (regardless of gender) should now activate tenderness and gentleness that would hardly help with hostile high school students.
Why were we not immediately created as hermaphrodites? A hermaphrodite is the middle, the perfect balance between man and woman. As you know, in order to achieve that balance, people need to learn spiritually until they can reincarnate on the planet of the ninth category. To achieve that balance, people often must go through the “swing effect” where they make a mistake and go to the other side from the middle to experience life from a different perspective. But those fluctuations between the middle value become less and less (due to the acquisition of new spiritual knowledge), until we stop in the golden balanced middle and become perfect – and, in fact, Thiaooubians are perfect, and so are the inhabitants of other planets of the ninth category. For this reason, people of the ninth spiritual category have nothing more to study spiritually, since they know everything, being exactly in the middle, and they will no longer be able to move in their spiritual development – just like a completely stopped swing that physically cannot stop much further.
I want to clarify that these reasonings have nothing to do with the wrong decisions of some people to “change” gender; think that you are of the opposite sex; or raise your children as if they are of the opposite sex, or have no sex. First, I put the word “change” in quotation marks, since reincarnation is the only natural and unmistakable way to change your gender. In a new incarnation, a person will be able to naturally know and feel what it really means to be a member of the opposite sex. It is not wise to make a mistake and “change” gender, which in any case will not make Palantius get relaxed (More precisely, I do not think Palantius will relax, since only the physical body gets changed – and it is not even a 100% change. Palantius itself is part of the fluidic body). Secondly, I have already said my opinion that gender only determines which genitals a person has – and nothing more.
When it comes to clothes, people of both sexes can wear whatever they want – all beings have free will, after all. For example, girls have long been wearing so-called “men's” clothes, and no one pays any attention to it. The act itself – the fact that a person is wearing clothes – is not a mistake. Naturally! Here we can also remember the fact that matching the colors of clothes with the colors of our Aura will have a beneficial effect on our physical and psychological state. Both women and men can have a wide variety of colors in their Aura, and all those people should feel comfortable wearing those colors among other people.
So why is there a cry out happening when a man shows up in clothes that look like, and maybe even are, women’s? It is about psychology and habits. It is about what people began to consider as “normal” in their society – and normal does not always mean natural, and also correct. For example, I do not get cringe feeling to see a Scottish Highlander wearing a skirt as I understand that it is their tradition and it is normal and customary in their country, and the man himself is most likely of traditional sexual orientation; in fact, kilt skirts are of practical value in rainy climates and mountainous terrain. Things are a little different when it comes to a typical male who has put on women's clothes, since nowadays such people are synonymous with people who “change” gender, want to feel themselves as a “woman”, etc … When I see a woman in men's clothes, I see a person who just likes such clothes, a person who feels himself at ease and comfortable in such clothes – that is all. But when in modern times I see a man in a woman's attire, I have questions about whether that person is all right?
Unfortunately, the answer is often “no”. So, not so long I stumbled upon a person on YouTube who looked and acted like a girl. Then it seemed interesting to me that a girl is so interested in the video game of my childhood, and makes videos about that series of games. After some time, I watched a stream of one actress who played the main character in one of the parts of that popular video game, and she had the same person from YouTube on her stream as a guest. When someone in the chat called that person a man, I thought that the person who wrote the message was just a rude individual who wants to ridicule some of the masculine features of that guest from YouTube. A day later, I saw similar comments again, some of which mentioned that person's former pseudonym on porn sites. Then I decided to check what was being said, and it turned out that this is really a guy – the presence of male genital organs does not lie. He made himself fake breasts, and he also deliberately lowered his voice and slowed down his speech to sound like a girl; I say deliberately, because in one of his old videos that guy suddenly got tired of his playing as a girl and began to speak in a fast and bass male voice – so he was not a girl with male genitals, but only pretended to be a girl. Fortunately for myself, I never had any feelings other than respect for that man when I still considered him a woman, but at the same time I felt deceived.
