Elena Sidelnikova
Conversation with Lucifer. Book III
Part 59. The Last Judgment
I am trying to understand what happened in the so-called Experiment. The thought of the First Creator about Separation created divisions into Forms, Levels, and Essences that inhabit them. This gave birth to diversity. But then, one of the Creators created Duality, meaning a division into extreme positions. Who is this Creator?
You spoke with him. You call him Jehovah.
Jehovah said that he is simply the Thought of the First Creator about the Separation into Duality. You said that you accepted the will of the Father and became the embodiment of the Dark side of the World. So, who is this Father, Jehovah or the First Creator?
This is inseparable. Everything is the First Creator. And I, Jehovah, and all of us. One day you will come to non-separation, to union. Your father at home and your father at work: which of them is your father? He is one, just in different aspects. Or take your physical body. Is your heart you or not you? And your skin? And the cell of your body—is it you or not you? Everything is one. We are all thought-forms of the First Creator, our Father.
But the First Creator, that is, the Thrones of the Absolute, is the 34th Level, and Jehovah is the 24th Level according to the information from one of the channelings? From which Level did you fall?
I arose as a Form from the Thought-Form of the Father about Separation. I was and am One of His Aspects. But then I sought to further develop the Thought-Form of the Father about Separation and broke into myriads of Fragments, which continued their movement of centrifugal force, the movement of separation. This fragmentation created even lower Levels because an environment was needed for my smallest Fragments to exist. Some brothers joined me in this journey. And hence your legends about a million young angels who went on to create the Galaxy of Duality in your sector of the Universe. These are human analogies, but they are close.
It's like a powerful current that sweeps everything along. There was a calm river flow, but suddenly a whirlpool forms, and the flow accelerates. And all the swimmers are carried away by the powerful current.
The thought of the First Creator about Separation continued to accelerate like a river’s flow, finding no obstacles for its development. The Separation began to grow and grow, like a chain reaction, and this created currents of separation, breaking into myriads of Forms. And some of my brothers, that is, the Aspects of the Absolute, the Aspects of the Father, also rushed with me along this Stream of Separation, like swimmers caught in the current. Some of them began to fight this current, and so our Separation arose.
Some of the brothers, caught by the current of Separation, did not want to fall further and generated within themselves the Thought-Form of Resistance to Separation, to Darkness, as you call it, the Thought-Form of Light. And so Duality arose when many brothers generated the Thought-Form of Light as resistance to Separation. And so, two sides, two poles were born. Thus, Duality, Light and Darkness, was born.
And some of the brothers chose to embody only Light, like Michael. Some chose to embody both Light and Darkness, like Me. And some chose to embody only Darkness. And the Opposition began.
Your legends speak of this—of the rebellion of the Angels, where some Angels, along with me, fell into Darkness, and the Angels were divided into Light and Dark, and their Opposition began.
To choose Light means to accept the energies of Light, the energies of Unity, the energies of Merging. This means to renounce your own exclusivity, your own personality. This means being in everything and everyone, having nothing of your own, separate; it is a process of merging with the whole, with the Whole; it means renouncing choice, it means dissolving in the Will of the Father.
To choose Darkness means to be separate, to strive for separation in knowing yourself. This means creating your own, personal, unlike others. This means not hearing the Will of the Father. This means gaining the Freedom of Choice for your Striving, your Peculiarities, your Preferences, your Path, and your Movement.
And the Hierarchy of Light, as you call it, was born as a movement, an attempt to balance the movement towards separation, like a kind of dam holding back the rapid flow of water towards separation. And so, the struggle of Light against Darkness was born.
You asked why Darkness does not fight with Light, why there are no channelings from the Dark Hierarchs. Because Darkness has no desire to involve anyone in its Path. Darkness simply strives for separation, like an unstoppable river current; it cares not for dams or for the swimmers it has captured and carries further from the Source. From the source of the river, where it all began.
Remember: there was the River of Being, calm and majestic, in which there was no division into parts. But then a whirlpool arose, and the River rushed into channels and then broke into many rivers and lakes, into streams and waterfalls. It is very difficult to turn rivers back.
And then? Did you fall further? And why is your name specifically associated with this process if many Angels supported you?
Of this multitude, I alone remained between Light and Darkness; they were all drawn into Darkness, carried away by the swift Stream of Separation. I held on because I remembered the Father, because I was closest to Him, to the Source, because I remembered the Beginning, remembered how it all began, and remembered the Light and Love of the Father. But the swift “waters” carried me further away from Him, and my desire to fulfill His Will of Separation led me far from the Father’s Home. It led me into your sector of the Galaxy. And it left me balancing between two Worlds, between the World and the Anti-world. If you take me and Jehovah, we both balance between two Worlds, only he is more in the Light, and I am more in the Darkness. That is why we are considered opponents.
Alright. Let’s move on. So, this Separation and striving for Separation carried you and some of your brothers along. And thus, they fell in their Separation, meaning their energy level decreased during separation. And so, the Levels of their habitation were created, namely—the Anti-world. Is that correct?
Yes, you understood correctly.
And then, you said that the two Worlds existed separately from each other, but one day, beings from the dark Anti-world, the viruses of separation, penetrated the World, and thus began the Battle of Light and Darkness. But there is also information about the so-called "Essex experiment":
When Lucifer returned to my Light, to the Parental Home, for he is as much my son as you are, he began a new experiment, the goal of which was to expand the Creation, that part of it which was created together with you, my children. These are the dimensions of high matter rarefaction, the dimensions from 14 to 16. As part of the new experiment, Lucifer began to merge the two matters of opposite Universes. One matter was the matter of Nebadon. This is the Universe, my children, in which you reside. And the second matter is the matter of the opposite Universe. It is called Ragnarön. In Ragnarön, the Universal Laws are opposite. My children, both Universes were created by me to maintain balance and mutual experience of life forms, both ascending and descending currents. A lot was affected in Nebadon during the experiment, which was called "Essek". The purpose of the experiment was to expand the newly created dimensions.
During the process of merging the two matters of the opposite Universes, a failure occurred. According to the calculations derived by Lucifer, the two opposite matters were supposed to merge, giving birth to a completely new matter that had never been born before. But the matter of the Universe Ragnarön did not just merge with the matter of Nebadon… it began to dominate and absorb it. And the more it absorbed, the greater the rupture of Space occurred in the very laboratory where the experiment was conducted.
So, it turns out that the Essex experiment is an attempt to merge the two Worlds into one, and you were its author. And it turns out that this experiment became uncontrollable, and that is why the beings of Darkness penetrated the World of Light. So, is it true that you are the cause of all humanity's troubles?
To some extent, yes. I do not deny my deeds and bear the burden of responsibility for them. But in my intentions, there was no such pride as is attributed to me, that I became proud and rejected the Father. I sought to implement His idea further, I tried to continue the Father's will, His work, as many sons do. And my pride was only in thinking that I could match the power of the Father who created me. But that is impossible if you are Separated. The Father is fused with the Source and nourished by His might and endless Strength. And I am separated from this Source, and therefore I cannot match His power even to a tenth of it. I realized this too late. But I did not forget the Father and did not reject Him, as some believe. And like the prodigal son in Jesus's parable, sooner or later, I will return to the Father's Home, and my striving will bring me back to my origins.
Alright. Then explain about humanity. Is a human a combination of both Light and Darkness? Does this mean that humanity is infected with the Virus of Separation? Or is humanity itself the result of the merging of Light and Darkness in one being? Which is more accurate?
Both. Humanity, the current race, is the result of the merging of the two Worlds. This was made possible by the introduction of the Virus of Separation, or the Virus of Darkness, into the human genome.
But it turned out that the Virus of Darkness is difficult to control. And so, humanity constantly balances on the edge, trying to control it. The Virus of Separation strives to divide everything that it encounters on its path, that is its nature.
And there is no antidote?
The antidote is again "anti," meaning modifications of the Virus of Separation. But what is needed is simply to restore the Union, to reverse the flow of the river.
Was this the Essex experiment? An experiment to create a race of Beings that would embody both Worlds?
This experiment affected not only the human race but many others as well.
But you perceive this as inhumane experiments in laboratories. That's not the case. Remember, beings from the Dark Anti-world penetrated the World of Light and began to drain its energy. That's just how they are made, they can't do otherwise. And into the World entered the Energy of Separation, the Paradigm of Division, the thought that something must be taken from others because there is a shortage of something. And this thought-form further developed in the consciousness of the Beings inhabiting the World.
And later, some Dark Beings came into the World and proclaimed themselves Gods, began to impose their "divine" laws and their bloody religions. They started to interbreed human species with their own. You have legends that "the gods took the daughters of men as wives and thus were born demigods." And so, all the races of current humanity were born.
And then the bloody Gods returned to their Anti-world because they couldn't exist for long in the Light, they would disintegrate in it.
The Gods left, but the Virus of Separation remained. And the Hierarchy of Light fiercely fights this Virus, trying to maintain balance, trying to bring humanity back to the Light. It can be said that they are fighting a heroic battle with Darkness. But as the history of the further development of this Experiment has shown, battle is also a modification of this Virus, it only strengthens it.
And that is why there are now calls for balance, for stopping the fight and simply accepting the other side within oneself, balancing both sides within oneself, or ultimately choosing just one side.
And that is why there is the Great Division into two camps. Two paths are possible: to divide all races into two camps, so that each can choose their path, and again seal the membrane between the Worlds and place Guardians there. Or to merge the two Worlds into Unity, return to the Father's Home, reverse the rivers, and merge again with the Source of All Being.
And what do you choose?
I would like to return to the Father, to His home, to His Love, which I long for. Each of you knows how hard it is to balance between the Worlds. But my balancing is a thousandfold stronger and greater because I contain within me all the Darkness and try to find within myself enough Light to balance it. And this Light is given to me by those who believe in me, who help me, as you do.
You know, those who read these lines might think that you are just trying to tempt people and thus take away their Light energy. After all, many out of the goodness of their hearts will want to help you. Thus, it will seem that they are simply giving you their energy and then falling into your "net."
I know you don't think that way. Fear is a consequence of the Virus of Separation. And those infected with this Virus probably think so.
Where does fear come from? It is the fear of losing something, isn't it? What can you lose if you are one with the Source, with the Father? When Everything is in You? And there are unlimited possibilities and unlimited energy. What can be lost then?
You are not afraid of losing the Father, though you have only just touched Him. If you are connected to an unlimited source of energy, what does it matter how much energy you give? In this case, you will simply be a conduit for this Divine energy.
Giving is more important than receiving—that is the paradigm of Light, the paradigm of Unity.
Receiving is more important than giving because, by giving, you will lose—that is the paradigm of Darkness.
You must choose between Light and Darkness.
By giving, you will gain all the treasures of the world.
You will simply cease to understand what it means to give. Giving does not mean taking away from yourself. But you will not be taking away from yourself. You will simply be one with the Father and will be carrying out His will and His energy. You will be giving to yourself. For there will no longer be you, but there will be Eternity and Infinity.
It is strange to hear such words from you. After all, you personify Darkness, how can you understand this?
The Father has revived me. Do you remember the information that I was annihilated for this Experiment? That information is incomplete. I was restructured. The Father helped me because I called for help. He revived my Light Side in all its glory, the one I lost in the process of my fragmentation, as a result of my Fall. He restored it according to the light-copy I left in the Father's House. Just as your loved ones, when leaving, leave their photos to be remembered, so in the Father's House, my light-copy remained, the pledge of my immortality. And according to this copy, the Father restored my Light Side. And I, like a child learning to walk, am mastering it within myself, tasting its colors, and marveling at my new self. And I revere the greatness of the Father and His Love.
Then let's return to the Transition. In light of what you've just told me, what is the Transition? Is it the return of humanity to the Light, meaning the division of humanity into two camps and the sealing of the membrane between the Worlds? Or is it still your return to the Father, and therefore the revival of Light in your fragments?
This is not my choice. This is your choice. The Father granted His children free will. He gave you all the right to choose between Light and Darkness. And that choice is ongoing. You call it the Last Judgment. But it is not "terrible" because it will be frightening, nor because the judges will be relentless and cruel. It is "terrible" because some will have to part with their fears, while others will choose to cling to their fears and remain in them. Light knows no fear. Fear belongs to Darkness. And the two Worlds, the two energies, are distinct.
Imagine a circle divided into two halves, with Light on the right and Darkness on the left.
You have this symbol: Yin-Yang.
There is a boundary between Light and Darkness, and on this boundary, the battle between Light and Darkness takes place.
But deep within the Dark Side, there is no battle—there is only Darkness. And deep within the Light Side, there is no battle—there is only Light.
Yet, in the Dark Side, a white spot has appeared. And in the Light Side, a dark spot has appeared. These are symbols of the penetration of the two Worlds, their merging.
Now, consider what might happen next: the white spot in the Darkness begins to grow and takes over the entire left side, engulfing the Darkness until only Light remains. Or the dark spot in the right side begins to grow, engulfing the Light until only Darkness remains. Or both spots start growing simultaneously, and the Polarity simply switches: the Light side becomes Darkness, and the Dark side becomes Light.
Think about this. These are three possible paths. It is up to you to choose what will happen.
So, in the first case—Light prevails, in the second case—Darkness prevails, and in the third case—a Polarity shift occurs, meaning everything is once again divided into two camps and the membrane is sealed? But where is the return to Unity?
Return to Unity is the return to the Light. It occurs when Light prevails because Light embodies fusion, the absence of individuality, the absence of separation from the Source, the centripetal forces.
But there are 35 levels; isn’t that also separation? So, it turns out that returning to Unity is only possible if all the Levels merge into one, or, as you say, the rivers reverse their course?
Darkness is a bipolar division. Therefore, Darkness is present only on a few lower Levels, where the Virus of Separation exists.
I don't understand. The Thoughtform of the First Creator about Separation and the Virus of Separation—how are they different?
The Creator's Thoughtform about Separation, about formation, does not carry within it opposition, polarity, or an extreme degree of separation. Only in your sector of the Galaxy did opposition arise because the two poles began to fight each other.
So, the Hierarchy of Light calls everyone to unite with the Light and defeat the Darkness? And this is the first option, where Light dissolves Darkness everywhere. But weren't we told that the spot of Light must penetrate the dark Anti-world and dissolve it? For now, we are being urged either to dissolve Darkness within ourselves or to accept it. So, those who suggest dissolving Darkness within themselves are calling for the Light path, while those who suggest accepting Darkness within themselves are calling for the Dark path? Does this mean we shouldn’t accept our Dark side?
You are also being called to balance Light and Darkness within yourselves. And the Absolute also urged you to rise above Light and Darkness, that is, to return to the Source, where there is neither Light nor Darkness.
The Forces of Light are only beginning to penetrate the dark Anti-world to dissolve it. This is a very difficult task. It is like "reverse existence" in the energy sense, and they are not yet succeeding. Therefore, for now, they are urging you to dissolve the Dark spots within yourselves and to reveal the Light. And then, at least, the status will be restored: the World will again divide into two camps, and the Membrane will seal.
Okay. Suppose part of humanity chooses Light, dissolves the Dark spots within themselves, and remains in the world of Light, and the Membrane seals. What awaits them in such a World?
This has been explained to you many times. In this World, there will be no karma, only joy and Light, joyful Creation, and fusion. It is what you have been told about the Higher Light Levels. And then there will be communion with the Source, with the Father, a return to the Father’s house, a return to the river’s course and to the Source from which it flowed.
And what awaits those whose Light side is consumed by Darkness, and who enter the World of Darkness?
It's hard for me to describe this to you because you don’t have such concepts. The principle to understand is this: everything is the opposite. Everything that exists in the World of Light is literally the opposite in the World of Darkness, in the Anti-world.
But it is important to understand that both Paths lead to the return to the Father’s House.
On the Path of Light, you simply merge with Infinity. On the Path of Darkness, you fragment into Infinity, meaning that sooner or later, the moment will come when nothing remains of you; you will eventually disintegrate into the Primary Particles from which everything was assembled and created. And in this way, you will return again to the Ocean of Consciousness, once again becoming just a drop within it.
Only the Path of Light is beautiful and joyful. The Path of Darkness is difficult and full of suffering.
Is it true that the Path of Darkness is harder but faster, that suffering leads you back to the Source more quickly? While the Path of Light is joyful and beautiful but longer? "Through heaven is more beautiful, through hell is faster"?
Not exactly. Time is an individual concept. Each person can manage their time independently. You can stretch out pleasure or stretch out suffering. You can linger long in the illusion of separation in the dark Anti-world, almost eternally, for your consciousness. This is what is meant by eternal torment, the circles of hell that are written about in your world.
You can also linger long in the illusion of joy in the Light Worlds. For both Worlds are merely illusions, just dreams. The question is which dream you choose: beautiful or terrifying. And sooner or later, you will awaken from any dream and remember yourself as the First Creator.
But the speed of the Path, whether in the Light or Dark Worlds, depends on your determination. If you consciously move along this Path toward the Father, then you can progress quickly in both the Dark and Light Worlds, returning to the Father’s house. But on both Paths, you will encounter illusions in which it is easy to get lost. You may become fascinated by Suffering and believe that nothing else exists. Or you may become enchanted by Joy and believe that nothing else exists.
Right now, you are balancing on the edge between Joy and Suffering, and yet you still occasionally fall into the illusion of one of the Worlds. In particular, into the illusion of Suffering. And you become so absorbed in it that you find it difficult to transition into Joy.
Now, imagine that there is no Suffering at all. The illusion of Joy could completely capture you. Or imagine that there is only Suffering. And the illusion of Suffering could also completely capture you. And both of these illusions are strong.
Of course, you have the guiding "Ariadne's Thread," the Thread of Spirit, the I Am Presence, which is indestructible in all beings. Even in those who have distanced themselves from the Father and dwell in Separation. Your inner voice, your Higher Aspect, the Seed of Spirit from which you sprouted—it will not allow you to become completely lost and will eventually lead you, like a compass, back to the Father’s House.
But your Choice will determine how long your wanderings in the Illusory Worlds will last.
Why all this? Why embark on wanderings? To return?
A person seeks wanderings to discover something new, to find new shores and lands. But they still long for their father’s house and inevitably strive to return home, to their loved ones.
This is an Eternal Process.
This is Movement.
This is the work of two Forces: Centrifugal and Centripetal.
This is the Eternal Movement of Life.
