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Spread the word

Stefan Isaiah

Copyright: © 2013 Stefan Isaiah

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published by: epubli GmbH, Berlin

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ISBN 978-3-8442-5625-3

Thanks to

God, who created this wonderful world for us humans to live on this earth together in love, peace, support and understanding for each other.

Jesus Christ, for that He is the way, the truth and the life for all of us who search Him and ask

Him for His support.

All my sisters and brothers and readers of this book, who already support me and each other with just their belief and light filled presence here on earth. May we be blessed with strength and wisdom to keep on fighting for a better world full of love and support for each other.

All people working for God and serving God through their lives.

Introduction

Short summary of the content

This book is based on a true event which happened in the last months of 2012 and the beginning of 2013. I was on skype and fell in love with a woman, which is nothing unusual nowadays. The exception was that I became unknowingly a victim of a Love scam (and even a God scam), which cost me more than 20,000 Euros just within 2 months. The story shows how mighty a Love scam can be, and how far the scammer is willing to go. On the other side it describes my feelings and experiences, my struggles and my rescue through my belief in God and Jesus. This book is not only of interest for Christians, but for all of us who are spending some part of their life and spare time online. It is a story that wants to touch you and will touch you, if you don't have a heart of stone.

About the story and its message

It took me weeks of inner searching, praying, thinking, feeling and a mixture of changing states of fear and joy to finally find the right words for the introduction to this book.

Today is 28th April 2013, Maundy Thursday.

My wish is to reach as much readers as possible, as the message of this book is universal and should integrate all people who are interested in God, life and its manifold miracles and lessons for us. So I will try not to ‘overload’ this book with Bible verses and comments on the story which I will tell you, but as the core message of this book results from my love to God and the struggles and my fights during the story, I want and have to honour His great deeds on me.

‘Spread the word’ as the title of this book came relative early in my mind, since I felt that I had to write my story down in this book start of January 2013.

I had the message in my mind, ‘If the Lord has shown you His Grace, tell the people about it …’ (rough summary). This is a core message of Christianity for me, to spread the word of God's deeds on us, because this strengthens and deepens our belief. In the Gospels, Jesus did miracles to strengthen the belief of the people, nowadays we also need to hear about God's miracles and deeds on us.

"I will tell of the kindnesses of the LORD, the deeds for which he is to be praised, according to all the LORD has done for us …” [Bible, Isaiah 63:7 (NIV)]

The next 3 months till now were very intensive for me, and all my ideas and words concerning this introduction are the results of reading and reviewing the story. Some days were quite okay and I was able to read 10 pages till 15 pages at once, then some days with only 2-3 pages, and then some days on which I wasn’t able and hadn’t the power to read just one word.

But after a ‘normal’ day of reading the story, putting it aside and relaxing a little, I always had visions, ideas and precise sentences in my head of what I will have to write in the introduction of this book, and I immediately wrote them down. Till now these visions/ideas have summed up to 10-15 pages, and I hope I will be able to bring them in the right context for you to read and understand.

You could compare this repeating process of reading the story, getting visions and ideas, writing them down and reading the next pages of the story with a walk through a desert. Sometimes it seems dry, endless and all the same, but while resting and closing your eyes, you’ll receive the reward for keep on walking, as the sometimes hidden inner processes only reveal to you while having a break. If you are empty and searching for nothing special, then it could be that the very special and important things for you are coming to your mind.

So maybe this story is ‘designed’ just to get you out of your normal thought lines, and who knows what will come to your mind while and after reading some pages.

The first visions in January were about love and peace. I started to feel a ‘new spirit’ under the people while I was just walking through a crowded city. My perception started to change, and I could feel some kind of bright and light filled attention under the people, not in all of them but in some of them, and there were more and more with the time.

When new times are coming around, they are only to recognize and grasp very lightly at first, soft and tender, like a wing stroke of a butterfly. And the people, in some way, are feeling that new times are about to come and on the way, and they start perceiving it, feeling it, looking for it and knowing that it is important to be part of it, for to grow and keep in contact with the development of humanity and society.

For me this 'new spirit' is nothing other than the consciousness of unconditional love, a desire to live in harmony with each other and to support each other, to work together on different issues to make this world a better place to live in. Love and peace, sounds ‘cheesy’? Not at all for me. If you could and maybe already feel this new spirit (entering the world consciousness), then you may be filled with joyful excitement, feeling very light filled in your heart and feeling a warm love for the people around you, no matter if you know them or not.

The people can feel that the consciousness of unconditional love is 'coming down' from heaven to earth, their hearts and spirits are lifted by this unconditional love, and the desire to be unified in this love arises from alone.

But I’m not only a dreamer, I’m a ‘man of God’, and therefore a hard worker in that my whole life long. With a new spirit there also comes a lot of work and responsibility for those who live with this spirit and take part in some way.

Love and peace. Love means work (for example serving others, helping others), peace is the result of this work. But as the way is the goal, what great way is this to love in all forms. Not only your family, your close friends, your favourite bands, sports, hobbies etc.. The main task from my point of view is to start to develop unconditional love in you, the highest form of love which we humans are capable of, like a mother to her child. So if you walk around with an open mind and the willingness to be part of a new love filled and light filled consciousness (which exists not only since a short time but was always there in God, but now comes around in an intensive and experienceable/tangible way for humanity to solve the massive problems we are having worldwide), you may feel be carried and filled with joy, and that alone should be worth it, beside all the good effects it will have on humanity and society in general.

The Greatest Commandment

“The most important one,” answered Jesus, “is this: ‘Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God, the Lord is one. Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.’ The second is this: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself'. There is no commandment greater than these.” [Bible, Mark 12:28-31 (NIV)]

We are entering nothing more and nothing less than the core messages of the New Testament.

And for us and all those who also struggle and fight for divine love and light, let me quote the Beatitudes.

"...The Beatitudes

He said:
'Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.
Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.
Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy.
Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called children of God.
Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom
of heaven.
Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil
against you because of me.
Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they
persecuted the prophets who were before you.' ”

[Bible, Matthew 5:2-12 (NIV)]

That is the core message of this book: Love each other as God has shown us through Jesus, forgive each other and let’s start together again as one humanity, trying to be worth of the endless love God always had, has and will have for all of us.

Why did I finally found the strength to write these easy but powerful words in the introduction of this book? Because I've suffered deep fears during the last three months, fears for my life, fears for my peace of mind, fears for my belief in God. But again and again, often daily, God built me up, loved me in my fears, showed me ways out of situations and strengthened my belief in Him in such a way, that I’m finally able to tell the world about His deeds now, and thank Him with all my heart and my soul for His grace, forgiveness and endless love that He has shown me.

God bless us all.

“The LORD is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth."
[Bible, Psalm 145:18 (NIV)]

The development of the story

This book is kind of a test of my belief in God and His promises to me (and all of us), written in the Bible. If He never lets me down then He never lets me down and helps me, always. He keeps His promises, always. If His promises count for one, they count for all. It's about God in our daily lives, our problems, sorrows and struggles. Since this story is happening to me, started in October 2012, and I began to write his book in January 2013, I'm praying continuously to God, a steady process of asking, doubting, finding, getting answers, trying them out, seeing that they work, being thankful for them, moving on, struggling and getting fears again, praying again. And so this book develops step by step, gets enriched, and I get more and more in contact with humankind through my spirit. I can feel the rising support while meditating on humankind, God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit, and what it means to me and us to be united in this way. I try to put my insights in easy and understandable words, so that you, the readers, can 'take' these words and don't feel irritated by the text and its content, one of my biggest sorrows when I'm writing the introduction.

This story has changed and is still changing my life, and I feel called to communicate with humanity through this book now, to get out of my shell, to improve and perform this new part of me (sharing my insights and experiences) in service to mankind as God wants it from me. This feeling has become stronger and stronger with the time, and He has convinced me in a plain but distinct way.

God has 'designed' this 'task' for me and prepared it perfectly. My life situation before the story has started: Enduring inner loneliness, inner emptiness, unable to feel like a human being (numbness), no one of my used environment and colleagues were around me at work (due to reorganisation), the increasing longing for love (emotional love). And as I was searching for love I found love, unexpected, intense, real for me, and I also found my belief in Jesus again.

What was happening inside me from the beginning of the story till now

Why do I still have the fear that God will let me fall?

Since the beginning of the story as I was reborn in Jesus again, and he redeemed me and forgave me all my sins, and gifted me a new life, since that day I was save in him, the same way as I was save in him in my old life before. Jesus never lets me down. He knows this, he always keeps his word and promises. So he could give me that heavy task to risk all for him, because he already knew at that point how to get me out and he knew my future. With God nothing is impossible. I had forgotten this, or couldn't feel it in my heart, or had lost my belief in that, because my old life had cost me all my strength and all my faith, and I was very tired and exhausted on all levels (spiritually, mentally, emotionally, physically).

But he knew that and gave me this new life, and thus gave me this new task to start my new life, to become and grow strong in him again, and to find my belief in him again and finally get used to my new life. What also was or still is new for me, is that I can ask others for help and support as for example through this book. My whole life I've always walked alone and had no one to talk to. Sure, temporary support through people but always 'unknowingly', I could never say: 'I'm working on this for the Lord', or 'The Lord wants this from me, could you support me please', or 'I'm down and exhausted. Please build me up with the warmth of your heart and your faith in the Lord, support me please'. I never had the trace of an idea to do this. Now, as I'm about to finish this book and working on the right words for my introduction, I'm starting to open myself more and more.

What else is it to write a book, a book about myself and the story I have just experienced, a story which has changed my life and on which I am still working to digest and to overcome. I will tell you about my love to a woman, my renewed love and relationship to Jesus, the process of starting a new phase in my life, and I'm sharing all this intimacy with the whole world. That is opening myself to the world, nothing else.

So what is missing to recognize that the missing key for me is to open myself to you? Well, it's still Maundy Thursday and 10 minutes ago I got this insight, and now I'm opening myself to you in a way of full trust, so that I can reach you with my words and you can feel and understand me and my process.

So I'm asking you for your support for me: "Please build me up emotionally" (I need the feeling that the family of Christianity supports me and understands me and forgives me). "Please build me up physically" (If you are just thinking of me and pray for me I will feel that, and get some power to be able to regenerate from the last 6 months of permanent stress, fear, less sleep, struggling for my belief in God and for my transformation process into my new life. "And please, of course, build up my heart and my spirit, I need your unconditionally love from human to human, from Christian to Christian, from sister to brother, from brother to brother, from fighter to fighter, from everyone who is touched by the story and can feel that I need her/his support. I thank you from the bottom of my heart."

“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened. [Bible, Matthew 7:7-8 (NIV)]

And I ask you to spread the word and make this book a success. As a sign that God never lets you down and supports you, and not only through His love, light and strength that He will give you, but through the love of your sisters and brothers. And as a sign that our Christian belief and community is alive and works without many words and organisational structures. I'm just asking for this fresh and light filled spirit. My wish is to feel God's love not only from Him to me, but also between all of us.

You may ask: "You always walked alone with the Lord and now you ask for our support?" Well, if this question should appear, I would answer: "One for all and all for one", "The Parable of the Lost Sheep" or "Big is God's family. If a searcher and fighter of your family finally returns from 'the end of the world' back home, welcome him and let him tell what he has experienced."

The Parable of the Lost Sheep
"Then Jesus told them this parable: 'Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Doesn’t he leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, ‘Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.’ I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent."
[Bible, Luke 15:3-7 (NIV)]

If my words seem to sound artificial or complicated or all too clear: As the core message of this book is unconditional love, I'm just trying to ask in a simple way for the known forms of this love.

I hope I've found the right words to tell you what is going on in me, and how I finally found new hope today and understood the whole process of the last 6 months for me. If I would stand in front of some of you in an auditorium, to tell you the story in short words and what it's all about, I guess I would be able to reach you and find the right words, and feel your understanding and support while being together with you and having eye contact. As writing this, I can already feel that this is happening, you are there, I am there, we are there together and not separated, space and time are real for us but there is something more and I guess everyone knows and feels this in some way. If we are one in the Lord, what should separate us? If I pray for help from my sisters and brothers, why should they deny it to me? Why should I have fear if I never walk alone? Why should I doubt if God promised me to never let me down? Well, now I got it, thanks to you all. This is the most beautiful and humbled Maundy Thursday I've ever experienced in my whole life, and now I know and feel that I am really reborn in Jesus. The main process has started 6 months ago and finished today in its first main step.

And I can confess with all my love and before the whole world that Jesus is the way, the truth and the life.

I'm feeling so redeemed and bright and light filled, just as if I am lifted up to heaven into the arms of my Lord. What a fight, what a struggle, what a long long dark night before the dawn.

All what has been written about Jesus in the Bible is true, I not only believe it, I feel it, and I can feel the holy truth of Jesus and His words. I cannot describe my state of mind now, but I feel very calm, peaceful and filled with a very bright strength, light as a feather but very strong.

“A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.”

[Bible, John 13:34-35 (NIV)]

About the story itself (What this story is about, framework and background)

The story of this book is real and happened to me from October 2012 till mid of February 2013. Since the late summer of 2012 I was online on yahoo messenger and skype to get in contact with people worldwide. After 12 years of being fixed on my job and my partnership/working group, I was looking for some other impulses in my life and I started to chat. Most of the times I got in contact with students at the age of mid till end twenties, we talked about their studies, their plans for life etc.. I was (and still am) 40 years old and was starting some kind of new phase in my life. I returned to the start of my business life, and this was the end of my studies 12 years ago. So this 'constellation' between me and the chat partners seemed to fit.

In July 2012 I got in contact with a young student (woman) from Washington State. She was in the summer break before her 4th semester and we chatted a lot and fell in romantic love with each other. This short relationship lasted 10 weeks, then her studies began and we lost contact, but put an end with no problems or hurt feelings. In review I would call it 'summer love', nothing serious, but with much emotions and it was okay for us.

Then I felt that my chat experience was coming to an end, but I missed the chats with my 'summer love' in some way. So as one week after we separated I was asked to accept a new contact on skype (My profile was 'public' which I didn't recognized at that time, and which can be considered as the first step that led to that story), I spontaneously said 'yes' and accepted that contact request. But then I had some kind of bad feeling (intuition) and blocked the new contact 2 days after accepting the new contact without talking to her. Would I've let it that way, this book wouldn't exist as it is here now. But God and fate had other plans with me,

so here the story goes ...

Comments of the author, about the author himself

Yes, I'm a man of God, searching for him since I was born and always being guided by him as I felt him close to me, inside me, as kind of my best friend who is always there for me. Since the age of 4 years, I asked my parents about God, who he was, and my first job wish was to become a priest later in my life. So as I was raised in Christian belief, I took part in Kids Church, loved to listen to the stories of Jesus and to sing modern church songs. Later I became a Youth group leader in my church and had a lot of good and joyful experiences with Youth camps and Youth weekends. So in my Christian belief I felt home, save and the people around me were good hearted and honest with me.

This background is important to understand my acting in the following story, as without this background it might seem strange how this story goes.

But whatever you believe in, may it be God and Jesus, may it be in yourself, some higher power, some other religion or nothing at all, the story is understandable for everyone, because it touches the fundamental search for love in our lives. And this is what we humans are sharing and have in common beyond all our differences in belief, culture or live style we are in.

The structure of the story

For me the story is build up like a climb on a mountain: A smooth start, a longer ramp of gaining height, a peak experience, a descent and then a kind of walking on a plateau for a while till coming back to the starting point, but as a new person, changed by the experiences during the hike.

Last words before the story starts

“In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.

He was with God in the beginning. Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made. In him was life, and that life was the light of all mankind. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.”

[Bible, John 1:1-5 (NIV)]

Words can be very powerful as we all know, and from time to time this becomes visible in a way we didn't expect it. If you really love someone and tell her/him that, and the one tells you trustworthy that she/he loves you the same way, then you are in heaven and everything seems to be possible, the sky is the limit.

Words can transport and create in the listener feelings, thoughts, dreams, wishes and so on. Words can heal and words can destroy, they can lift you up or pull you down. Whatever it is, whomever you talk to, be aware of the power of your words. Words in spoken or written form are the main communication channel of us humans. Sure, sounds simple and unnecessary to talk about, but I watch that nowadays words are tending to be used to manipulate others and gain control in some way over others, for whatever reasons and goals (not only in this story but all over the different media like TV, Internet, Social media etc.). This could be considered as 'fun', but hurting others with lies or gaining their trust, or manipulating them to do things they normally wouldn't do is an act of violence, and violence doesn't fit in any kind of relationship or way how people should communicate with each other.

In our very rapid and fast changing times and manifold communication media it happens

often and easily that we lose our focus, and 'just' communicate or 'just' act without reflecting our actions from time to time.

I hope this book will give you the chance to take a break from your daily life, enter a higher reality/level of life and reflect your life as it is now with all its good and not so good aspects.

Questions and answers

And as I can already feel or hear the questions of the sceptics (which I do welcome, because they open the chances for answers and new views on things), here are some of these questions and my answers to them, and maybe this helps to get this introduction finally back to the ground of our daily lives.

Question1:

"Man, what is he talking about? I don't like to be told what I should do or in which way I should do it."

Answer:

"I don't want to teach someone how she or he should act. But as I see a big lost of universal and good values in our societies, I felt the necessity to tell you about my basic points of view concerning actual tendencies, which could lead our societies further away from their center and split the people and the invisible social glue further as it already is."

Question2:

"Why so many words in the introduction? It's a story about a Love scam, and okay, a God scam also."

Answer:

"Maybe I'm to 'blue eyed' in general and try to put too many things together in one frame. If I would only address this book to my Christian sisters and brothers who are strong and experienced in their faith in God, then I would have an 'easy game', a 'home play'. But I don't want to reach only my 'main audience' or 'family in spirit', but also the people with other focuses in life, with different backgrounds in their belief and life experiences. And so I try to describe my views on the story and my thoughts about it from different angles and in different ways, to reach as many readers as possible, because for me it is very important to communicate cross over society, and with that to already start my work for a new unity spirit in our societies. I was just 1 meter away from ruin my life, only because I was isolated from others, from their knowledge and their support. These others were always there and I guess their wish to help me also, but this isolation in society due to different reasons (I don't want to burst the frame of this book) is dangerous. And as I experienced that and survived it with God's help and my faith in him, I wish to share my experiences with many others, so that they directly or indirectly can protect themselves or others from my mistakes."

Question3:

"In the introduction and also for each chapter of the story you quoted Bible verses. Why?"

Answer:

"Without God and my belief in him neither the story would have happened at all nor this book would exist. Furthermore I was gifted with a new life by Jesus (just in the first week of the story), and this story and this book, and my insights and experiences are already a part of this new life. So I put this book in a divine context and frame to honour God and Jesus with this book, and to honour them with my honest efforts to bring this book and its message closer to the people. Without God in one's life in general, and this book in particular, it's very easy to lose your focus on the things that really count in life. The quoted Bible verses may give the reader a short break between the chapters of the story, may give her/him the chance to meditate a little on these words and their message, and then you should be able to go on with a refreshed spirit. Even if you are not a Christian, these Bible verses include comprehensible wisdom and can be transferred in daily life experiences. The core messages of the Bible verses for me are mostly: 'Have faith in God, ask him for his help and support, and he will help you and answer your questions' (rough summary). The Bible is full of life experiences and reports about these experiences and which role God plays in critical situations in life, and the Bible offers solutions and ways out of that problems. Wisdom can be found in all religions and cultures, but as I'm a Christian, and this story is also about Jesus Christ and my relationship to him, I preferred Bible verses in the context of this book."

"For as the soil makes the sprout come up and a garden causes seeds to grow,

so the Sovereign LORD will make righteousness and praise spring up before all nations." [Bible, Isaiah 61:11 (NIV)]

About Privacy

Although the story is real and I didn't change or shorten it, I've changed the names of the persons concerned in the story and the names of places, just to protect their privacy ...

About romantic content

As the message of this book is a divine message, the story that led to that message, or gave birth to that message, or already had the message in it from its very start, is a love story. A love story between two people who met on skype and fell in love with each other. An in the run of the next 3 months the love became deeper and more intensive, but due to the distance of the lovers (Germany and Ghana) they just had their words to describe their love for each other and to live their love. There is no sexual content in this story, but they talk about kissing each other, hugging each other, cuddling with each other, missing each other as quite each love couple fresh in love does. So I hope this part of the story with its content of romantic love doesn't disturb you. I myself consider this romantic content as suitable for all ages, for persons from 14-16 years on.

About the content in general

I think it is good to be informed about the phenomenon 'Love scam' (even 'God scam') and its facets as early as possible, because it is an existing danger. And if it's not with the intent of gaining money from the victim, a Love scam also can be used just to 'play' with the victim, to feel the power one can have over the person who loves him. Especially during our youth we humans are very receptive for emotions and especially love. A Love scam can cause deep emotional hurt and psychological stress in the victim, so it's good to know what a Love scam looks like. Okay, this story might be an extreme example, but extremes tend to be perfect to identify and show the characteristics in a very obvious way.

About exceptions in language, syntax and punctuation

As the story is mainly a complete skype log over 4 months, there are some exceptions concerning the 'normal' punctuation of a book. The specific characteristics of the punctuation are supporting the authenticity and atmosphere of the story. Not only the language with its content mediated through words, but also the syntax of sentences, words and punctuation do their part to the authenticity and atmosphere of the story and carry an own message.

Examples:

'word ...' instead of 'word...'. The sentences have more free space and are not so compressed.

'Me', 'She' instead of real names. Representative for all of us (everyone has a story to tell).

'Rosina Surname', 'David Surname'. Just to protect privacy.

Phone numbers: '12345...'. Replacement for real phone numbers.

I. Meeting the woman of your dreams

"Praise be to God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in the heavenly realms with every spiritual blessing in Christ." [Bible, Ephesians 1:3 (NIV)]

So the story starts, here we go ...

[01.10.2012 10:41:43] *** Missed call from She. ***

Next day

[Tuesday]

[02.10.2012 16:38:30] She: hello my dear ... How are you doing?

[02.10.2012 16:38:38] She: My name is Rosina, and what about you?

[02.10.2012 16:57:51] *** Missed call from She. ***

Next day

[Wednesday]

[03.10.2012 20:49:03] *** Me blocked She ***

[03.10.2012 23:30:33] Me: Hi

Next day

[Thursday]

[04.10.2012 07:36:54] Me: Hi, are you looking for a friend, a lover, or something else? Sorry for being directly, but in the past I had issues with this kind of stuff, just wanna have it clear at the beginning. Oh Canada ... ;)

(Canada was mentioned as home country in her skype profile)

9 hours later in the afternoon

[04.10.2012 16:52:41] She: hello my dear .. i want you to know that you have not been too straight, okay?

[04.10.2012 16:53:27] She: i am looking for a friend, and if God permits and i meet my dream man here also, i will give thanks to God, and i am sure you understand what i mean?

[04.10.2012 16:54:25] She: so why don't you have time with me and let’s get to know each other better and see where this will lead us to, cos for me i am new here, and i am happy you have written to me also letting me know what is on your mind

3 hours later in the evening

[04.10.2012 19:28:28] Me: Hello dear, I have time now to talk to you and spend some time ...

[04.10.2012 19:56:52] She: hello, are you still there with me?

[04.10.2012 19:57:07] Me: Yes, I am

[04.10.2012 19:58:22] She: aww .. i am happy you are here now to have a chat with me ... Well, like i wrote to you earlier .. my name is Rosina and what about you?

[04.10.2012 19:58:38] Me: My name is Stefan

[04.10.2012 20:01:00] Me: And I'm glad that it matches now with our time here ... Am I right that at your home in Canada, Alberta, is it -6 hours (or more) from here? My time here is 9 p.m. now ...

[04.10.2012 20:01:54] She: my dear, am currently now in Ghana and i have been in Ghana for a week now

[04.10.2012 20:02:19] She: i am here for a visit, and i am happy to have you online, cos i am bored here and happy i have someone nice i can talk to

[04.10.2012 20:02:26] She: thank you for that

[04.10.2012 20:04:02] Me: You're welcome ... I don't wanna go too far into that, but is this kind of a 'family must visit'? I mean Ghana is a very long distance for you to travel ...?

[04.10.2012 20:07:30] She: my dear, i want you to feel free to ask me anything bothering your mind, so i can get to know you and you also can get to know me as well ... i am here in Ghana with a family friend

[04.10.2012 20:07:48] She: she is a Ghanaian, and i wanted to get to know more about Africa

[04.10.2012 20:07:58] She: so i came with her

[04.10.2012 20:08:02] She: and i am here now

[04.10.2012 20:13:18] Me: Okay, that's great, a travel is always a challenge and means normally a little, medium, big leap in one's personal development ... so do you stay there at a hotel, resort, or at your Ghanaian friend’s home or elsewhere, and how was your first week there, what important things/new things have you experienced, how do you feel different now compared to the time when you left home for the travel, and how long will you stay there?

[04.10.2012 20:15:34] She: i must say that my stay here has been quite good even though i have only been here for a week, but i know the coming weeks will be great .. i have not been to many places yet, but i have been to their beaches and the coming weeks will be more fun, cos we are planning to go to their tourist places ... also i live in my friend’s home

[04.10.2012 20:16:28] She: i have 3 months Ghanaian visa, but i think one month will be enough for me

[04.10.2012 20:20:00] Me: Good to hear that you are doing well there, and that you are about to have a great time in the coming weeks, so it's pure holiday without any burdens ... Do you have semester vacation (are you studying), and do you want something to know about me?

[04.10.2012 20:22:29] She: i have finished with my degree in business administration, so i want to have some rest from school and relax a little, and after that i will look for a job and start working ... what about you .. tell me something about yourself also?

[04.10.2012 20:28:54] Me: Congratulations ... Big step has been successfully managed, and now you are in between old and new, all the best luck for you with that ... I'm working now in IT service in a big company, and more than 10 years ago I have finished my studies ... My job is sometimes very stressy, but I need that, was born restless and am still running, but have become a little wiser and learned how to use my forces in a smart way ...

[04.10.2012 20:31:42] She: aww ... thank you for your words, and i must say that i am really glad to have you as my contact, and also to keep me happy here cos i didn’t know what i would have done now without talking with you, and i just hope you will help me always by having a chat with me so we both can get to know each other better ... and i must also say again that you do have a nice job, and i am sure your wife and children and also parents are really proud of you?

[04.10.2012 20:38:57] Me: Uhh, now to the core :) … I'm also really glad to talk to you and I will keep chatting with you from now on, this would be great. I have a life partner now for many years (not married), and am lucky with her, and we don't have children, and don't plan to have some ... Our relationship is more of a spiritual kind, we are soul mates and living together, but also have our own spare time ... My mother has already died 2 years ago, my father still lives and is proud of me ...

[04.10.2012 20:41:53] She: oooohhh, am sorry about the dead of your mother .. i guess we both have some things in common, cos for me i also lost my both parents long time ago, but i am over it and i have no sister or brother, but i am happy about what the almighty God has done for me

[04.10.2012 20:47:53] Me: Brave strong woman you are ... To manage the many hurdles in life, especially as a teenager, and now in vocational training and soon in your first job without support from your direct family is a real big personal achievement, I feel honoured to know you ... But I guess you have some good friends and maybe some relatives who are supporting you in your way ...?

[04.10.2012 20:49:42] She: thank you for your words again, and i must give all the thanks to the almighty God for making things well for me .. though it hasn't been easy, but i guess i am glad to have my aunty supporting me, and also my Ghanaian friend as well

[04.10.2012 20:56:20] Me: Good to know, and that you have a good relationship to God. I also have a very strong and deep relationship to God … With 4 years I've started to ask my parents about God, who is He, what is He doing to us etc.. I was in Kids Church each Sunday, and loved to listen to the stories of our Lord Jesus and singing the church songs (I love music (listening and playing, I've learned to play guitar since I was 8 years old)) … And later I became a church 'Youth group leader', supporting and participating in Youth camps/travels, a very good and important time in my life … If you travel in the name of the Lord, wonders use to happen and love is all around, I really love God from the innermost of my heart, and although he puts me through sometimes tough challenges in my life, it always turned out good in the end, as God means it good with 'his', and for their sake he is testing them the hardest sometimes...

[04.10.2012 21:00:20] Me: Everything is fine with you? I hope so, I always wish the best for you ...

[04.10.2012 21:00:31] She: awww ... you do not know how happy i am to have found you right now in my life my dear ... i can see we have a lot in common cos we both have the same faith, and i will not hesitate to say it could be the Will of God for we both to have met here right now getting to know each other, or don't you think so?

[04.10.2012 21:02:41] Me: Sure it is His will, He guides us, never lets us down and brought us together here in this chat ... thanks God for that ... I have a bright smile now on my face ... :)

[04.10.2012 21:03:50] She: same here my dear .. tell me for how long have you been on skype, and what experiences have you had here that made you wrote to me like that in your first message to me here?

[04.10.2012 21:16:09] Me: Okay, I've been on skype now for two months, but only talked to one person seriously for a longer time (6 weeks). It all started with my summer holidays beginning in July (okay, just one week, but in summertime (July, August) our business is a little 'hold back', so I can relax a little in between) ... . I never tried this 'chat thing' before, I was just talking to people, most of the times with students at around your age .... This one girl I talked to for 6 weeks was also a student, her parents are divorced, her father is living in Washington State, her mother on Philippines. I supported her in decisions in her life, and while she stayed for 4 weeks at her mother's home in Philippines. Three weeks ago she returned to Washington State and started her 4th semester at university. I felt that she has developed much in these last weeks, and is more focussed now on her vocational training goals. What I felt was a lacking of a straight line in her life, and I 'played' the father/brother role for her, as her father is not supporting her very well. So as I'm a 'Man of God', I do what he wants me to do, I'm open for life and have developed a good sense for what 'my next' (Jesus says, 'Love your next, that is the utmost important thing in life' (rough summary)) needs from me, ignoring my ego, which has been reduced by God’s permanently work with me ... So talking to you like that is being myself and keeping contact with God, maybe a gift to be honest and willing to serve ...

[04.10.2012 21:23:29] She: i do not know what to say, but all i can say is that ... i am happy to have met you, and i know you are going to be the best friend .. dad, brother, sister or anything you can call it my dear .. i know i have just met you, but i have the feeling that you are a nice man and indeed have a good sense of humour, and i just can't wait to get to know you more

[04.10.2012 21:26:52] She: please, i want you to feel free and ask me anything you want to know about me so i tell you…

[04.10.2012 21:31:35] Me: Oh thanks for that, it feels good to hear that, and thanks for being open to me, I do very like the way you talk to me and how we communicate ... it's just flowing and we should keep that ... And I’m also excited to get to know you more... About you ... what are your hobbies, what makes you really happy (favourite music/songs, maybe a pat), do you like to be in nature, are you spiritually sensed like feeling the being of mother nature when you are out there, do you like sports ...?

[04.10.2012 21:35:33] She: for me i love cooking, and i must say when i cook and i get comments then i become more happy, and i must say i am indoor type but do go to church every Sunday and also regularly meetings, and i am also in my church Prayer Group ..... i love Christian songs, but i do not have any favourite .. cos to me music or a song is something that must transform a person to the messages from the song, and an example are the Christian songs and the messages they carry

[04.10.2012 21:36:02] She: it helps transform you to get to your living God, and know how wonderful he is

[04.10.2012 21:37:19] She: i like swimming and also reading ... and yes, i am spiritual person as well, cos i really do fast a lot and pray a lot, and always you will find me by my Bible reading and also praying

[04.10.2012 21:37:47] She: am sure you get what i mean?

[04.10.2012 21:44:03] Me: Oh yes, I guess. You put God first and that's exactly the essence of a spiritual life, to develop yourself and with that the others around you, and amplifying that with group prayers ...

[04.10.2012 21:45:05] She: yes my dear

[04.10.2012 21:54:02] Me: What else to say ... In the 90's I studied a lot of spiritual writings etc.. Not only Christian writings (Bible) as I was used to but also Hinduism, Buddhism, common spiritual practises, teachings etc..
[04.10.2012 21:57:04] Me: Hope you are interested in that a little ...

[04.10.2012 21:57:59] She: i am reading

[04.10.2012 22:05:25] She: yes, i am really interested in that my dear, but i want to know how you feel about all this spiritual practices you have read or gotten to know of it ... in spite of Christianity?

[04.10.2012 22:12:07] Me: Oh, that's a really good question. For me the way with Jesus was always a way of inner feeling and direct belief, I mean I read something in the Bible and know that this is true or I can feel what God meant with that for us ... And I just loved to be in church, around with others in the name of the Lord ... All the further things like other religions, spiritual traditions etc. was kind of studying to satisfy my mind, the logical side of spirituality. And you are right, sometimes it tended to lead from my centre of belief

[04.10.2012 22:12:27] Me: Oh sorry, I pressed 'enter' accidently .. I will write further ...

[04.10.2012 22:16:51] Me: But the core is to love God with all your heart, and always keep the connection with Him in prayers … There's no difference in that with Christianity, Hinduism, Buddhism, but the ways and explanations are different, different ways but one goal. But my 'personal' God is and will always be Jesus, I mean he is my spiritual home ...

[04.10.2012 22:28:06 | Edited 22:34:21] She: i am happy to hear this, and i want you to know that i agree with the same goal as to love my dear .. and also want you to know that i have loved the Lord my God all my life, cos if i sit down and imagine how beautiful he created this earth and how wonderful the sea or ocean flows ... it's amazing .. imagine how these animals feed .. they neither plant nor sow but yet they feed, and even when they get sick they get better themselves .. all these things make me believe or see that Lord Jesus, the Son of Almighty God is a living God, and nothing can be compared to him ... recently i was watching a documentary which i do not know if you have heard of it or read of it ... it's a documentary about Jesus Christ, they said Jesus had a romantic relationship with Mary Magdalene and even got her pregnant

[04.10.2012 22:32:11 | Edited 22:33:44] She: and after the crucifixion of Jesus Christ Magdalene moved to France while she was pregnant, so when they crucified him she had no choice than to run away, and she ran to France and had the baby there .. and i find it's not appearing at all, cos they are just rampaging our living God by blurring his image, so the devil can get people confused to stop worshipping Jesus and then come to him, so he alone will not die but rather deceive more souls, so he will die with them on the judgement day

[04.10.2012 22:32:19] She: do you get what i mean my dear?

[04.10.2012 22:36:23] She: last i forget

[04.10.2012 22:37:01] She: another documentary also mentioned that Jesus had another wife called ASHA, means mother of all things

[04.10.2012 22:37:26] She: i don’t know if i have got the spelling of ASHA well

[04.10.2012 22:43:18] *** Me sent _jesus.jpg *** (I send her my favourite picture of Jesus)

[04.10.2012 22:43:21] Me: Oh yes, the bad ones, the 'humans' ignoring God and Jesus due to egoistic reasons, possessed by the devil's tricks and illusions, always trying to suppress people while telling them lies and trying to get them away from Jesus, but Jesus tells us to stay with him till judgement day, because, 'I've once raised you to me, why shall I let you fall. I will always be with you, and you will always be with me ...' (rough summary) ... And that ASHA story, I've never heard of that, but I mean mother of all things could mean mother of all illusions, but Jesus is beyond the things (material world), so why should she be his wife (in the figurative sense)? So now back to the pure light and love He is ...

[04.10.2012 22:54:51] Me: There is a Christian song like, 'When two or three are coming together in My name, I will be in the middle of them', it's a very lovely song, and singing it with two voices, it sounds very nice and uplifting … I'd like to sing this now, but due to the circumstances I'm singing it right now 'in my head' ...

[04.10.2012 22:56:01] Me: Are you still there, I'm feeling lonely ...? (Her skype seems to hang)

[04.10.2012 23:04:03] Me: I don't know what's happening right now, but I will keep in my mind the lovely words you said before, they are still touching me and making me peacefully … 'cos if i sit down and imagine how beautiful he created this earth and how wonderful the sea or ocean flows ... it’s amazing .. imagine how these animals feed .. they neither plant nor sow but yet they feed and even when they get sick they get better themselves .. all these things make me believe or see that the Lord Jesus the Son of Almighty God is a living God, and nothing can be compared to him...’ I hope I didn't say something wrong or hurt you in some way ... Maybe we ran to deep in that discussion about other beliefs ... Please talk to me, or tell me what's up with you, or is this just an technical issue? I hope we can talk again tomorrow, just tell me the time which fits for you … have a nice sleep there and may Jesus bless you with all his love ...

[04.10.2012 23:06:16] Me: I will restart my computer now ... and by the way, my email is 'Me@ymail.com' ...

[04.10.2012 23:14:21] Me: As I told you before, God is testing 'his' the most, so now he is testing me, because I easily get this feeling of loss like now, as our conversation has stopped ... But I will pray, calm down and go to sleep, and tomorrow another day will rise ... Bye for now ...

Next day

[Friday]

[05.10.2012 12:12:40] Me: Hi Rosina

[05.10.2012 12:13:16] She: Good morning my dear .. how are you doing?

[05.10.2012 12:13:40] Me: Oh, now I'm fine ... I have taken a free day ...

[05.10.2012 12:16:02] Me: I've missed you and thought of you since I'm awake ...

[05.10.2012 12:17:56] She: I miss you also, and i am happy to be with you here once again .. also i want you to forgive me for last night cos we had a light out here, and it was the first time in my entire life i have experienced something like that, and i was thrilled to have witnessed something like that

[05.10.2012 12:18:42] She: how is your girlfriend or how should i describe the relationship?

[05.10.2012 12:26:49] Me: Oh, my 'girlfriend' is at my age, and as I told you we live in one apartment and are soul mates, but we sleep in different rooms for 10 years ... After my work we are used to spend some time together, drive in the city etc.. After 'dinner' (around 7 p.m. mostly) we go our own ways ... I am then at my computer most of the times, listening to music, do some surfing in the internet etc.. ... She hasn't a boyfriend and I haven't a girlfriend ... I love here as my soul mate and take care for her, but we don't go intimate with each other like kissing, sex ... It has just developed and it's okay this way ... So as I told you I missed you, I meant this emotionally as I felt it ...

[05.10.2012 12:34:18] She: Wow .. this is the most astonishing news i have ever heard from you and your friend .. cos you believe she is your soul mate but you both do not have any romantic relationship, and i will be happy if you will be pleased to explain me something about it, so i can get the picture clear my dear

[05.10.2012 12:43:04] Me: Okay (but sorry, it could be that I have to leave my apartment in 20 min, a friend wants to meet me today, so if he rings I'll tell you, and then we can go on chatting this evening if it fits for you ... around 8 p.m.). So I've met her when I was in my early twenties, we fell in love first sight, and became a 'normal' couple like kissing, sleeping with each other etc., living in one apartment (other than now), sharing one bed and one room etc.. But after my studies as I got my first job, I moved from my student room (one room for me) to a new apartment, and she moved to there too but was hesitating at first, she loved her old apartment. One could say, 'another apartment, another type of relationship developed' … We both had our own rooms, and kissing and sex ended, faded out. We both felt sorry about that, but decided to keep our relationship, because we had a deeper kind of connection ... (just 1 min pause please …)

[05.10.2012 12:47:37] She: aww .. that’s okay by me .. you can go and we will meet in the evening and chat more. I get what you mean now, and i want you to know that i really understand and appreciate the relationship you both had, but why did you both decide to be in a relationship without having kids and also getting married? ....

[05.10.2012 12:49:03] Me: The last ten years we called ourselves like 'working community' in a spiritual sense, I mean we worked on our themes given by God (hard to describe, maybe later), and in our spare time we went out in the city and just relaxed, from an outside perspective you could say that we are very good friends who are sharing one apartment due to practical reasons ... So that's my first description for that, I've never talked to anyone about this relationship before, so I trust you fully. I don't have (and never had in my life) a 'best' friend (male or female) with whom I was able to talk about my personal problems and feelings, so I always kept up with God as my best friend, I'm sure you know what I mean ...

[05.10.2012 12:52:08] She: yes, i get what you mean, and i must say i am happy that you have faith and trust in me in a way that you can express your deepest thoughts and secrets with me, and i also assure you that it is the same way i trust you as well, and i will always be the best and loyal friend for you in everything, okay?

[05.10.2012 12:52:12] She: and like i said last night

[05.10.2012 12:52:34] She: i wouldn’t have known what i would have done if i haven't found you here

[05.10.2012 12:54:27] Me: Oh, thanks for that, I'm touched by your understanding and your friendship ...

[05.10.2012 12:56:33] Me: So how are you doing today, do you feel well and peaceful?

[05.10.2012 13:00:47] She: i am doing good and happy to be with you now again, cos last night i was worried and disturbed after we break the chat but trust me .. now that i am here with you i am happy and really feeling good, so that means my day is good and i am sure the same thing about you as well .. but i haven't asked you what church do you attend??

[05.10.2012 13:05:15] Me: Oh, I'm a Protestant/Lutheran. My father was always Protestant, but my mother was Catholic and changed her confession after my elder sister (some years older than me) was born, it was hard for her, but in that times (end of 60’s) the society was much more conservative, restricted and prejudiced than nowadays ...

[05.10.2012 13:08:09] She: oh, okay .. i am Pentecostal and that is what i was born into

[05.10.2012 13:11:41] Me: Okay ... I don't know what to say right now ...

[05.10.2012 13:14:56] Me: My friend is calling now at the door, I asked him to wait for 10 min, then I can go with him ... So I will try to call you when I'm back tonight, I guess we will match ...

[05.10.2012 13:16:07] She: i must say thank you for your time with me and God bless you, and i will be looking forward to meet you tonight, and please do take care of yourself as well, okay?

[05.10.2012 13:16:16] She: bye for now and see you later

[05.10.2012 13:16:48] Me: Okay, thanks for all, till then, bye ...

[05.10.2012 13:17:00] She: bye dear

7 hours later that day in the evening

[05.10.2012 20:23:11] Me: Hi ... I'm back ...

[05.10.2012 20:27:01] She: am glad you are, but i guess you have to give me some time to finish up something if you don't mind?

[05.10.2012 20:30:08] Me: For sure .. just call me when you are done with that ... till then ...

45 minutes later

[05.10.2012 21:16:40] She: hello dear .. i am here now

[05.10.2012 21:16:53] She: sorry for keeping you waiting all this while

[05.10.2012 21:17:28] Me: Was okay, I had time to think ...

[05.10.2012 21:17:52] She: ohh, and what were you thinking about?

[05.10.2012 21:19:35] Me: My very old wounds from the very past, my first love when I was 4 years old, she had broken up with me when I was 8, and I've just recognized that I'm still not over it till now in a very hidden place in me ...

[05.10.2012 21:21:04] She: hehehehehehehe ... lol ... please forgive me for my laughing, okay ...

[05.10.2012 21:22:03 | Edited 21:25:03] She: i can see you really started very early to love, and the reason why i am laughing is that .. it has been a very long time, so why does it come back to your memories this time?

[05.10.2012 21:26:55] Me: I guess it's always the same point in me ... It was real love, and then it was taken away with no visible reason, the girl was the daughter of our best friends family, so I have seen here since then 2-3 times a week, but we were just good friends from best friends families then, nothing more ... I mean, I've never felt that kind of love ever again, so I'm not searching for it by my will, but when I'm sad or weak, this desire to be loved and love so real comes back to me and goes away after some minutes, but today I remembered that girl, and the feelings I had for her … Sorry to bother you with that, but I'm just telling what's up with me ...

[05.10.2012 21:30:53] She: come on Stefan, it does not bother me at all cos if it does, i will not have asked you to tell me .. I like you, and i feel happy when i am with you cos i can talk about anything with you, and i must say that is a good start for our friendship, cos not every friends who only had a long chat just yesterday can get this kind of opportunity as we have got now, and i am sure you know what i mean my dear ...

[05.10.2012 21:31:49] She: Well, to the love you had when you were 4 years, and always missed that kind of love when you are sad or not happy, is a sign of love that you need right now in your life as you are growing old now

[05.10.2012 21:33:47] She: you cannot tell me if you get a romantic relationship you will not be pleased to have, and i mean not a romantic relationship with just any woman, but the kind of romantic relationship with the woman you loved when you were young in your childhood my dear

[05.10.2012 21:36:18] She: the feelings and love you wish to have when you are sad are a kind of love that you need and want, and i can tell you that the woman you are with and have no more romantic relationship with, is not the rightful woman you wish to grow old with, but due to some circumstances that is why you both are together, and you cannot deny the fact my dear .. i do not think i am crossing boundaries, but rather i guess i am telling you the real truth and nothing else

[05.10.2012 21:39:06 | Edited 21:39:58] She: i know what you feel, and you wish to have someone like your childhood lover, cos for myself i have been in your situation before, and i realised that we both were not meant to be, that is why we separated and i am sure it is the same thing for you with your young love .. you both were not meant to be, and that is why you both broke up and it's the same thing to you and the woman you are with right now .. She is not meant for you in your heart, but due to some respect and something you both have had in the past and also the way you see things with you and her on the same belief makes you believe she is the woman for you, cos if she is the woman for you i do not think there will be a way in your life, not even in a second, you will missed your past lover and i guess you know what i mean my dear

[05.10.2012 21:40:09] She: be honest with yourself and tell me if all this i am telling you are not correct or correct??

[05.10.2012 21:43:20] Me: Ohh, thanks for your honest thoughts and I guess you are correct in every point ...

[05.10.2012 21:47:06] She: i am happy to hear your honesty with me, and i must say to you that we both have a lot of things in common, and also i know very well and i also believe that it is the Will of our Almighty God to have met to get to know about each other, cos he knows best more than we do in our life and what to come in our lives as well, and he the LORD GOD knows when and how to bless his children .. so i have the faith and believe and i can say it clear and loud that we both were planned to meet at this time in our life, and also not only as friends, but as what we both have been missing dearly in our lives and wished to have it, but do not know how to go for it

[05.10.2012 21:49:27] She: let me tell you something my dear .. i am a very emotional person, and everything i do in my life i do with emotions .. last night when i was going to bed i prayed to God to protect me and also protect you as well, and also to show me why he made me to meet such a man i have common similarities with, and i had a dream like i was walking in the wild, and someone and i mean a man just appeared from nowhere and saved me

[05.10.2012 21:50:01] She: so when i woke up i prayed again and i am still thinking about this dream my dear

[05.10.2012 21:50:49] She: so to me i want you to know that you are not just any friend to me, but a friend who came in and saved my life when i was going through a lot in life and i am happy to have you as well ...

[05.10.2012 21:57:30] Me: Ohhh, I'm 'plain' blown away and touched by your words my dear, as I prayed to God why this with us is 'only' a friendship again, as I'm longing so dearly for a girlfriend with much emotions, as I'm also a very emotional man ... I'm always giving everything in life, music, sports, dreams, business, and especially in relationships if I'm allowed to ... I'm confused now and thankful, your words to me are sounding like a dream, but I know I'm not dreaming, and from the beginning I wanted to call you ‘my dear’ or ‘darling’ or so ... because there is much more I'm feeling for you ...

[05.10.2012 22:02:42] She: you know i always tell you to feel free and be yourself than to pretend to be who you cannot be, okay ... I want you to feel free and tell me all what's on your mind, and also think of our friendship as well, okay … And also to your statement if you are allowed to get a relationship ... Well, i must say everyone is entitled to his or her opinion and also choices no matter what in life, so you can have one if you really want to have one, okay ... Like i said, i believe there is more to our meeting than being friends, and i am sure in your heart you believe that as well

[05.10.2012 22:02:56] She: i want to ask you some personal questions if you do not mind?

[05.10.2012 22:04:11] Me: Yes, please ...

[05.10.2012 22:05:28 | Edited 22:05:41] She: tell me what is preventing you from having a relationship, and also what kind of dream woman you will love to have in your life as your dream woman and to grow old with?

[05.10.2012 22:20:23] Me: Puuh, okay, … now it becomes heavy ... let's start ... My life partner is basically depending on me, because she has no job, although she has studied. My mother (a very sensitive woman) told me after she had met her the first time (my first family visit with her at my family), ‘This kind of woman will make you unhappy, I'm telling you, please think about it.’ But as a 22 year old man fresh in love, this only bound me tighter to her, and with 29 years I cancelled the contact with my family totally, because they won't accept her as my life partner. She then also separated from her family, as they didn't support her as well in her new life with me. That is one of the reasons why we are not married and don’t have children, with no family support on both sides this really doesn't make any sense ... So we just have us, and that fate bound us more together, ‘we against the world’ ... (1 minute rest, then I will proceed) ...

[05.10.2012 22:32:36] She: am still waiting dear

[05.10.2012 22:34:51] Me: So our fate is the main hurdle preventing me from a new relationship. My dream woman: I'm not used to think about that till now, because it was a ‘no go’, although some part of me has already started to search ... So she must be an open hearted woman with strong belief and faith in God, because God is very important to me, and I cannot live with someone who has no similar belief, God is the basis for everything in life ... She should be kind of attractive/handsome, because I love women and their beauty and softness and smell and behaviour and and and very much, and for me beauty is a natural 'correspondence' to inner beauty in some kind of way ... And I need to adore the women I love in some way ... She should also be intelligent and have a good education/vocational training, because this reduces the stress in building a strong relationship a lot, and both can feel equal and don't have the feeling that the other one is smarter or better … I mean love is one thing, but the mind has its own rules ... And she should have a good character, like being honest ... Sorry for waiting ...

[05.10.2012 22:44:51] She: My dear Stefan, i guess you have seen the reason why i said we both have the same similarities and also there is a reason for our meeting, cos i am also looking for a man who puts God first in everything that he does in life. Who is interested in building a friendship which will lead us to marriage. Treating a woman the way Christ treated the people ... Smile ... A man that can communicate, good listener, respectful, caring of others, tender, loving. Is growing in the Lord, willing to read the Good word together and pray .. A man who will be the head of the home in balance, cos God created us equal, yet we each have our purpose, someone who is responsible, respectful, can take care of himself and who i employed special to capture my heart and knows how to handle it with care, one who will cherish me and be willing to share life's greatest joys and sorrows. Someone who's willing to spoil, pamper and love me unconditionally, whom is kind, sincere, honest, passionate, loyal, has a sense of humour, loving and wants a lifetime of passion, and also knows how to have fun but can be serious when needed ... and i sure you know what i mean my dear?

[05.10.2012 22:50:06] She: my dear, this is little i have in mind that wants to express to you what I desire in a man, and what I do not desire. First I am a serious Christian woman and I am guided by my relationship with Jesus Christ, the son of our Almighty God. I say that up front, because my faith is very important to me.... I will touch on that more later. So I want a man of faith who has principles and values .. We have all made mistakes in life but need to be guided by something. I want a partner in life, someone to care for, someone I can respect. I want someone I can share anything with, and see what that can lead us to next.

[05.10.2012 22:52:44] She: are you there?

[05.10.2012 22:54:09] Me: Oh yes, still reading again and thinking about it, maybe too much thinking for now ...

[05.10.2012 22:59:32] She: i can sense that my dear, but to the relationship with the woman you living with, i must confess that .. though you disobeyed your mother’s advice but you were only following your heart and that was all okay ... you cannot change the past and all that i will advice you is that .. you have to let the sleeping dog relax and look forward for the rightful part in your life now and always hope there is a good way for you or everyone no matter what it takes, okay ... there is nothing you can do to change the motives in your families cos if they would have appreciated you both getting married, i guess they would have supported that a long time ago ... so like i said, look forward to the best to come in your life, okay

[05.10.2012 23:02:01] She: also i must tell you that God knows why he made all this happen to you, cos if i remember correctly you said you have often been in bad times, but every time the Almighty God was there to deliver you from the bad times and always puts you to a good place and made you a winner, so i want you to know that the good thing are yet to come in your life, so be grateful and never feel bad that all these things have happened to you, cos in this life we are living, everything happens for a purpose

[05.10.2012 23:02:42] She: please write to me and let me know what is bothering you, so i can know how you feel and what is up to you, okay

[05.10.2012 23:03:31] She: do not think too much ... no matter what you think of, always remember that you are born to be happy, and your happiness and what you desire is yet to come or is with you now, okay

[05.10.2012 23:03:37] She: do you get me?

[05.10.2012 23:06:52] Me: Yes, I guess, I'm really overwhelmed by the clarity of your words, everything makes sense to me and I will thing about it, not too much, but try to include this in my life ... and telling you always what's up with me ...

[05.10.2012 23:08:11] She: i am happy to have made you happy, okay .. i just wished you will always give me the chance to put more smiles on your face, okay

[05.10.2012 23:08:59] She: please feel free to ask me anything you want to know about me or want to ask me, cos i can feel it right now that there is a lot on your mind you want to ask me, so please do it now, okay

[05.10.2012 23:13:24] Me: Okay, based on our friendship right now, do you see me living my life further and you living your life further both on 'our own', while staying friends and keeping on exchanging our minds, feelings and thoughts, like you finding your life partner sometimes and me continuing my life as now, or do you see us based on our friendship maybe becoming more than friends as time will show, I mean what do you feel about it ...?

[05.10.2012 23:17:23] She: hmmmm ... well, to me this is a very big question since i do not know what comes tomorrow maybe, but i have the believe that we both have something good more than just being friends ... i know it will be hard for you to move away from your woman now, and that is why it is stopping you from going into a relationship of your choice and where you will be happy, but i want you to know that .. we both are yet to know each other more, so let’s leave it to the time to decide, okay .. i guess that will help us to know where the future will be, cos for me like i told you i am looking for a friend, but if it’s the Will of God to meet my dream man right from here, i have no choice to object to that but rather embrace it with a warm and happy heart ...

[05.10.2012 23:20:07] She: i must also let you know that i am not the kind of person to come between two people who have been through a lot for each other, but if it is the Will of God for this, we cannot do anything about it ... so give ourselves the chance to get to know each other better, okay ... and what about you .. what do you think of the question you asked me??

[05.10.2012 23:25:35] Me: Okay, I get that, and I agree that we should let it right now as it is as friends and see what time will bring ... My thoughts about that are the same as yours, there is the potential of more than friendship, and we should let it flow now and see how our friendship develops, I guess it was good for us to talk about that so detailed, so that we can start from a good base of mutual understanding, and for that achievement tonight I am really thankful to you, you are so patient and honest with me ...

[05.10.2012 23:31:17] She: my dear, i know what i want in life and my Bible tells me that there is no rush in life, cos the living God himself does not rush in decision making, so i have to let him show us the rightful way and also how to go, and i must also commend that you are someone worth waiting for, cos you have a good sense of humour and you are also easy to talk to, and i know there is a lot more in your heart that i am yet to find it, and i know it’s going to be fun and loving to get to know the whole you, and also have the privilege to meet you someday as well ... indeed you have made me happy and i look forward to more and more from you, and i know you are going to make me more and more happy .... ask me more questions, okay

[05.10.2012 23:32:05] She: am here for you, but if you also want to go and have some rest that is okay by me, but if not, also feel free to ask me anything on your mind, or if there is something also to share with me i am ready as well

[05.10.2012 23:37:26] Me: Ohh, you are always getting the point, I really like to talk to you further, but for now I guess that was a lot we discussed and learned, and me for myself am getting tired... So I would take a rest and continue our chat tomorrow ... 12 a.m. would be perfect, from 2:30 p.m. to 8 p.m. I'm away ... So I hope and think we should match sometimes tomorrow ...

[05.10.2012 23:39:18] She: okay my dear .. have a good night and we will talk again tomorrow, okay?

[05.10.2012 23:39:32] She: take care of yourself, and i wish you a good night and sweet dreams as well

[05.10.2012 23:40:04] She: do you have an email address where i can write to you a mail every morning to let you know how i am doing, and also to know how you are also doing?

[05.10.2012 23:41:19] Me: The same to you ... have a good night and sweet dreams .. oh yes, 'Me@ymail.com' ...

[05.10.2012 23:42:01] She: thank you for your email address .. i will send you a mail tomorrow morning and hope you will reply to me

[05.10.2012 23:42:12 | Edited 23:42:15] She: i have to say bye for now and we will meet tomorrow

[05.10.2012 23:42:16] She: bye my dear

[05.10.2012 23:42:20] She: (F)

[05.10.2012 23:42:49] Me: Sure I will reply, bye ... (wave)

Next day

[Saturday]

[06.10.2012 09:47:13] Me: Good morning my dear ... just read your email, it was so lovely and warm hearted .. thanks so much ...

[06.10.2012 09:48:38] She: Good morning to you also and i am happy you like my mail .. i hope you are replying to me now since i am moving away from my computer to the town now?

[06.10.2012 09:49:36] Me: Oh okay, I will take my time and reply to your email ... so till later ...

[06.10.2012 09:50:40] She: okay my dear, and please try to send me some pictures of yourself, cos i am going to send you some pictures of myself right now before i leave to the town .. so bye for now and will look forward to the reply

[06.10.2012 09:50:45] She: (F)

[06.10.2012 09:51:03] Me: Okay, I will do so ... bye ...

Her good morning mail to me at 10:37 a.m.

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“Hello Dear
i just woke up in bed this morning with thoughts of you in mind ... with you in my thoughts, every day can be a beautiful day. Just take a look around you and think about all of the wonderful things you have to be thankful for ... the sunshine, roses, laughter, close friends, family, music, and beautiful dreams. The storm is never half as bad as it seems. Don't let any bad thoughts destroy your day … i know that with thoughts of me in mind, you are going to have a great day .. My dear, when the dark clouds move in just smile, because the good times are on the way. Good Morning.
Am hoping you are going to be online later, so that we can chat and get to know more about each other ..... bye for now .. take care .. talk soon.
God Bless You.
Always

Rosina”

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8 hours later on chat

[06.10.2012 17:33:10] She: hello my dear ... i am soo happy to read from you and also want you to know that you look amazing and handsome, and i am happy to have you as my friend, and also want you to know that i do appreciate your mail and i will be happy to always read from you every morning, and i also promise to always write to you the same morning, okay

[06.10.2012 17:33:39] She: i am sure you are doing good this evening .. well, i want you to know that i am lonely, so when you are here then you write to me, okay

1 hour later

[06.10.2012 18:45:40] Me: Hi my dear ...

[06.10.2012 18:46:09] She: hello dear .. Good evening

[06.10.2012 18:47:21] Me: Same to you, so glad to be able to talk to you, I was thinking about you the whole day, your pictures were always on my mind ... (She has sent me some pictures of her in the morning by mail as promised, she looks beautiful, intelligent, dressed simple but elegant, a positive charisma, self confident but with an humbled attitude)

[06.10.2012 18:48:40] She: aww ... it seems we both have always the same thing in our thoughts, or is it because we do understand each other more and also we have some things in common that is why, or what?

[06.10.2012 18:52:26] Me: I guess all of that fits ... we have a strong connection in some way ... and we are made 'of the same wood', sorry, I haven't a better comparison by now, but I guess that we understand each other also without words, I mean when I'm thinking of you I can feel you, and there is no separation ...

[06.10.2012 19:00:08] She: yes my dear, you are right .. anyway, tell me how is your family doing and how did you spend your day?

[06.10.2012 19:00:09] Me: You are so valuable for me, I'm feeling wide away today, like on a plateau let us say 5,000 meters above zero, the clouds are under the plateau of the mountain, total silence and just you and me in conversation but without words, just being there, let us say 10 meters apart standing face to face, and I feel a new kind of freedom in me, it's some kind of pure trust, I can trust you fully as I did from the very beginning ... For me you are a very pure being, your words are always of purity and clarity, and your pictures have just proven this, you are very pure for me, and I'm touched by you and no matter what it is, it is very new and very good for me ... So thanks again for being there and having the grace to be my friend ...

[06.10.2012 19:02:41] Me: Oh sorry, i missed your reply here on skype, sorry, I will reply now to your last question

[06.10.2012 19:03:00] She: okay, am waiting for it

[06.10.2012 19:14:19] Me: My family is living apart from me, I mean I'm living in Smallcity, and my father lives 80 km away ... Since his wife/my mother died 2 years ago, he's living alone in his house ... But as always in his life he has a lot of friends (still alive), and he is healthy and goes every year in summer in the mountains (Austria, Alps) with them for a week on a trekking tour from mountain hut to mountain hut (he now is over 70 years old). In my childhood we as a family used to spend our summer holidays mostly in Austria/Alps, and I always loved to hike in the mountains (not to high, I'm afraid of heights to some level, so till 2,500 m - 3,000 m). My day I was spending in the afternoon with shopping/walking through the next big city (Bigcity, 35 km away from Smallcity), having a coffee with my life partner, as drinking a coffee and having a conversation is one of my all time favourite spar time activity, because then I can relax and focus on the here and now and I like the familiar atmosphere there …

[06.10.2012 19:22:10] She: ohh, i can see your father is a healthy man and also a very adventurous person ... and i can say you really did enjoy your day very well .. for me we went to the market place to get some few things for the weekend, and when we came home we prepared stews and soups to be kept in the fridge for the whole week, but while i was in the town and also in the kitchen you did not leave my mind .. and i do not know what good I’ve done to have someone like you who is always on my mind, cos this kind of thinking to me is something that has never happened to me before, and i must confess that i like it and i do not want to live without it ... i hope your life partner is not that jealous type to see you spending a lot of time these days over on your laptop?

[06.10.2012 19:27:47] Me: No, she isn't as I told you, we have our fixed rhythm, so after 7/8 p.m. I 'can do what I want' and I'm in my room, door closed, so everything is fine ... and I'm very glad that we have always time for each other, because I won't miss one day without you and talking to you ...

[06.10.2012 19:29:33] She: my dear, i am happy she is not a problem to our chat and i must say that i also can not live a day in my life without you, now that i have you in my heart ...

[06.10.2012 19:32:32] Me: Oh, you are also in my heart and it feels pure and good, it's God given and I won't change it ... when I'm alone I miss you and think of you ...

[06.10.2012 19:35:01] She: you always put a smile on my face with your words my dear and i thank God for that, but i want to ask you some questions since i want to get to know you, okay ... i want to know your experience's about your past and current relationships ....??

[06.10.2012 19:43:48] Me: Okay, no problem, I like to talk about that with you ... My first relationship with a girl you already know, from 4th to 8th year of my life I had my first girlfriend I really loved, we were holding hands, kissing, sleeping in one bed (as children do) and with 6 or 7 years we hid sometimes away from the living room at family evenings for some minutes to my room to kiss each other … Also one day we were lying in my bed and she kissed me really passionately (I'm blushing a bit, sorry), and I was kind of blown away and then it was over, an innocent moment that just happened, but I got butterflies in my belly that time ... With 8 years it was on a summerday during a city festival, I wanted to kiss her as last year at that same festival and place, but she refused it in some way ... From that day on I realized it was over, and we didn't get that close together from that time like kissing etc., but still kept being good friends while being together with our families ... (just one minute, my next relationships were all shorter, next with 15, then 21, and then my life partner, you see only a few) ...

[06.10.2012 19:53:51] Me: Okay, when I was 15 years old, I was for the third season in dancing school, that time as a guest dancer, as the dancing school needed some experienced dancers for the new groups, so it was cost free that time for me ... My dancing partner was a 14 year old girl from a village next to our city where we both went to the same school (high school), and we started writing small letters on 'Diddle writing paper', and after 3 weeks we became a couple. On Sundays there were additional dance sessions where we could train the learned steps/dances, and they played some love songs and we danced 'blues' as they called it, means dancing arm in arm to dimmed and soft light ... That time I felt love for her, our love song was from Black 'Wonderful life', a very soft love song ... We were together for 3 months, and kissed first time after a dancing lesson and then in school breaks between classes, but only soft short kisses and some hugs, it was first teenager love ... Short before Christmas we said, 'goodbye till next year' on the last school day, but in the new year something has changed and I didn't feel love for here anymore and we went our own ways, it was okay for us ... (one minute and then the next relationship with much more 'fire', as I am 21 'now' ...)

[06.10.2012 20:11:40] Me: With 21 years I had finished with school (Abitur, means A levels/high-school diploma) and had made a vocational training for 2 years as a machinist, because my parents told me that some business experience after school and before studies would be helpful for my personal development, and I'm thankful for that experience, as it brought me to the ground/bottom of life … And I liked the training and my 'colleagues', it was a good group and I’ve learned much theoretically and practically (drilling, milling, assembling etc..) So then with 21 I moved to Smallcity where I lived for 15 months to do my community service as an alternative for young men to military service (I'm a pacifist). It was in a state institution for disabled children and teenagers, they were living there in several group houses separated by age and went to a special school there, and also made their vocational training. I lived there on the terrain of the institution with some other guys of my age, all helping in different houses, and it was until then 'the best time of my life', as I was away from home for the first time, had an own room for me and the guys were great … We used to drink some beer in the evening, just being young and free ... After some months I went alone to the city and met a 19 year old girl in a pub, she was a Russian exchange student, and we fell in love at first sight and were together for 3 months. It was a passionate relationship, we kissed a lot and long (2 hours and more) and passionately, and I saw here quite every second evening of the week. But before it started becoming more serious, she broke up the relationship without a warning, for me a 'head thing', but maybe it was right to stop at that point. We kept contact as friends for 4-5 months, and then I moved away from Smallcity for my studies for the next 5 years, and she did her studies in Smallcity ... I stop now with the stories, because the next and last relationship is the one which started when I was 22 years with my actual life partner ... Huuh, that's it ...

[06.10.2012 20:18:36] She: my dear, i get you very well and i want you to know that .. you are not blushing, okay .. you only want me to know what happened and i am happy for your honesty with me .. and also i can see you have been through a lot with relationships that didn't work out well for you, but for me i have not been in many relationships like you .. i have only knew one man in my entire life and i did love him, and that is why i became disappointed when things did not work out well for us ... I must tell you that all relationships have some adjustment periods, but being hurt shouldn’t be part of being in love. Love relationships have good qualities, such as support from your partner, a willingness to communicate, a desire to compromise, and open and honest communication. When you do not have these fundamental qualities in a relationship, that relationship isn’t likely to grow and become something that you desire...... We all turn to our loved ones for support from time to time. When your loved one does not offer you his support, it may be time to look at your relationship as we all want to nurture those that we love. We want the best in life for those that we care about. If your partner is unwilling to listen to you and to your problems, he is not meeting your needs when you need support. Support can come in many forms, someone lending an ear, someone going out of their way to help you, or something as simple as a phone call to cheer you up. Make sure your partner gives you support when you need it ... When engaging in a relationship with another person, there is always going to be things that you do not agree upon. You want to have the ability to compromise, so both partners are getting their wishes met. This may mean one night you watch football and one night your partner watches a movie you enjoy. It might mean that your partner can agree to try a dish that you enjoy cooking. In any organization with more than one person in it there will be more than one opinion, work with your partner to see that both of you can compromise on different subjects. If someone isn’t willing to compromise, they are not willing to acknowledge your wants and desires. If they can not acknowledge your wants, they are likely not emotionally developed enough for you to have your needs met ... My dear Stefan, to me open and honest communication is one of the more desirable qualities you want to have in a relationship .. like watching to see that your partner is not secretive, nor he is willing to tell lies to avoid certain subjects. For example, if a partner is married and fails to tell you that, you can rightfully assume if he can lie about big things he can lie about small things, and i am sure you know what i mean ...? While you may not like everything your partner may say, freedom to be honest should be there in your relationship. Likewise, you need to be open and honest with your partner ... and a relationship based upon false truths is not likely to be successful, because both partners do not have the correct frame of reference in the relationship. There are many qualities that make relationships: good support, compromise, and open and honest communication are just a few of these qualities that you may desire in a relationship. Engage only in relationships where both partners can openly discuss their wants and needs, this can take practice. Remember, love relationships grow and only become better, eliminate those who do not meet your needs when they continually fail to support you, will not compromise, and will not be honest ... these three qualities alone will help you nurture and develop a deeper relationship with your partner .. am sure i am not getting you confused??

[06.10.2012 20:31:16] Me: Oh dear , I get what you mean, although I have to concentrate on your lines of thought, but they are clear and well thought and I thank you for those thoughts and advices, as they are a very good base to start from. Your lines of thought are really precise and valuable, a big gift from you ... So your one partner was married and didn't tell you that and wasn't willed to support you, or was this by watching other relationships in your environment ...?

[06.10.2012 20:34:28] She: he was married and didn't told me, but i found out later and i had to move on with my life, and it was the most shocking disappointment in my life, and that left me no choice than to be alone for some time and look forward to my life .. but trust me, i am okay with it and now ready for a new relationship.

[06.10.2012 20:35:57] Me: Okay, just wanted to get sure if I've read between the lines properly ...

[06.10.2012 20:43:09] She: i am happy you understood all that i wrote to you ...

[06.10.2012 20:47:19] Me: Me too, I'm a little bit 'dizzy' right now due to much information being shared, but everything is okay and again thanks for your words ... May we have a break for now or within some minutes, as I guess this is good for me and hopefully is okay with you, although I like to 'be' with you here on chat for longer ...?

[06.10.2012 20:48:15] She: yes my dear, it's okay with me

[06.10.2012 20:48:32] She: just write to me when you want to chat with me, okay?

[06.10.2012 20:51:05] Me: Oh thanks, okay, I hope we will match tomorrow again … In any case I will write the 'morning letter' to you on yahoo tomorrow and if we shouldn't chat again today, I wish you sweet dreams and feel hugged by me as a friend ... bye for now my dear ...

[06.10.2012 20:51:55] She: yes, we will meet tomorrow my dear

[06.10.2012 20:52:05] She: and bye as well and have a good evening

[06.10.2012 20:52:13] She: and good night if we do not get to chat again

[06.10.2012 20:53:43] Me: Okay ... is everything really okay for now …? I feel some open space .. this shouldn't be ...

[06.10.2012 20:56:36] Me: Ohh, I get it now, it's my feeling of already missing you and don’t want to let you go for now, so everything is okay, sorry for the last question, I'm very sensitive right now ... bye

Next day

[Sunday]

My good morning mail to her at 9:05 a.m.

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"Good morning my dear

I was thinking of you every time I woke up last night, and there is so much I wanna tell you ...

Yesterday, before I was going to bed, I missed you so much, I looked at your lovely pictures on my screen and felt so touched by you and so close to you ... I couldn't leave my computer, so I downloaded the pictures on my smarthpone and took it to my pillow, and laid down and looked at you and felt so warm and loved, and I cried a bit because I missed you so and felt so much for you ...

Today morning I drove out by car to get to the woods and have some fresh air and to read a little bit, and after 10 minutes the picture of you came to my mind and I was unable to concentrate and read further, and I felt the urge to drive back home and write this mail to you .. so I'm here now ...

And during my drive home I was dreaming about having breakfast with you today morning, just a croissant, your favourite jelly, tea/coffee, maybe orange juice or whatever you like and prefer ... I was bringing this to your bed and watching you while you were still sleeping, being glad to be with you and hear your soft breathing ... till you woke up ... and we could have breakfast together ...

So I wish you a sweet and happy Sunday morning my dear ...

God bless your day, and I'm looking forward to chat with you later on, maybe when you are awake (just call me on skype or reply to my mail), or tonight at 6/7 p.m. ...

I'm always with you as you are in my heart and in my mind,

Stefan"

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Her good morning mail to me at 10:33 a.m.

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"My Dearest,

Thank you soo much for your wonderful mail .. you make me happy with every single word you say to me, and i must let you know that last night as I was sleeping, my hand was searching for you, but you were not there. I turned my head, I opened my eyes slightly and saw you fixing your new toy, the computer. I just smiled. It would be so typical for me to do. I didn't know that you saw me blinking, getting glimpses of you. I turned my head to the other side and slightly fell right back to sleep. Within minutes, I felt you beside me wearing your robe. I cuddled right into you, like two spoons against each other. This may just be memories, but I woke up this morning still thinking of that morning smile when you read my mind.

I hope you will have a wonderful day ... May your morning be sunny side up, your afternoon bright too. May the whole day bring good news to you. Am hoping to chat with you soon, but now i am leaving for church, so when i get back i will be online for you ... bye for now and take care .. God Bless You .. Good Morning Sweetie .... Or i will meet you again online this evening so we could talk, cause am thinking soo much about our next chat and can't wait for that ..

Always,

Rosina"

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Later in the evening

[07.10.2012 17:34:20] Me: Hi Rosina, I'm here now ...

[07.10.2012 17:58:14] Me: My dear, you don't know how much I love and miss you ... The rest of my life is passing by like a movie, my only reality is being with you and thinking of being with you ... I'm not hungry at all, I have to eat by will, my sleep isn't that deep, I'm longing for you and your words ... Your mail today morning made me beyond happy, I cannot tell you how I felt, I tried to write you a mail reply 3 times to explain how I felt, but nothing matched my feelings for you ... I needed to be alone in silence to feel all the feelings I am feeling for you, and they are filling me more than totally out, your words today 'blew up' my heart, it was spilling over, I felt you so deep inside my heart and my being, and you gave me such a great and sunny morning … For a long long time I wasn't that completely happy, your wishes for a great day for me came more than true, I'm sooo thankful to you for that you are my guardian angel in some way ... I praised the Lord, in my mind I was there in church with you, sitting beside you so tenderly, listening to the words of our beloved Lord Jesus, praising Him with songs ... everything was sunny and light filled in my thoughts ... I'm longing to talk to you and am waiting here ...

2 hours later

[07.10.2012 20:16:31] Me: With this song I'm waiting for my love, and it feels hard and good at once to wait for you ... (Link to love song on youtube (U2, 'With or without you'))

My second mail to her, exceptionally sent in the evening at 9:12 p.m.

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“My dear, today I was reborn in Jesus, our Lord

(I wrote this mail today morning at around 10 o' clock, but I didn't manage to send it to you then, I didn't feel that it was the right time … So I'm sending it now, longing for you and wishing you to know what blessings you brought in my life with your love and your faith in Jesus, which is so strong that I can feel the Lord next to you, Jesus must be very proud of you my dear ...

So here's the mail:

'Tomorrow morning, after writing my good morning mail to you, I went back to bed and listened to my all time favourite song ('With or without you' from U2), and a vision of Jesus' face appeared before my inner eye, and He looked straight into my heart and I immediatly started to cry, being touched by His burning love in my heart, a lot of pain and dark clouds disappeard from my heart while I was crying … I feel redeemed by the Lord because the last three weeks I was walking through darkness, started loosing all my hope for better times, and then the Lord sent you to me, and today He has given me a new life, because after crying due to the Lords Love for me I felt reborn … He just has given me a new life and I'm deeply humbled and still starting to cry for joy, bliss and thankfulness ... So after that I calmed down, went to my computer, and before writing this mail to you I felt I have to dress, because it was Sunday morning and I wished to praise Jesus my Lord for all His Love for me, and for forgiving me all my sins and for redeeming me from my burdens I've carried much too long within me, darkening my heart and my light ... So I put on my best Sunday dress to honour the Lord and began to write to you … In my mind I was already walking with you to church, humbled, glad, full of joy, full of His Love, full of your Love, taking your hand and being happy while expecting to listen to the Word of the Lord, and praise Him with my prayers and my singing ... And then your mail appeared, confirming again that we are one, there is nothing between us, we are already one in Jesus our Lord ...

I do love you with all my heart and my soul ...

Always Yours,

Stefan'”

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Next day

[Monday]

[08.10.2012 19:03:11] She: Good evening

[08.10.2012 19:04:09] Me: Hi

[08.10.2012 19:04:33] She: how are you doing?

[08.10.2012 19:05:18] Me: Oh, now I'm fine again, tomorrow it was a heavy start in the week ...

[08.10.2012 19:06:57] *** Call from She ***

[08.10.2012 19:07:38] Me: Oh, you look so beautiful ... (I can see her on skype with video for the first time)

[08.10.2012 19:07:41] She: i am happy to know that you are doing good ... i am also doing good cos i am here with you

[08.10.2012 19:07:47] She: thank you for your compliments

[08.10.2012 19:07:53] She: you also look good

[08.10.2012 19:08:09] Me: grmpf ..

[08.10.2012 19:08:27] She: did you go to work today?

[08.10.2012 19:09:04] Me: Yes, I did ...

[08.10.2012 19:09:27] She: i am happy to hear that

[08.10.2012 19:09:48] She: and did you read my mail this morning also?

[08.10.2012 19:10:44] Me: Yes, 5 minutes ago when we started chatting, because I hadn't time before and at work I couldn't read it, but I won't miss it the next days ...

[08.10.2012 19:12:20] Me: But your words touched me deep again, I am still dizzy, the whole day I was thinking about you and me, and I was doubting if all I wrote to you yesterday was okay for you ...?

[08.10.2012 19:13:41] She: my dear, i want you to know that all that you wrote to me yesterday was okay for me, cos i really understood everything in your mail, and i thank God for having such a loving and sweet man like you in my life

[08.10.2012 19:13:46] Me: It's a positive ‘shock’ to see you now on skype ... my heart is beating …

[08.10.2012 19:14:00] She: why is it a shock

[08.10.2012 19:14:02] She: ?

[08.10.2012 19:14:39] Me: It is the intensity, I mean always when I'm thinking of you I even feel you close to me ...

[08.10.2012 19:16:04] She: awww .. i get what you mean, and i want you to know that i wanted to surprise you by seeing me and also knowing me in reality, and knowing that this is who i am and no one else

[08.10.2012 19:16:18] She: i am sure you like what you see my dear?

[08.10.2012 19:17:10] Me: Ohhh yes, I'm overwhelmed by your presence ... I mean just your pictures are blowing me ...

[08.10.2012 19:17:51] She: i am happy to hear that, and i always wish to make you the happiest man you are meant to be, okay?

[08.10.2012 19:18:40] Me: Uhh okay, never felt so touched immediately by someone .. we should just let it flow ...

[08.10.2012 19:19:17] She: aww .. i am happy i did the best to make you feel touched this way

[08.10.2012 19:20:06] She: and yes, i agree with you to let it flow this way, cos to me i know there is something we both have in common and i mean something really great, and there is nothing we can do about it, but just leave it as it is...

[08.10.2012 19:21:15] She: you are a caring man, and i do appreciate your time with me and helping me with my stay here so i do not feel lonely .. i just wish you will always allow me to put smiles on your face and also in your heart as well

[08.10.2012 19:22:29] Me: You're welcome ... I mean how great is this that you wish to put smiles on my face and in my heart ... I cannot say anything in addition ...

[08.10.2012 19:23:38] She: i know you will surely like it my dear ... cos i have a pure and clean and also honest heart, and i know giving it to you will be the best and greatest thing i have ever done in my entire life

[08.10.2012 19:26:04] Me: I'm speechless about your words and your infinitely valuable gift to me ... how do I deserve such grace ...

[08.10.2012 19:27:55] She: i know it might sounds crazy, but i want you to know that i think of you more than i do think of myself .. if i imagine the life you are in now and also how loving and caring your heart is, and you are not getting the kind of love and support back, then my heart bleeds .. but i know it's the will of God to make his way to you to be happy again, and i guess and believe that this is why he has sent me to come to you and make you happy and also make me happy as well, after all this bad times i have also been through ... I want you to know that ... you believed always in your entire life that there will be a time that you will find grace in the sight of God, and that is why this grace is in your life now .. cos for me i also believed it, and that is why i am having it now

[08.10.2012 19:30:24] Me: You are sooo right with that, and I thank God and Jesus our Lord for all Their Grace ... They are blessing us right now ...

[08.10.2012 19:31:33] She: yes dear, we have to thank him cos without God we both will not be together by now, and also imagine how we met and see where we are now .. it's amazing

[08.10.2012 19:31:52] She: how is your soul mate doing today?

[08.10.2012 19:34:12] Me: Oh, she's okay ...

[08.10.2012 19:35:17] She: ohh .. okay

[08.10.2012 19:35:34] She: but i guess you try hard to get along with her no matter what?

[08.10.2012 19:36:52] Me: Yes, in some way, because for the last 10 years we had no friends or much personal contact to the 'outer world' ...

[08.10.2012 19:38:11] She: why don't you have friends from the outer world?

[08.10.2012 19:42:28] Me: Hmmm, for me I never had real friends in my life, only 'buddies' since I was 16, and till that a best friend with whom I was always in the same school classes and played with him and all that stuff, but no deeper discussions, I mean no friend whom I could tell what I was really thinking and feeling, which is for me the definition of a best friend, and with 16 I got more buddies in high school, doing teenage stuff like partying, drinking, making nonsense, video evenings, disco visits with 18 and and and, but again no best friend ... And then I met my soul mate with 22, and we had some friends here in Smallcity from vocational training and studies, but this only lasted till everyone got finished with studies, so since we were 30 it all disappeared/faded and we stuck together as a couple ...

[08.10.2012 19:47:49] Me: My 'friends' are at work, some colleagues whom I know better, but outside that frame I’m not engaged in things like sport teams etc. ...

[08.10.2012 19:48:46] She: i get what you mean my dear, and i want you to know that now you have me as your friend and also your everything as well, okay?

[08.10.2012 19:49:32] Me: Okay ...

[08.10.2012 19:49:37] She: you are someone worth being with, and i am willing to be with you in everything and make you happy as long as you want me around you, okay ... you can talk to me and tell me everything, since i can also tell you everything, okay?

[08.10.2012 19:50:00] She: but now i have to stop the chat and go and have my dinner .. i will get back to you when i am done, okay

[08.10.2012 19:50:04] She: will you wait for me?

[08.10.2012 19:50:52] Me: For sure my dear, you are making me very happy and I love to wait for you to come back, so have a nice dinner there ...

[08.10.2012 19:51:15] She: okay, bye

[08.10.2012 19:51:32] *** Call ended, duration 44:36 ***

90 minutes later

[08.10.2012 21:13:05] Me: Oh, welcome back ...

[08.10.2012 21:13:27] She: hello dear, i am happy you are still waiting for me

[08.10.2012 21:13:39] She: what were you doing since i left you?

[08.10.2012 21:14:26] Me: I'm also happy, oh, the whole time I was listening to several music songs, just as they came to my mind ...

[08.10.2012 21:15:22] She: oh okay .. i am sure you already had your dinner my darling, cos while i was taking my dinner and also my shower i was thinking about you if you had yours?

[08.10.2012 21:16:32] Me: Oh sure, I've eaten at around 7 p.m. as usual ...

[08.10.2012 21:18:35] She: i am happy to hear this news my dear ...

[08.10.2012 21:20:08] Me: Thanks for caring for me, it feels good ...

[08.10.2012 21:23:19] Me: While listening to music I was thinking/remembering my running times in youth ... Since I was 6 years old I did long distance running beside my normal sports, and with 14 years I only did middle and long distance running on a competitive level (training 6 times a week, a lot of competitions and championships during the whole year), so running was my way to get rid of all doubts and sorrows of the day and become one with me, my body, nature and the fresh air I was breathing during running. When I'm listening to music it is sometimes the same feeling of being free and flying like a bird...

[08.10.2012 21:26:22] She: i get what you mean my dear, and i want you to know that... music is what the soul needs to refresh itself, and i do not know what this world would be without music, cos for me when i sometimes listen to music to get myself back on track after thinking too much it helps me a lot, so i am happy you have also noticed that

[08.10.2012 21:29:25] Me: Oh, good to hear, music really is nourishment for the soul, it eases and calms the waves of life and brings you 'back on track' as you said, it's a really good description for that ...

[08.10.2012 21:31:59] Me: Do you have special favourites in music like Classic, Rock, Pop, Funk, Punk, Crossover, Techno, Dancefloor, Country, R&B, Rap, Soul ... or like me a bit of everything, depending on mood and situation ...?

[08.10.2012 21:34:05] She: you have already answered the question my dear

[08.10.2012 21:34:50] She: i listen to music and i love it depending on the mood .. and the same thing also happens to movies

[08.10.2012 21:40:37] Me: Oh, technical issues again? (skype seems to hang)

[08.10.2012 21:41:14] She: no my dear, i am here with you and it's your side i want to be okay

[08.10.2012 21:42:24] Me: Oh okay, not meant to doubt, just knowing this from my computer and network, sometimes it 'stutters', no reason why, so we can forget this ...

[08.10.2012 21:44:00] She: ok ..

[08.10.2012 21:45:21] Me: I feel that our conversation becomes 'weak', I guess it's due to the late time, what is in this case the reason for me, so my concentration 'hangs' a little, sorry for that ... Is there something you wanna talk about this evening, or is it okay for us to have a little break?

[08.10.2012 21:47:44] She: am ok with us talking and i have no problem with the connection, but it is so bad that you do have such problems, and i would be glad that you don't get confused or feel bad cos i am always here with you .. if we getting a break will help to get the problem solved, then let me know and give you some time to solve .. ok?

[08.10.2012 21:51:13] Me: Oh ok, I guess it will work further tonight, and I'm thankful that you are always there ... I'll check my wlan drivers tomorrow, maybe an update would be good ... So we can just go on ...

[08.10.2012 21:53:10] She: is ok by me

[08.10.2012 21:56:54] Me: So yesterday evening I wanted to get a Cross as necklace pendant. I was searching for this starting 2 months ago from time to time, but I couldn't find the right one for me, nothing 'clicked' while looking at it … But I guess I found the right one for me now yesterday, I was also surprised how it looks like (there are so many different forms and types available) and I've ordered it online … If I will feel that it isn't the one I expected, I can send it back for free ...

[08.10.2012 21:58:32] She: have you received it yet??

[08.10.2012 21:58:55] She: and i believe it is nice and simple to carry around?

[08.10.2012 22:01:06] Me: No, it will come tomorrow, but i will send you a pic of it, just 1 minute ... And yesterday I felt like it would be good to ask you what kind of cross could suite me, but we can do this now if you'd like to, no sorrow to talk about that, I mean I'm still searching and used to have some 'failed attempts' before getting the 'perfect' one for me ... so 1 min for the pic ...

[08.10.2012 22:02:36] She: ok..

[08.10.2012 22:02:38] She: i am waiting

[08.10.2012 22:03:03] *** Me sent cross_2.png cross_1.png ***

[08.10.2012 22:04:26] She: dear .. do you want me to choose among these crosses for you, and do you like it gold or silver??

[08.10.2012 22:06:01] Me: All of them are an option, maybe even the right one isn't there, so then I will search again and tell you the next sum of choices tomorrow, but maybe a tendency, normally I like silver for chains and crosses ...

[08.10.2012 22:09:32 | Edited 22:10:19] She: these crosses you’ve chosen to select from are beautiful. The first picture that has five crosses .. if you could have a look at it again, i would choose the last 2 gold crosses for you, cos they seem to be the most beautiful among them. But since you like silver, then i would like to make a new search for it .. i hope i did not disappoint you

[08.10.2012 22:14:45] Me: Oh, you didn't disappoint me in any way, because I really appreciate and need your honest opinion, because I didn't get the 'that's it one' till now, but I can tell you that the 2 golden ones were the first I've chosen, because they are sorted by date, so the 'last' ones in that pictures were the first I've chosen, and from these I tend to prefer the simple one (second last), and gold is okay because it will be new to me and new I'm feeling, so thanks again for your support ...

[08.10.2012 22:17:23] She: you are welcome dear and am most grateful. It is always good to be open about all things, even if it hurts. The last two photos of gold crosses are really beautiful. I would like to know which one you have bought online to be received tomorrow???

[08.10.2012 22:20:46] Me: Oh, it's the one on the pic with one cross. I found it too heavy and a little cheesy, but at the point of decision I was weak and so I've chosen the one with the most 'physical' support, because it has 20 semi-precious stones of sapphire, which is a good guardian stone for me but a 'head’ decision, because the gold ones I have preselected some weeks ago when I was in a better mood, so they are filled with more light ...

[08.10.2012 22:22:57] She: i really don't understand well, could you explain it better for me, please?

[08.10.2012 22:23:32] *** Me sent cross_1.png ***

[08.10.2012 22:23:38] Me: Oh, sorry, I've chosen this one ...

[08.10.2012 22:25:22] She: is quite ok, but not one that i would choose for you if you had asked me to. All the same it looks quite good

[08.10.2012 22:27:16] Me: ... because I felt this would protect me when I am physically weak, like having a bad day etc.. But the golden crosses carry much more 'sprit' in it, so I will order the second last golden cross and show you when delivered ... so thanks again and sorry that I was impatient not to wait till I could ask you as I did now ... So thanks again ...

[08.10.2012 22:32:51] She: is my pleasure dear .... but tell me why would you buy something that would make you stronger when weak. This i don't want to agree with you. You are a strong person and you need nothing like a chain or anything of material to make you stronger .. Put God first, and He will make you stronger through it all. Don't rely on a chain .. Rely on Him, cos He is all that can make a live a happy one .. ok

[08.10.2012 22:33:27] She: you are also welcome

[08.10.2012 22:37:12] Me: Oh, thanks for reminding me to that ... it's good to be supported by you as you always have the right words for me, no matter what I need, you know it and build me up ... I'm smiling now my dear ...

[08.10.2012 22:40:16] She: am happy that you have come to realise it yourself .. this is what we all need in this life. Someone to help us realise when are going astray dear .. i will also be looking forward to a photo from you, after you have received the cross you have chosen, and how much is it if i may ask dear?

[08.10.2012 22:44:26] Me: The first one which comes tomorrow costs 65 € (~78$), reduced from 152 € (~186$), the second one you've helped me to find costs 22 € (~27$) ... but without chain as I read now, so maybe a fitting chain 15-20 $ in addition ...

[08.10.2012 22:46:13] She: ok ... the prices are affordable

[08.10.2012 22:46:57 | Edited 22:47:32] She: i feel like you are a bit tired .. am i right?

[08.10.2012 22:47:33] Me: Yes, you are right my dear, as my day begins mostly at 6 o' clock, I'm a born early bird ...

[08.10.2012 22:48:41] She: i can understand you dear ... can we end our chat here and continue tomorrow? Should God grant us His grace tomorrow, so that you can also have enough rest for tomorrow???

[08.10.2012 22:50:20] Me: Oh okay, thank you , yes we can end it here, I will write tomorrow my good morning mail to you from work, and we can chat again at 8 p.m. as today if this fits for you ...

[08.10.2012 22:51:26] She: yes dear .. this time is ok for me, and i will be happy to read your mail in the morning. I wish you a good night and a sound sleep. Don't forget to pray before bed and when you wake up ... ok ..

[08.10.2012 22:53:36] Me: OK ... Thanks for all my dear, it was so good to talk to you and hear all your good words for me and feel your presence, there is nothing I would prefer more than to chat with you ... have a nice sleep my dear ...

[08.10.2012 22:54:20] She: ok dear, thanks to you too .. good night now and bye ....

[08.10.2012 22:54:27] Me: Bye ...

[08.10.2012 22:54:29] She: (wave)

Next day

[Tuesday]

Her good morning mail to me at 6:23 a.m.

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"Hello dear..
There are no words to express the gratitude I feel in my heart that our hearts have come to dwell together, as one. You are my life, my heart, my soul. You are my best friend. You are my one true person i can talk and share my life experiences with like no other .... I want you to know that the day we met was fate. Our lives intertwining was fate. You are my destiny friend and even more. I care for you more today than I did yesterday, and I'll care for you more tomorrow than I do today. Happiness is the only thing that makes life worth living. Your happiness and care is what i look forward to, always. I want you to know that with all my heart I am forever yours. GOOD MORNING MY DEAR ... GOD BLESS YOU AND MAKE YOUR DAY A LOVING AND HAPPY AND BLESSED DAY
Love Always,
Rosina"

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My mail reply to her at 10:51 a.m.

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"My dearest One

Oh how I am still touched by your words this morning, my whole body was shaking as I read your words, your words are just more than words, they are carrying the whole you to me, so it is so as if you are next to me, hugging each other arm in arm and I'm just feeling you, there suddenly is no me and you, just we as one, it's incredible and I'm feeling deeply thankful.

What you are saying to me is beyond everything I have ever dreamt of and everything I can handle, I'm so overflowing by your holy being and your deep caring for me ...

Yes, I do love you with my whole being, my heart and my soul, and you already make me so happy and make a much better person out of me, you are deeply inspiring me and my life ...

I'm starting the days with my prayers to Jesus now and will end them with Him. Today I drove to church before work and thanked God for bringing you in my life, then I wanted to sing a church song to thank Him and so I went back to my car and started a church song on my iPhone (your pictures are already there, I am never without them), and after the first song my phone was humming, your email just arrived, I read it, and now I'm able to response ... oh how I love this mail from you and what you are telling me ...

Yes, the day we met was fate, like the birth of a complete new universe only for us ...

“In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was with God in the beginning. Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made. In him was life, and that life was the light of all mankind. '

[Bible, John 1:1-4 (NIV)].

A bright morning and day for you my dear ... full of Glory and Joy ...

God bless you and let you feel how much I love you ...

Forever Yours,

Stefan"

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Later that day in the evening on chat

[09.10.2012 19:08:18] Me: Hello my dear ... I'm waiting here for you, no matter how long it takes ... my whole evening always belongs to you, so waiting for you means being with you ...

40 minutes later

[09.10.2012 19:49:50] Me: Oh, hi ...

[09.10.2012 19:50:46] She: Good evening dear .. i am happy you are waiting for me .. i appreciate that a lot, and i want you to know that i have you in mind and i will be with you online very soon, okay .. i just came home and i need to get something to eat and also get my shower, and then I'll come and be with you here ... do not forget i miss you more

[09.10.2012 19:50:54] She: see you soon

[09.10.2012 19:50:54] She: :*

[09.10.2012 19:51:20] Me: Okay, till soon my dear ...

90 minutes later

[09.10.2012 21:18:38] Me: My dear ...

[09.10.2012 21:19:09] She: I am here now and sorry for keeping you waiting like this

[09.10.2012 21:19:35] *** Call from She ***

[09.10.2012 21:19:47] Me: You're welcome ...

[09.10.2012 21:20:38] Me: Oh, you look well dressed tonight ...

[09.10.2012 21:21:22] She: thank you my dear, and i must say that i am happy to see you

[09.10.2012 21:21:44] She: how was your day and your family

[09.10.2012 21:23:14] She: ?

[09.10.2012 21:23:23] Me: My day was mixed, the morning good, the rest a little stressy because I got a little cold (at night we have only 4°C instead of 12°C) ...

[09.10.2012 21:24:21] She: i am sorry to hear this my dear, and have you taken some medications?

[09.10.2012 21:25:13] Me: Yes, I have, drops to strengthen my health and some medicine against cold ...

[09.10.2012 21:25:38] She: that is good of you, cos i do not think i can be happy to see you getting ill my dear

[09.10.2012 21:26:34] Me: I won't, I promise, because I started the medications as soon as I recognized the cold, so normally within 2 days everything should be fine again ...

[09.10.2012 21:26:56] She: that's sweet my dear

[09.10.2012 21:27:36] She: today i want you to feel free and ask me anything or tell me anything on your mind, okay

[09.10.2012 21:30:06] Me: Ohh okay ... I have no special questions today, I only felt overwhelmed by your mail this morning, it was very intensive, and normally at this moment I only wanna go out with you and have a dance like in a classic ballroom, but these are emotions and no questions ...

[09.10.2012 21:31:35] She: well, i must say to you that you are always welcome to go to a dance or anywhere with me, okay .. i care about you and i will be happy to have you right next to me in my life, okay, so i want to tell you that you have me, okay

[09.10.2012 21:32:40] Me: So how was your day, did you travel a bit?

[09.10.2012 21:34:55] She: yes, i did travel to the Kakum national park, and it's a tourist place, and it's a nice place, and i did enjoy myself to know how beautiful this place is ... and also visited the museum as well

[09.10.2012 21:35:30] She: is that the same you are wearing? (She shows me the Ralph Lauren brand on her polo shirt]

[09.10.2012 21:35:33] Me: Ralph Lauren?

[09.10.2012 21:35:38] She: yes

[09.10.2012 21:36:20] Me: No, I'm wearing Vrsity, I didn't know that brand before, but it fits ...

[09.10.2012 21:36:43] She: oh okay .. i just wanted to ask, okay

[09.10.2012 21:37:57] Me: Oh okay, I like how you are dressed, and I put my dress watch on today ... (Showing her my wrist watch)

[09.10.2012 21:38:44] She: that's a nice wrist watch my dear, and i am happy you like the way i dress

[09.10.2012 21:39:13] She: i love simple and gentle and neat dressing

[09.10.2012 21:39:55] She: so that means i like the way you dress, and i am grateful to have a man like you on my side

[09.10.2012 21:40:52] Me: Yes, me too, I'm the classic type, preferring dark blue and black trousers or blue Jeans ... and I am also happy to have such a beautiful woman by my side ...

[09.10.2012 21:44:39] She: tell me, if you would get the chance to meet the woman of your dreams .. would you be happy to be with her and have kids with her?

[09.10.2012 21:45:36] Me: Yes, I would. On last Sunday I already had that vision of you being my wife and we having two children, I wasn't ready to tell you till now ...

[09.10.2012 21:46:29] Me: Means you are the women of my dreams ...

[09.10.2012 21:46:41] She: wow .. i would be happy to have this in reality my dear ... do you think your soul mate will be happy to see you have such a life without her?

[09.10.2012 21:47:52] Me: No, she won't, but I can't look into the future in detail, but I wanted to tell you the vision because I promised honesty to you, always ...

[09.10.2012 21:49:16] She: i get what you mean my dear, and i know she will not be happy about that, and i also understand and know that it's your vision, and i will be happy if this dream comes into reality cos you are a nice man and caring and also honest, and a GOD FEARING MAN

[09.10.2012 21:50:00] She: and i will be happy to get to know you more and also have you as my everything, but as you know we do not know that yet, and we are yet to find out from God, so let's have faith in the Lord, okay?

[09.10.2012 21:51:04] Me: Yes, we need to hand it to the Lord, it's much too complicated without His guidance ...

[09.10.2012 21:51:14] She: tell me, where is the best place you will love to go on a date ....?

[09.10.2012 21:52:19] Me: Oh, first date in the opera, after that in a nice restaurant ...

[09.10.2012 21:53:55] Me: I mean this for my first date with you ... in general I prefer good restaurants ... or if to take it really easy in a nice pub ... it depends then on the person I'm dating ...

[09.10.2012 21:54:33] She: I am happy to hear that my dear, and i also want you to know that there are many places to go on a date, but with me for a first date, I would say maybe a quiet lunch where we could talk and get to know one another better .. Even just meeting for a coffee would be fine with me. If all worked out well, the next date might be longer and we could plan a day of it ... walk in the park or coffee shop, some place where we can enjoy each other’s company. A Harley ride in the mountains, or going to the beach sitting on a blanket watching the sun go down, then looking upward into the heavens at the wonder of it all. I love God's creation, the beauty of it all

[09.10.2012 21:57:19] Me: Oh, that's really romantic ... After first date having a coffee and going out in nature is my favourite because I'm often in nature in my spare time, and I love long walks in nature, especially if it's coast or mountains ...

[09.10.2012 21:58:29] She: wow .. i just can see that each time we get to know more about us, i get to know we both have a lot in common and that is nice

[09.10.2012 21:59:22] Me: Oh, I really like that shirt with the 'Polo Player on a horse logo' ...

(She shows me her Ralph Lauren shirt again, I don't know why)

[09.10.2012 22:00:42] Me: And watching the sky while lying with the back in the grass is very nice too ... I did this in the past much too rarely ...

[09.10.2012 22:01:19] She: i just wished that someday i can have all this time with you my dear

[09.10.2012 22:01:35] She: and see how sweet and romantic you are

[09.10.2012 22:02:25] She: i think i have a problem with my webcam

[09.10.2012 22:02:26] Me: Me too, really, I'm daydreaming a lot of being with you and just going for a walk, holding your hands, and let life flow through us as it's meant ...

[09.10.2012 22:03:41] She: i like walking hand in hand with my man .. sometimes along the beaches

[09.10.2012 22:04:52] She: like summer times and also cooking together at home or while i am cooking he will be watching me

[09.10.2012 22:06:06] Me: this would be perfect for me also ... as simple but as full of softness and freedom this is ... and i like to cook with you as you told me it's one of your favourites ...

[09.10.2012 22:06:34] She: yes, it is my dear

[09.10.2012 22:07:23] Me: And I would also like to sing with you some church songs while playing the guitar, do you like to sing chorus?

[09.10.2012 22:07:46] She: yes, i do ...

[09.10.2012 22:08:34] *** Call ended, duration 48:58 ***

[09.10.2012 22:09:38] She: i do not know why my camera is bad today .. i think it's bad network

[09.10.2012 22:10:36] Me: That's really painful for me, I'm getting addicted to your face and now this ... it's like playing hot and cold ...

[09.10.2012 22:11:57] She: i get what you mean, but i want you to forgive me for that my dear ... i do not have a laptop or a notebook, i use my girlfriend's family old desktop computer, and that is why it is behaving this way, so please forgive me for that, okay

[09.10.2012 22:12:21] She: maybe someday if i can afford a laptop, then i guess i will be happy to have a good time chat with you

[09.10.2012 22:13:24] Me: Sure it's okay, I'm not having any problems with that and I'm sorry for the 'old' equipment, but till now it does its job and I'm thankful for that ...

[09.10.2012 22:14:36] She: thank you for understanding me, but i want you to know that if you have any second hand laptop you can help me with, if you do not mind, and i will return it back to you when we meet

[09.10.2012 22:15:49] Me: Oh, that's really no problem as I have an old one, so to which address and at which time shall I send it to you? To Ghana now, or later to your home in Canada?

[09.10.2012 22:18:02] She: i am happy to hear this my dear. I will give you my address right now to send it to me here in Ghana since i will be here for some time before going back to Canada, and also i want you to know that i will need this laptop for our communication, so we will not have problems with camera again, okay, so you have to tell me when you can send it to me and i will be grateful, okay?

[09.10.2012 22:23:21] Me: Okay, tomorrow I will install win xp new on the laptop if it's okay for you. On Thursday I will be able to order the shipping to Ghana, due to time I guess with air freight (DHL maybe, but I will have to check the best and fastest way/logistic service), so I would only need the address to ship it to ...

[09.10.2012 22:25:31] She: i am happy to hear this again my dear, and i must say thank you soo much for your love and care and i will be glad to have this laptop from you, but also i want you to know that i will send you the postal address with tomorrow morning mail to you, okay

[09.10.2012 22:25:46] She: so you can have it and when ready you send it to me ... thank you soo much

[09.10.2012 22:25:57] She: and God bless you

[09.10.2012 22:26:02] Me: Okay, no problem at all ...

[09.10.2012 22:26:46] She: you do not know how happy i am right now to know you have accepted to do this for me

[09.10.2012 22:27:06] Me: I'm glad to have the chance to make you a present and am happy with it my dear ...

[09.10.2012 22:28:08] She: aww .. that is why i said you are a caring man and also a darling, and like i promised i am willing to make you happy and also the best man you are meant to be cos you are a darling to me, and i do not know what i will do without you .. now back to my questions

[09.10.2012 22:28:26] She: what are the things you would like to do with your partner?

[09.10.2012 22:34:41] Me: Okay, I would like to go for a walk, to have a coffee in city, go shopping, go to cinema if there is just the need to relax that easy way, go for a weekend travel (mountains, coast), sometimes go in museum or theatre, just to get another view of the things, go for an easy run (jogging) if partner likes sports, so that were outdoor activities ... Indoor I would like to make music like singing together, playing guitar, of course a cuddle evening with a movie on the sofa, making arts together like painting, sculpturing ... just relaxing while listening to music ... that's what comes in my mind first...

[09.10.2012 22:37:51] She: i like what you said my dear, and i wish someday we both can have a time like this .. i also must tell you that i always want to laugh, laugh, and laugh with my man .. sometimes i want to dance too and listen to music with him, i like biking, i like going to the ocean and walking on the beach, sharing good thoughts about our life and make each other happy. You know it, and i love when you propose doing something that maybe you do not specifically like doing, but you do because you know i like it .. do you get what i am trying to tell you?

[09.10.2012 22:43:28] Me: Yes, I guess, but which is the thing I'm proposing to do with you because I know you would like to do it (I'm just interested, there's no need to answer) ... and of course I would also like to do things with you which are not my first choice because I could learn something new, maybe I would like it more than I guess, and of course I want to make you happy with this ...

[09.10.2012 22:45:27] She: how do you like to be surprised by your partner .....?

[09.10.2012 22:48:12] Me: Ohh, I guess I would like to get hugged and kissed by my partner, indoors and maybe outdoors even, and also a spontaneous invitation for a short trip (somewhere in city or nature) ...

[09.10.2012 22:48:40] She: hehehehehe ...

[09.10.2012 22:48:47] Me: hehehe …

[09.10.2012 22:50:43] She: for me i love surprise gifts .... like a real gift when I come back home and find tasks I was supposed to do during that time already taken care of .... a dinner invitation is nice too, but it has to be a surprise. I love when you anticipate my desires ... it means you know me very well, all the little things I care about, and my habits

[09.10.2012 22:53:31] Me: Oh, what should I say, now I know how I can surprise you ...

[09.10.2012 22:55:27] Me: But I guess all your little things and your habits I will only be able to 'learn'/get to know when I'm really together with you, living in one house/apartment ...

[09.10.2012 22:56:50] She: i am a simple and honest person, and i know you will be happy to be around me my dear

[09.10.2012 22:59:11] Me: This is for sure, I don't doubt this in any way, and I miss the opportunity to be physically by your side now because then I guess everything will develop very easily for us ...

[09.10.2012 23:01:05] She: yes my dear, i also miss being with you in reality where i can see you and feel your skin, and also look in your eyes and get to know you more and more better, but i am very sure and hope that someday i will meet you in reality, cos i always think of you and dream of the day when i will meet you in person, and i know with faith in God that day will surely come

[09.10.2012 23:03:37] Me: I pray for that and hope my desire and longing for you won't 'kill' me in between, this is no joke from the emotionally point of view, I am feeling very attracted to you and always feel the desire to be by your side ...

[09.10.2012 23:04:23] She: come on my dear

[09.10.2012 23:04:38] She: i do not think you will die in between, okay

[09.10.2012 23:05:16] Me: Okay, 1:0 for you, I was doing drama queen style, sorry for that ...

[09.10.2012 23:05:25] She: i am here for you and anytime you want me to come to you and meet you, even just for a weekend or a day or 2 days, then you tell me and i will come to you, okay?

[09.10.2012 23:06:58] Me: Okay ... thanks for that offer ... I didn't expect that this opportunity exist ... so I can calm down now ...

[09.10.2012 23:07:32] She: hehehehe .. why did you think it will never exist my dear?

[09.10.2012 23:08:10] Me: Because I have lost faith in my dreams I guess ...

[09.10.2012 23:08:20] She: you make me happy anytime i am with you online and i feel happy also when i think of you, so i do not think i will hide myself away from someone like you, who make me happy and also make me feel cared for

[09.10.2012 23:08:44] She: i want you to gather your faith again and believe that there is always hope in life if you keep believing, okay?

[09.10.2012 23:09:01] Me: Okay, I'm already working on it ...

[09.10.2012 23:09:03] She: you are a true believer in God, so i expect you to have faith in everything, okay?

[09.10.2012 23:10:07] Me: Okay, really thank you for that, you support me in my 'wounded points', this is what I really need the most, you are a darling ...

[09.10.2012 23:11:30] She: if i am a darling then what are you also ... hehehehehehe .. lol

[09.10.2012 23:11:45] Me: :)

[09.10.2012 23:11:53] She: you are rather a darling for having time with me all this while and making me happy in a way i never expected my dear

[09.10.2012 23:12:25] She: please, it's almost 12 a.m. at your place, and i want you to go to bed since you will have a busy day tomorrow with work, or what do you think?

[09.10.2012 23:13:24] Me: Yes, you are right, it's the best to stop here and continue tomorrow at the same time so around 8-9 p.m. if it fits ... and of course our morning mails ...

[09.10.2012 23:13:47] She: i am happy you understand me my dear

[09.10.2012 23:14:27] She: i will say bye for now and wish you a lot of sweet dreams, and do not forget that someone cares about you more, so everything you do please take care of yourself for me, okay

[09.10.2012 23:15:23] Me: Okay, I will do so, thanks for caring, and have a good sleep and also sweet dreams my dear ...

[09.10.2012 23:15:52] She: bye for now my darling, and i will be waiting for you tomorrow

[09.10.2012 23:15:55] She: bye dear

[09.10.2012 23:16:03] She: (heart):*(F)

[09.10.2012 23:16:03] Me: Bye dear

[09.10.2012 23:16:05] She: Good night

[09.10.2012 23:16:13] Me: (heart)

Next day

[Wednesday]

[10.10.2012 19:11:27] She: Good evening my dear ... how are you doing?

[10.10.2012 19:17:08] *** Missed call from She. ***

Half an hour later

[10.10.2012 19:51:26] Me: Hi, so sorry for being late today ...

[10.10.2012 19:53:49] She: it's okay my dear ... i was missing you and decided to come online and see if you are here, and i saw you here and called you but you were away, but now that you are here i am good and happy, and i must say i am pleased with your second mail ..

Her good morning mail to me at 10:50 a.m.

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“Hello Love
Since you came into my life, I've looked forward to each sunrise in the early morning, with you in my thoughts, midnight skies with me beneath a billion stars move me. I missed you soo much last night and after our chat .. i wished that you were in my bed with me so that i could kiss you all night long, and look straight into your eyes and then tell you how much you mean to me.
You make me feel like no one else could for a longer period of time, i like the person i am … when i have you in my thoughts and imagine our new life together you bring out a part of me that i never knew existed, a part that was born with you in my life, you make me complete. Now i have a reason to try, now i have a cause, now i have a reason to believe in all the wonderful things life has to offer.
You have taken my heart and drown me into light, and you have seen in me all qualities, that no one has ever noticed, you give me hope, inspiration, pride and love. And i hope that you have a nice day and only good news come your way.
Good Morning Sweetie and God Bless YOU
Always Love
Rosina

PS: My dear, here is my address ...

ROSINA African surname

P.O. BOX 1234

city name

GHANA-WEST AFRICA

TEL:00233-123456789

PLEASE DO NOT FORGET TO ADD MY TELEPHONE NUMBER OKAY AND YOU CAN CALL ME WITH THIS MY TELEPHONE AND I WILL RESPOND TO YOU OKAY."

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My mail reply to her at 1:42 p.m.
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”My Love
My heart is pounding while reading your words, I can feel every single word from you and your feelings and your love behind them ... All my senses are touched by your words, and oh how would I love to have spent the last night together with you in your bed ... kissing, hugging ... I'm so in love with you and soo deeply touched, my thoughts are always drawn towards you because me, my whole being, is so strongly longing for you that my mind tries to please me and ease my yearning for you by always thinking of you ... As I'm reading your mail the second time, I'm listening to Bryan Adams 'Let's make a night to remember', the song softens my stirred up senses a bit ...
There is so much more to say to you, to feel for you, to feel WITH you ...
And when you said you wanna look me deep in the eyes and tell me what I mean to you, I was so blown away and shot in another dimension with you that I cannot describe it ... Your words have so much energy, it's like a wonder how much they are surrounding me, warming me, caring me, loving me ...

I have to stop, I kiss you till I will lose consciousness again and again ...

In deepest love,

Stefan”

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[10.10.2012 19:54:01] She: it warms my heart and makes me feel good

[10.10.2012 19:54:04] She: Thank you

[10.10.2012 19:54:56] Me: I thank you for all your feelings for me and telling me these ...

[10.10.2012 19:56:17 | Edited 19:59:44] She: it's only you i can and will have feelings for, cos you made me who i am .. i was not happy since i came here, cos i had no other person than my girlfriend to talk to, and you came in and put a big smile on my face, and i thank you for you ... anyway, how was your day my darling?

[10.10.2012 19:57:26] *** Call from She ***

[10.10.2012 19:59:51] Me: Oh, a 'weak' start as usual, I felt low this morning, then drove to work and had a 'grey' working day, then I wrote you my first email and then I received your email response, and from that on my day was bright and full of joy, work was far away and I drove home, spending a lot of time at my computer to write to you and listen to some music and give myself space for my feelings for you, caused by your mail to me ...

[10.10.2012 20:02:10] Me: You are really my only sunshine during the day ...

[10.10.2012 20:02:41] She: i am soo happy to hear these sweet words from you, and happy to know i put a smile on your face and your heart as well my dear .. i am happy about it and i want you to know that i made a promise to you to keep my word, and i will always do that to keep my promise to you, to make you happy and even more, okay ... for me i had a good day cos i was thinking of you and missing you, and happy to know i will be getting a laptop of my own from you my dear ... i told my girlfriend about it and she is happy for me

[10.10.2012 20:04:21] Me: Ohh, I’m always getting 'butterflies' in my belly when you are telling me this, and I'm more than happy about what we have together ...

[10.10.2012 20:04:55] Me: And your laptop is already finished for shipping, shall I show you?

[10.10.2012 20:05:07] She: yes dear ... (I show her the laptop on webcam)

[10.10.2012 20:06:06] She: am speechless

[10.10.2012 20:06:10] She: trust me

[10.10.2012 20:07:25] Me: You don't need to, I really liked to setup this laptop for you, and after finding the right desktop background and installing skype, I had the feeling that this is already your laptop and felt close to you ...

[10.10.2012 20:07:56] She: thank you soo much and God bless you, okay

[10.10.2012 20:08:12] She: you do not know how happy i am right now my dear ..

[10.10.2012 20:08:32] Me: Oh, thanks ... it's really a pleasure to make you happy my dear ...

[10.10.2012 20:08:59] She: then i want you to know that you have already made me more and more happy, okay

[10.10.2012 20:09:07] Me: Okay ...

[10.10.2012 20:09:31] She: so that means you can make the shipment tomorrow or when

[10.10.2012 20:09:32] She: ?

[10.10.2012 20:10:28] Me: Yes, tomorrow morning I will order the shipment, and then tell you in my morning mail when you are supposed to receive it, and the shipment details like shipment company, transport code etc. ...

[10.10.2012 20:10:56] She: okay my darling .. thank you soo much and i will be looking forward to that, okay

[10.10.2012 20:11:31] Me: Okay, I hope it will 'survive' the travel, I will put it in much 'air foil' ...

[10.10.2012 20:11:42] She: but i want you to give me some time to have my shower and also have something to eat, and then get back to you here, okay ... but first tell me if you have eaten something??

[10.10.2012 20:12:24] Me: Oh yes, I have already eaten, and thank you so much for waiting without having the chance to eat and to shower my dear ...

[10.10.2012 20:12:39] She: it's my pleasure

[10.10.2012 20:12:40] She: okay

[10.10.2012 20:12:46] She: i will leave now and be with you soon

[10.10.2012 20:12:55] She: bye for now

[10.10.2012 20:12:59] She: and see you later

[10.10.2012 20:13:03] Me: Okay darling, till soon ...

[10.10.2012 20:13:14] *** Call ended, duration 15:48 ***

Half an hour later

[10.10.2012 20:51:41] She: hello dear, am back

[10.10.2012 20:52:43] Me: Oh good, that was quick ...

[10.10.2012 20:53:43] She: i couldn't take much time alone, cos you are now a part of me my dear

[10.10.2012 20:54:19] Me: I know what you are feeling, it's the same with me ...

[10.10.2012 20:55:38] Me: Shall I show you the first (falsely ordered) cross, it has been delivered today, and I plan to send it back tomorrow ...

[10.10.2012 20:55:57] She: yes my dear, that will be loving (I show her the cross necklace)

[10.10.2012 20:56:09] *** Call to She ***

[10.10.2012 20:56:43] Me: Oh, shall I upload it?

[10.10.2012 20:57:02] Me: You are looking so lovely my dear ...

[10.10.2012 20:57:20] She: thank you for your compliments

[10.10.2012 20:58:35] She: you have chosen the silver one

[10.10.2012 20:58:43] She: but why are you giving it back?

[10.10.2012 20:59:20] Me: No, this was the one I've ordered one day before I asked for your advise .. so I will send it back and wait for the golden one the next days ...

[10.10.2012 21:00:01] She: i see ... i wish i had one on my own, and i am sure it doesn't cost that much my dear?

[10.10.2012 21:00:38] Me: Sure not, shall I send you the link to the crosses at Amazon so that you may choose one ?

[10.10.2012 21:01:25] She: hehehe ... if i choose one, how am i going to pay for it since am in Ghana ..

[10.10.2012 21:02:12] Me: Oh, I forgot to say that it would be a pleasure for me to make this as a gift to you ...

[10.10.2012 21:03:08] She: that is thoughtful of you, but i do not feel good with it, and it seems i am asking too much

[10.10.2012 21:04:11] She: you are sending me a laptop tomorrow and now again this .. it's too much my dear

[10.10.2012 21:05:49] Me: Oh please, you really would make me happy with accepting my offer to you, you are my girlfriend and deserve all my attention ... please ...

[10.10.2012 21:08:57] She: thank you soo much my dear, and i want you to know that i do appreciate your love and care for me, okay... what you are doing for me is something no man has done for me, and i do not know how to thank you or pay you back ... all that i have to say is that i am grateful for everything, okay ... I just do not want to be a burden to anyone, that is why, but with you i think it's okay by me, cos i will even do more for you in return, and it's a promise, okay ... well since you want to make it a gift to me .. then i guess it will take a long time before sending it to me, or??

[10.10.2012 21:11:19] Me: Hmmm, I will send you the link to the Amazon crosses, you can choose one, and I will order and pay for it and try to enter your Ghanaian address as delivery address. If Amazon accepts it, it will be delivered within one week I guess ...

[10.10.2012 21:12:00] She: well, that's sweet of you, but i have an idea that will help us both, okay, and i do not know if it will be okay for you as well

[10.10.2012 21:13:04] She: the idea is .. you send me a laptop tomorrow, so why don't you add what you have and do not like in addition to it, cos it's nice, so you can order a new one for yourself .. i just want to save time for us my dear

[10.10.2012 21:13:16] She: or what do you think about my idea?

[10.10.2012 21:14:22] Me: Oh, that sounds good if you really like that one I've shown you before ... I will add it to the laptop my dear, okay ?

[10.10.2012 21:14:43] She: that's okay my dear

[10.10.2012 21:15:12] Me: Okay, will happen so ...

[10.10.2012 21:15:38] She: thank you for your sweet and gentle understanding, and i promise you that i will never disappoint you, okay

[10.10.2012 21:15:51] She: but first tell me the cost of the necklace

[10.10.2012 21:15:53] She: ?

[10.10.2012 21:17:38] Me: You need not to promise ... the necklace costs 60 € (~ 75$), special offer (only one piece) reduced from originally 150 € (185$) ... so a good deal I guess ...

[10.10.2012 21:18:29] She: ohh, okay .. yes, that's a good deal, and i am happy for all this you are doing for me, and may God richly bless you, okay

[10.10.2012 21:18:55] Me: Okay, I can't wait to see that cross around your sweet neck ...

[10.10.2012 21:19:33] She: i also can't wait as well my dear

[10.10.2012 21:20:25] Me: So is it hot there, I see your hair waving in the fan stream ...

[10.10.2012 21:21:10] She: yes, it is hot here my dear ... though it's raining sometimes but still hot here

[10.10.2012 21:21:48] Me: I'm so jealous about that weather, here it's so cold and always rainy ... :(

[10.10.2012 21:22:24] She: hehehehehe ... come on, i also had that thoughts that i will enjoy it here cos of the hot weather, but trust me

[10.10.2012 21:22:32] She: now i have enough of it

[10.10.2012 21:23:29] Me: Okay, if it's THAT hot I understand you, everything above 30°C and mixed up with high humidity ‘kills’ the ability to sleep ...

[10.10.2012 21:24:21] She: yes dear

[10.10.2012 21:24:32] She: i forget to ask you about your soul mate

[10.10.2012 21:24:37] She: how is she doing?

[10.10.2012 21:26:02] Me: Oh, she is doing fine …

[10.10.2012 21:26:54] She: oh okay .. do not worry, if she can't make you happy, i am here to make you happy, okay

[10.10.2012 21:27:40] She: i am sure you know how much i want you in my life and want to be with you, and make you the happiest man, so do not worry, okay?

[10.10.2012 21:27:43] Me: Okay ...

[10.10.2012 21:27:44] She: you have me

[10.10.2012 21:27:51] She: all for you

[10.10.2012 21:27:52] She: okay?

[10.10.2012 21:28:02] Me: Okay ...

[10.10.2012 21:28:03] She: everything as well

[10.10.2012 21:28:45] Me: Hmmm, not knowing what to say ...

[10.10.2012 21:30:26] Me: I can't take my eyes of you today, the first time that I'm looking more at you than I look at my chat text ... It feels so good to see you here on chat ... will help me to get a good feeling while sleeping and dreaming of you ...

[10.10.2012 21:32:21] She: i must say i am happy to hear this sweet words from you my dear, and it's the same thing with me .. it feels good to see you, and i wish i would be with you and having this conversation in your room now, but i know that there will be a time when i will be with you ... you are a darling and you deserve the best, and i am here to give you the best and nothing else, okay

[10.10.2012 21:33:34] Me: Okay ... It's just good to have you 'here' on chat with me ...

[10.10.2012 21:35:01] Me: I love your smile, it has already captured in my heart ...

[10.10.2012 21:35:24] She: you making me shy my dear

[10.10.2012 21:37:08] Me: Sorry ... you making me very glad and happy with your beauty, I still haven't told you how much I adore you and your pure beauty, and the small fine mimic play in your face and the fall of your hair and the way you are stroking your hair and ...

[10.10.2012 21:38:23] Me: Sorry, you are a beautiful women, I wish you to know that ...

[10.10.2012 21:38:43] She: i must also say that i adore you the same, and i respect you and i am always happy to be with you, and i want always to be with you and have you in my life, always .... come on

[10.10.2012 21:38:51] She: there is no way for you to say sorry

[10.10.2012 21:39:02] She: i understand what you mean and i am happy with your compliments

[10.10.2012 21:39:09] Me: Okay ..

[10.10.2012 21:39:29] She: cos they are touching my heart, and i want you to know that it's the first time i am having a chat like this with a man, and i am happy my dear

[10.10.2012 21:39:57] She: tell me, with how many people did you chat here in skype?

[10.10.2012 21:42:27] Me: Oh, it was one before as I told you, the girl I've supported .... I know that you can see in my profile the number of contacts, it must be 6 I guess, but that were just questions for accepting them as contacts from their site, I even don't know them or have even chatted with them, their requests were in September this year, and I've accepted them just out of interest who they would be 2 weeks ago, but none of them has contacted me again, so I can also delete them ...

[10.10.2012 21:44:19] Me: I'm not a 'player' or someone chatting with several women just to strengthen my ego, that's really not me, all I'm saying to you is uniquely felt just for you, and I never make such compliments to a woman here on skype or elsewhere, okay?

[10.10.2012 21:44:46] She: i trust you my dear

[10.10.2012 21:45:02] She: i just asked, cos i do not want any woman to come in our way, cos i want to be with you only, okay?

[10.10.2012 21:45:24] She: i feel good with you, and i want you only for myself and your soul mate, okay ...

[10.10.2012 21:45:34 | Edited 21:46:02] She: so please keep us both and not anymore, okay?

[10.10.2012 21:45:43] Me: Okay, that's really understandable ...

[10.10.2012 21:45:49] She: cos for me, i am keeping you alone and i will not disappoint you

[10.10.2012 21:46:36] Me: Oh, I'm already blocking them, okay?

[10.10.2012 21:47:05] She: that's sweet of you darling

[10.10.2012 21:47:44] Me: And believe me, my day is so full that there is no time for 'other women', even if I would be that type of guy, okay?

[10.10.2012 21:48:19] Me: So, I've finished blocking all old contacts ...

[10.10.2012 21:49:16] She: i trust you my dear, and want you to know that i have always trusted you from the first day, okay ..?

[10.10.2012 21:50:41] Me: Okay, I'm really sorry to haven't deleted these contacts already .. and it shows me that you really care ... and I know that you are trusting me as I'm also trusting you, so we are fine ...

[10.10.2012 21:52:10] She: thank you my dear .. i only asked you, cos i know you have no really good or best friends, so i was worried and that is why i asked you

[10.10.2012 21:52:35] She: but now i am fine and want you to know that you mean my world, and also forgive me if i talk too much, okay

[10.10.2012 21:53:37] Me: You don't talk too much, everything can be said and I like to talk to you in every way ...

[10.10.2012 21:55:19] Me: And making compliments is my way of expressing what I really feel for you, I don't want to make you shy, but I'm that romantic type in my heart ...

[10.10.2012 21:56:19] She: all that i can say is that i am happy to have met you, cos we both do understand each other soo much, and that is a sign of a good start for us

[10.10.2012 21:56:33] She: hmmmmm ... i have a funny question

[10.10.2012 21:56:39] Me: Please ..

[10.10.2012 21:56:43] She: would you like to have a child someday

[10.10.2012 21:56:46] She: ?

[10.10.2012 21:57:51] Me: Yes, I will. I love children and I 'can good with children' as others told me, because I also have a lot of fantasy and can easily make children laugh ...

[10.10.2012 21:58:17] She: then i am okay now

[10.10.2012 21:58:28] She: cos i have been asking myself this question a lot

[10.10.2012 21:59:36] She: Stefan, i want you to know that .. i do not see us to be just ordinary friends, but we are something more than friends, okay

[10.10.2012 21:59:50 | Edited 22:00:17] She: i have a lot of feelings for you, and i do not know why

[10.10.2012 22:01:33] Me: This is what they call love, and it is a gift from God … It just happens to two people and in this case this are we, and I'm also surprised by these heavy feelings for you, but I like that and I won't change these feelings for you ...

[10.10.2012 22:04:16] Me: You know that I'm thinking of you the whole day, and that I get butterflies in my belly when you send me mails, and I never was in love that way before ... And I thank God for that grace to be in love with you, and for that this makes me feel deeply alive and feel being a human and having a heart and having pure direct feelings ...

[10.10.2012 22:06:10] She: i understand you very well, and i want you to know that i am happy that our hearts feel the same thing ... this is also strange to me, but i guess we have no choice than to accept what God has given us ... I feel good with you, and i want to keep these feelings forever .. maybe it is too early for this, but i know we are taking our time to be sure, and i know God is with us to make things work for us

[10.10.2012 22:08:14] Me: Yes, we are taking our time and that's the best way for us I guess, love has its own rules and crooked ways, but if God means it good with us, everything will develop to the best of us ...

[10.10.2012 22:09:48] She: dear, surely God is with us, and he will develop these feelings for us, so do not worry, okay ...

[10.10.2012 22:10:46] Me: Okay my dear ... I will not worry, but I won't miss you ...

[10.10.2012 22:11:47] She: you will never miss me, cos i am always here with you and i will always be with you, okay

[10.10.2012 22:13:20] Me: Okay ... my fear of loss is only a sign how much I care and need you right now, and I know that you will be there for me as you said before ...

[10.10.2012 22:14:38] She: i get what you mean, but i assure you that you will never lose me, okay .. i want you more than you need me my dear

[10.10.2012 22:14:49] She: cos i can't lose this happiness i get from you, okay

[10.10.2012 22:15:02] She: you are my world, even if you live with your soul mate

[10.10.2012 22:16:17] Me: Okay, I know, feel, believe and understand everything you say to me, and again, I'm now blown away by your words ...

[10.10.2012 22:17:22] Me: Oh nooo, why ...? I guess the laptop is badly needed there ... (Internet connection has been aborted)

[10.10.2012 22:17:34] *** Call ended, duration 1:21:25 ***

[10.10.2012 22:18:02] Me: Are you still there?

[10.10.2012 22:20:00] Me: What ever it is with this technical interrupts, I'll write you a good night mail today and tomorrow your good morning mail, and everything is okay ... Ohh yeah, happy again !!! (Internet connection is up again)

[10.10.2012 22:20:25] *** Call to She ***

[10.10.2012 22:20:39] She: yes, i am here

[10.10.2012 22:20:58] She: yes, the laptop is badly needed here

[10.10.2012 22:21:20] She: and i will be happy if you can make it DHL express sending, so i can get it like within 2 or 3 days here, okay

[10.10.2012 22:21:29] She: cos this computer is not helping at all

[10.10.2012 22:22:41] Me: Okay, good ... sure I will make it with DHL express as I told you to choose the fastest way for that ... no more stress for us then ... we don't deserve that ... :)

[10.10.2012 22:23:29] She: yes honey, we deserve the best, okay

[10.10.2012 22:23:49] She: I am happy you are doing all this for me, and i want you to know that .. every word i say to you is from my heart

[10.10.2012 22:23:54] She: i mean innermost of my heart, okay

[10.10.2012 22:24:33] She: i say what i feel to you, and i mean every single word, okay

[10.10.2012 22:25:58] Me: Okay, I can always feel it, and when I'm alone in bed or at work or outside in the world I can feel it much more, because then I really realize how much I do miss you every second in my life ...

[10.10.2012 22:26:56] She: same here my dear

[10.10.2012 22:27:01] She: i would like to hear your voice

[10.10.2012 22:27:25] She: would you like me to call you on your mobile, or will you call me

[10.10.2012 22:27:25] She: ?

[10.10.2012 22:30:44] Me: Okay, shall we try now or tomorrow, just tell me the right time for you and I will call you then, the number you sent me by mail was the home in Ghana, right? Or you can also call me, my mobile is: '0049 handy number'.

[10.10.2012 22:31:14] She: yes, it's Ghanaian number

[10.10.2012 22:32:16] Me: I'm calling right now

[10.10.2012 22:32:40] She: ohh

[10.10.2012 22:32:41] She: sorry

[10.10.2012 22:32:45] She: i have to go get my phone

[10.10.2012 22:32:53] Me: Is your 'guest family' already sleeping? ... :)

[10.10.2012 22:33:05] *** Call ended, duration 12:39 *** (We have our first phone call with each other, lasts around 5 minutes, her voice is so lovely and sweet ... We tell us how much we like each other and that it is soo good to hear each other because that intensifies our feelings for each other ... Then we wish us a good night ...)

Next day

[Thursday]

[11.10.2012 09:41:14] Me: Good morning my love ...

[11.10.2012 09:42:40] She: hello honey

[11.10.2012 09:42:45] She: how are you doing?

[11.10.2012 09:42:50] She: have you seen my mail?

[11.10.2012 09:43:30] Me: Oh, I'm fine now, just read your mail and needed to talk to you on chat as I saw you were online ...

[11.10.2012 09:44:14] Me: Yes, I love you and I love your email, means always so much to me and beams me right to you, my heart is so warm with feelings for you ...

[11.10.2012 09:45:22] She: i am happy you are here with me and that makes me feel good, and i am sure you are at your work place now or at home?

[11.10.2012 09:46:11] Me: No, today is an exception and I'm at home now, just needed a break from work, so I have a free day ... for you ...

[11.10.2012 09:47:25] She: that is soo sweet of you my dear, and i am happy to know that you try hard to took a day off to relax

[11.10.2012 09:48:01] She: well, i am soo happy you called me this morning to hear my voice, and also i must apologise for wasting your time for going to the post office and couldn't send it, okay (In my good morning mail I've told her that the shipment of the laptop would be to costly (around 250€ (300$))

[11.10.2012 09:49:30] Me: Oh my dear, I also loved to hear your sweet voice, always makes me feel that I will care for you with all my heart and soul, you are so tenderly in your voice ...

[11.10.2012 09:51:10] Me: And everything has its good side, I've learned something about shipment conditions, and I used the chance to send you the necklace with the cross in an envelope as international air mail, so it will be delivered within 8-11 days they told me, so it should arrive on Friday/Saturday next week I hope ...

[11.10.2012 09:51:49] She: ohh, you sent the necklace, right?

[11.10.2012 09:51:52] She: by DHL or?

[11.10.2012 09:52:32] Me: Yes, a single sending in a padded envelope ...

[11.10.2012 09:53:31] Me: Yes, DHL international air mail ...

[11.10.2012 09:55:15] She: okay honey .. so that means you got a tracking number from DHL for me or no tracking number?

[11.10.2012 09:57:48] Me: Oh, I've got a tracking number for you: ‘0123456789’ ..

[11.10.2012 10:00:02] Me: I can't track it online right now, as it could last up to one day till the sending is available in the system … As soon as I get the tracking working online, I will send you the link to the tracking page ...

[11.10.2012 10:01:35] She: okay my dear .. thank you soo much, and i can't believe you are doing all this for me

[11.10.2012 10:01:41] She: this is a big surprise in my life

[11.10.2012 10:02:40] Me: Oh honey, you are so welcome and I love to make you this gift, especially as it is a cross ...

[11.10.2012 10:04:52] She: thank you honey ... i love it and i do appreciate it very much, and i know when i get it here, i am going to love it ...

[11.10.2012 10:05:49] Me: You are making me very happy by saying this, I send you a kiss my love ...

[11.10.2012 10:07:08] She: that is soo sweet of you honey, and i want you to know, and also i want you to never forget that your happiness is what i'm looking for always, okay

[11.10.2012 10:07:27] She: tell me, what are we going to to do with the laptop, since you know very well that we need it for our chat?

[11.10.2012 10:15:40] Me: Oh, this would be the next thing to do for me today ... As I told you, DHL express would cost around 250€ (300$) delivery fee, and in addition you as the recipient would have to pay the customs fees in Ghana, the DHL express guy I've talked to told me that it could be for that laptop at around 80$, so that's 380$ in all, an so no option for me ... The second option is DHL standard, means 10-14 days till delivery, and would cost around 42€ (50$) what is okay, but again customs fees for you as recipient with 80$, but that is an estimation, maybe less, maybe more, so in all 130$, this could be an option but lasts quite 2 weeks ... So the 2 alternatives could be to check this Amazon order and possibilities to let it be delivered directly to your address in Ghana, or last option, you could check out for a laptop in Ghana at a 'serious' computer/multimedia shop (I guess your guest family will know best), and after telling me the price I would send you the money by Money transfer company, but this option could also be expensive, because I don't know the market prices for laptops in Ghana, maybe a 'dead end street option' ... so what do you think about all the said ...?

[11.10.2012 10:22:09] She: i get all you mean my dear, and i want you to know that i am sorry for putting you through all this, okay .. am sorry my dear, but what you doing for me is something i will do more to pay you back to make you happy, and like i promised you, i will never disappoint you no matter what .. well i do not know about this Amazon order to Ghana, so since you can do that online and know if it is possible, i think we have to try that and also with Money transfer company i have not tried any transfer before, but my girlfriend has tried that before to her family here, so i know much about it, but for myself personally i haven't tried that .. and again by asking for a laptop shop here .. i want you to know that i have already asked, and i must tell you that the prices are ranging from 700 Ghana cedis to 1500 Ghana cedis .. do not be afraid, cos these prices i wrote to you are in Ghanaian currency, and i will convert with Euros and tell you, okay?

[11.10.2012 10:26:16] Me: Oh, that sounds good, the 'Ghana laptop option', I mean you see what you get, and so you choose the right one for you and will be happy with it, that counts … and the price we have to check in Euros, I'm a generous person but no 'spendthrift', so we'll see after getting the price in Euro ... I am searching now online for the exchange rate ...

[11.10.2012 10:29:29] Me: Oh, I get it, 10 Ghana cedis are around 4 Euros, so 700 Ghana cedis will be 290 Euros, 1500 Ghana cedis will be 700 Euros ...

[11.10.2012 10:29:30] She: go to www.'a site for exchange rates'.com

[11.10.2012 10:29:57] She: go the site i gave you now

[11.10.2012 10:30:02] She: you will see more, okay?

[11.10.2012 10:30:11] Me: Okay, wait please ...

[11.10.2012 10:36:03] Me: Okay, thanks for that site, works very well, 700 Ghana cedis are 287 Euros, 1500 Ghana cedis will be 616 Euros, 1000 Ghana cedis are 410 Euros, so I would like to make that 1000 Ghana cedis as 'hard limit' if this is okay for you, so did you already have a favourite one?

[11.10.2012 10:41:21] She: honey, i must confess to you that .. when you convert money like what you did just now with the site .. when the money is received, the person will not get the exact amount cos of every bank and its rate, so what i would advice is that .. for us to get the 1000 Ghana cedis, it will be best if you send 500 Euros, so when i receive it here, i will get the exact amount, okay .. do you get what i mean??

[11.10.2012 10:48:05] She: are you there?

[11.10.2012 10:48:19] Me: Yes, I did, but I would prefer Money transfer company, because I have already an account for that and know how it works ... and then I will see what amount we will get out of 410 EUR, so I will increase it till we reach the 1000 Ghana cedis ..

[11.10.2012 10:48:46] She: very good my darling

[11.10.2012 10:54:51] Me: So I will need from you the name and address (I guess it is the same as you already told me, just to get sure) of your Ghanaian girlfriend, I need this name to enter in my Money transfer company transaction order, because after I've made the money transaction with Money transfer company, I will send you a transaction number, and with that transaction number and her passport she (and you) will have to go to the next Money transfer company shop there to get the money ...

[11.10.2012 10:55:48] She: my darling, it is the same name

[11.10.2012 10:56:06] She: use my name i gave you and my address .. or will that be a problem?

[11.10.2012 10:57:25] Me: Are you ROSINA African surname? Does this mean you are an African native? And does this name stand in your passport? (Sorry, I'm confused) ...

[11.10.2012 10:59:38] She: I am ROSINA Canadian surname, and the name i gave you is my Ghanaian girlfriend’s name .. she is ROSINA African surname, cos i have no Ghanaian identity, that is why

[11.10.2012 11:00:10] She: sorry for not explaining to you, cos i thought it was not needed .. sorry my dear

[11.10.2012 11:03:34] Me: So ROSINA African surname is your Ghanaian girlfriend, so the prename Rosina is accidental, okay, I get it ... So if I enter in the transaction ROSINA African surname and the known address, you both together will go to the Money transfer company shop, she will show her passport to prove identity, and she will get the money and give it immediately to you, right?

[11.10.2012 11:04:11] She: yes honey...

[11.10.2012 11:05:15] She: and i will go directly to buy the laptop, and then take a picture of it, and send it to you right away for you to know that i have bought it, and we will use it as soon as i get it, so we will not have any problems in our chat again

[11.10.2012 11:14:13] Me: Okay, I trust you fully as I told you, and there would be no doubts at all, but there is one thing you should know: 2 months ago as I told you, I've supported that girl for 6 weeks to get her life in balance, and she asked me to send her money for a flight back ticket as she was on holidays at her family in Philippines, and I've sent her 400$ with Money transfer company, and I was kind of suspicious if she really needs this for her flight back ticket and told her about that, and that I guessed she would cancel the contact after receiving that money ... And after she got back to US (Washington State) she wrote me once, and then didn't reply anymore, so I guess she just 'won' 400$ from an good hearted, naive guy. I'm not rich, I'm not poor, but I also need to save money for car repairs and bitter needed holidays, so the money I will send to you is okay but at the limit with me (I'm working in operative IT support, which doesn't mean that I get a big salary. If this would be so, I would have no problems with sending money and getting 'misused'). Again, I do trust you and will send the money, because I know that you really like to have your own laptop and be able to chat with me, but please understand my 'history' in that ...

[11.10.2012 11:18:43] She: my dear, i get what you mean and i want you to know that i do understand you very well, and i will never disappoint you in my whole life, cos i care about you and i have deeper feelings for you, and i will never live my life without you, so i want you to know that i do understand your history, and i am not here to make it worst, okay?

[11.10.2012 11:18:48] She: i want you to have faith in me, okay?

[11.10.2012 11:22:07] Me: Okay, as I told you I do have faith in you, I just wanna let you know my 'sore point' ... So I'm gonna prepare this money transaction with Money transfer company now, it will last 2-3 days as I have to reload my credit card first, because my Money transfer company account works only with credit cards, and then I will send you the transaction number, okay?

[11.10.2012 11:24:14] She: okay dear

[11.10.2012 11:26:13] Me: Please hug me ... I'm sad now, because I had to tell you my story and don't do the transfer without telling you that, but I guess this is a good chance to prove our trust in each other and will strengthen our relationship ... I love you my dear ...

[11.10.2012 11:27:49] She: (hug)

[11.10.2012 11:29:25] Me: I just wanna be with you and not be tested by God again just after one week in heaven with you ... He is always very strictly with me in testing me for my own best ...

[11.10.2012 11:30:41] She: my dear, i want you to know that .. you will always have me for yourself, and what you just told me is something i understand okay .. you mean a lot to me like i always say to you, and i want to be with you as long as you also want to be with me, okay .. i feel happy with you, and i am happy you did not hide this in you, but you felt bold to tell me and that makes me feel how deep your feelings and trust are for me ... so do not feel sad, okay .. i am happy you took the opportunity to tell me this, and i also want you to know that .. what the girl did to you is something she didn't want the best for you, cos if she did want the best for you, she will not have disappointed you this much, so i want you to be okay and know that i am okay with your honesty, okay?

[11.10.2012 11:30:51] *** Call from She ***

[11.10.2012 11:31:11] She: hello

[11.10.2012 11:32:43] She: please calm down, okay .. i am here to stay and be with you forever, and i am not moving away from you, and trust me nothing will take me away from you no matter what, okay ... you are my world now my dear ....

[11.10.2012 11:33:18] Me: Okay, thank you for your understanding with me, it's getting better now, the wounds will be healed soon ...

[11.10.2012 11:35:00] Me: So sorry for this laptop stuff, we will proceed as told, and now we have time for us again ...

[11.10.2012 11:37:15] She: come on .. i am okay and i should rather be saying sorry to you .... excuse me for my yawning too much ... last night i watched this adventure movie, so i couldn't have enough sleep and that is why, but since am here with you i am okay, and i will get over it (She yawns on cam)

[11.10.2012 11:38:24] Me: You are so sweet yawning and having spent the night with an adventure movie, I would like to have watched it together with you there ...

[11.10.2012 11:38:59] She: that would have been nice my dear...

[11.10.2012 11:40:16] Me: Would you have a rest now and we can chat together this evening again so at 8 p.m. as usual, or shall we go on chatting now ...

[11.10.2012 11:40:52] She: Well, since you are home for me i have to be with you, okay

[11.10.2012 11:41:27] Me: Oh, okay, you are right, we shouldn't waste our precious time given today ...

[11.10.2012 11:42:29] Me: It feels more than good to be able to see you there my honey ... you are doing me very well ...

[11.10.2012 11:42:29] She: yes honey..

[11.10.2012 11:43:47] She: i am also happy as well my dear to be with you again, cos with you every time is my happiness

[11.10.2012 11:44:35] Me: For me too ...

[11.10.2012 11:44:58] *** Call ended, duration 14:08 ***

[11.10.2012 11:45:50] *** Call to She, no answer. ***

[11.10.2012 11:46:12] Me: Are you there honey?

[11.10.2012 11:48:53] *** Call from She ***

[11.10.2012 11:49:31] She: yes, am back .. my computer is fooling again

[11.10.2012 11:49:44] She: freezing and freezing

[11.10.2012 11:49:52] She: and i don't know if you have noticed that

[11.10.2012 11:49:58] She: i hate it

[11.10.2012 11:52:01] Me: Oh I see, yes, I can feel this, and I know you hate it because it disturbs our being together, and I'm also 'shocked' every time, because of feeling insecure ... so one more proof to me that we should get this laptop thing fixed, and I will hurry up in that with all my efforts ... And I'm soo lucky to be able to chat with you here today and to see you ...

[11.10.2012 11:53:05] She: i am sure you will call me again on the phone, or?

[11.10.2012 11:53:21] Me: Yes, is this okay for you now?

[11.10.2012 11:53:53] She: let’s make it later since we are here writing

[11.10.2012 11:54:04] She: am just sad with my computer and my cam

[11.10.2012 11:54:10] She: let me restart it, okay?

[11.10.2012 11:54:31] Me: Okay, I'm waiting, don't be sad .. please ...

[11.10.2012 11:54:40] *** Call ended, duration 05:47 ***

20 minutes later

[11.10.2012 12:16:01] Me: Oh my heart, I'm so sorry for that computer issues, it cannot change the way I feel ... If I will get the Money transfer company thing fixed early (I've got an idea, we'll see), then you'll can get the money tomorrow (Friday) and buy your laptop, and then no worries anymore about that, okay? I hug you and love you ... everything will be fine ...

[11.10.2012 12:21:45] Me: Oh, I'm smiling again ... It's always such a joy again ...

[11.10.2012 12:22:38] She: yes honey, same here for me, and i get crazy about this computer .. but with you here with me is happiness

[11.10.2012 12:23:02] Me: Oh, I feel you so much right now ...

[11.10.2012 12:23:07] She: well, i just read your message and you said you have an idea .. what idea is that?

[11.10.2012 12:25:09] Me: I have another credit card i forget today, because it’s my 'back up' credit card for 'emergency cases'. So I just need to reset the password for online transactions, and then I will be able to make the transaction today, maybe within the next hour, and send you the transaction number, and then you are free to get the money and get the laptop ...

[11.10.2012 12:26:44] She: then that means i can get the money today, if only you could make it money in minute transfer, so i can get the laptop today and we will use it in the evening for our chat?

[11.10.2012 12:27:22] Me: Yes, this is my wish and I will do it now ...

[11.10.2012 12:27:35] She: i was checking Money transfer company and i saw they have transfers like .. money in minute and also 2 or 3 days

[11.10.2012 12:27:47] She: okay, am waiting for you my dear, and that will make me soo much happy, trust me

[11.10.2012 12:28:34] Me: I will make money in minute, I did this before, I will start right now, just give me 20, max 30 min, then I will send you the transaction number by mail, okay?

[11.10.2012 12:29:25] She: okay my dear

[11.10.2012 12:29:46] Me: Okay, till then, I'll keep staying online here as usual ...

[11.10.2012 12:30:08] She: okay love

[11.10.2012 12:30:20] She: am waiting here as well so take your time, okay?

[11.10.2012 12:31:05] Me: Okay, thanks, I'll get back on you as soon as finished ...

[11.10.2012 12:31:16] She: okay love

[11.10.2012 12:41:56] Me: Sorry: Last name: African surname, First name: ROSINA, is this right?

[11.10.2012 12:43:47] She: First name: ROSINA

Last name: African surname

[11.10.2012 12:44:21] Me: Okay, thanks ...

[11.10.2012 12:44:40] She: you're welcome

30 minutes later

[11.10.2012 13:13:36] Me: Hi darling, I did it!

[11.10.2012 13:15:09] Me: So I'm sending you the transaction number to your email address now, a test question with the right answer (required in Ghana) and my address, all this is required to get the money. It's available from now on and ready to be taken by your girlfriend and then by you, okay? After sending you the mail I will return to chat ...

[11.10.2012 13:25:40] She: ok love

[11.10.2012 13:25:42] Me: So honey, I've sent you the mail with the transaction data, hope you will be able to take the money today (it's available from now on) and also get your laptop. Much luck!!! I will be online this evening at around 9 p.m., till then, kisses, Stefan

[11.10.2012 13:26:26] Me: Did you receive the mail, any questions with the mail?

[11.10.2012 13:26:48] She: yes, i have received the mail now, so let me open it and see the mail, okay?

[11.10.2012 13:26:56] Me: Okay

[11.10.2012 13:29:09] She: thank you soo much my darling, i have the details now, and i am really glad that you did this for me, and am still in shock and do not know what to say now

[11.10.2012 13:29:23] She: am surprised, cos no man in my life has made this risk for me

[11.10.2012 13:30:26] Me: I love you and would risk my life for you if necessary, but for our both sake I hope this promise will not be tested by God ... (But He will as you may see later on)

[11.10.2012 13:30:54] She: i know our living God will never test you on a thing like this again

[11.10.2012 13:32:18] She: he knows how bad we both have been hurt in our lives, and he has made this time for us to be happy, so let’s be happy and have faith in this friendship or relationship we have, okay?

[11.10.2012 13:32:32] She: i have deep feelings for you, and i want to be with you forever like i always tell you

[11.10.2012 13:32:50] She: there is one thing more i need to ask you, and it's really dear to my heart if you do not mind??

[11.10.2012 13:32:59] Me: Yes, please ...

[11.10.2012 13:33:36] She: will you mind if i set a privacy for you, so that no one else will be able to contact you on your skype, unless you yourself want to add someone yourself?

[11.10.2012 13:34:46] Me: Yes, how will this be done?

[11.10.2012 13:35:15] She: if you can trust me with your skype password, so i set it to you now?

[11.10.2012 13:36:44] Me: Are you a skype admin, or do you just need my password? I mean are you not able to tell me how I will have to do it?

[11.10.2012 13:38:40] She: i am not a skype admin. But if i have your skype password i will be able to do it .. but i can also tell you how it is done .. just go to skype files and go to privacy

[11.10.2012 13:38:48] She: and you will see for yourself how it is done

[11.10.2012 13:39:11] She: if not, also .. give me your password so i help you with it

[11.10.2012 13:40:29] Me: Just for you to know: I will have to leave home in 15 min, so our time for now is restricted but i will proceed now, I'm on privacy settings, and then?

[11.10.2012 13:42:03] She: go to show advanced settings

[11.10.2012 13:43:27] She: you will see 'allow chat from', and you click 'only people in my contact', and also you will see ... 'automatically receive video from', and then you click 'only people in my contact'

[11.10.2012 13:43:35] She: that's all

[11.10.2012 13:44:12] Me: I did so: 'Allow calls from: only people in contacts’, that's only you ... and all the other options also are set to 'people in my contacts list only' ... this is saved now on my skype ...

[11.10.2012 13:44:37] She: good

[11.10.2012 13:44:41] She: thank you dear

[11.10.2012 13:44:49] She: i kiss you

[11.10.2012 13:45:06] Me: You are welcome, you are my one and only here on skype now ...

[11.10.2012 13:45:21] Me: I also kiss you my dear ...

[11.10.2012 13:46:20] She: so where are you going as you said you want to go out in 15 minutes

[11.10.2012 13:47:27] Me: My normal 'routine' with my soul mate, travel in the city for a coffee and relaxing, then back home and having dinner, and then I guess at 8:30/9 p.m. I would like to chat with you again, is that okay?

[11.10.2012 13:48:00] She: yes, it is

[11.10.2012 13:48:42] She: so we say bye for now, since i must leave to the bank with my friend to get the money, and to town to buy the laptop

[11.10.2012 13:48:58] Me: Okay honey, much luck/fun, till then ... bye for now ...

[11.10.2012 13:49:24] She: bye love and take care, ok?

[11.10.2012 13:49:35] Me: ok :*

6 hours later in the evening that day

[11.10.2012 19:36:38] Me: My dear, I'm here now ... waiting with music ... take your time ...

hug ...

15 minutes later

[11.10.2012 19:50:02] She: hello honey .. am very happy .. and i am back home, and want to have some cold bath and get to you, so we can chat more this evening. Am very grateful and happy to have a new laptop .... i will be with you soon .. with much love

[11.10.2012 19:50:48] Me: Much love ... till soon ...

1 hour later

[11.10.2012 21:06:31] She: hello honey .. i am here now, and how are you doing?

[11.10.2012 21:07:12] Me: Oh, I'm quite fine, relaxing to music ...

[11.10.2012 21:08:06] She: i am happy to hear that my dear .. i miss you so much and happy to have a new laptop now, and also happy that it is you who got me this .. I must say i thank you soo much my dear

[11.10.2012 21:09:00] Me: You're welcome and I'm happy that you enjoy it ... I hope it will serve you well for a long time ...

[11.10.2012 21:09:52] She: Yes honey, it will surely serve me well, and do not forget that when i am coming to meet you someday, i will surely bring it with me, okay ...

[11.10.2012 21:11:05] Me: Okay, I'm looking forward to that wonderful moment in the future when we will meet first time ...

[11.10.2012 21:12:09] She: same here my dear .. if it is not cos of your soul mate, i guess it will not be a problem for me at all to come to you, cos i will be happy to come to you and meet you in person to get to know you very well darling

[11.10.2012 21:12:22] *** Call from She ***

[11.10.2012 21:12:57] She: hello

[11.10.2012 21:14:17] Me: Okay, we'll arrange this when we feel the time is right for that ...

[11.10.2012 21:15:23] She: okay honey ... that will be very wonderful ... tell me, how did you spend your day?

[11.10.2012 21:16:03] Me: Okay, but first I must tell you .. You are again looking really beautiful tonight ...

[11.10.2012 21:17:31] She: thank you for your compliment, and i must also say to you that you are also looking good, and i am happy to be with you like you know, always .. you mean a lot me, and i want you to know that i will never disappoint you like what the other girl did to you, okay?

[11.10.2012 21:20:12] Me: Okay ... So my day was mixed as usual, but very okay ... Stood up, made the try at the post office, it was really interesting to talk with the DHL guys, they were really nice and helpful to me ... then our phone call, always love to hear your very sweet voice, fills me and 'charges' me well, and then back home and chatting with you on my free day, I really enjoyed that, I guess we both had an exciting day so far ...

[11.10.2012 21:21:13] She: well, i am happy you had a good day, but i am asking about your day with your soul mate

[11.10.2012 21:21:19 | Edited 21:21:59] She: was everything okay?

[11.10.2012 21:23:36] Me: The afternoon with my soul mate was as usual, it's a 'daily ritual' as I would call it ... We drive to town, drink a coffee and talk, maybe some shopping if the mood is right or something is needed, and then drive back home and have some dinner while watching TV ...

[11.10.2012 21:24:34] She: so that means

[11.10.2012 21:24:38] She: the mood was okay

[11.10.2012 21:24:42] She: so you both

[11.10.2012 21:24:48] She: had a good time

[11.10.2012 21:24:49] She: right?

[11.10.2012 21:24:59] Me: Right ...

[11.10.2012 21:25:12] She: that's okay

[11.10.2012 21:25:50] She: i want you to keep trying for her, no matter how her behaviour will be, okay?

[11.10.2012 21:27:18] She: you are the best and sweetest man i have ever known in this short while, and i am happy with you and what you doing for me and her, and i want you to keep it up no matter what

[11.10.2012 21:28:07] Me: Okay, I will do so ... I mean this is a good way ...

[11.10.2012 21:28:26] She: yes, it is really a good way, and i am happy to be part of it

[11.10.2012 21:29:07] She: today i want you to feel free and tell me all on your mind about us, okay?

[11.10.2012 21:32:05] Me: Okay, I feel that in the last two days we've came a little 'closer', I feel more familiar with you, especially after talking to you on phone for the first time, hearing your voice, and with this very important part of you my 'picture' of you has been much more completed ... and I like that I can call you 'honey' now and you too, it sounds unbelievable on phone, soo soft ...

[11.10.2012 21:38:43] She: you do not know how happy i am to read these words from you ... i do not know what to say, but all that i can is that i feel happy to be with you, and i will love to spend the rest of my life with you no matter what it takes, okay .. i feel good with you, and i do not know why i feel this much closer to you ...

[11.10.2012 21:41:06] Me: I also feel very happy with you and cannot believe that we even came closer, it's like a 'physical law', the bigger our feelings for each other grow, the more we feel attracted to each other ...

[11.10.2012 21:41:58] She: yes honey, and that is what natural feelings are

[11.10.2012 21:42:52] Me: Yes, nature is blessing us without pressure, just in its pure God given flow ...

[11.10.2012 21:43:28] She: i do not know what to say, but all that i can is that i am happy to be with you

[11.10.2012 21:44:14] Me: There's nothing to say in such moments, just feelings and a hug and maybe a kiss ...

[11.10.2012 21:45:11] She: tell me all what's on your mind?

[11.10.2012 21:46:05] Me: Ohh, I just would like to kiss you, but as we are online this only can happen in our fantasy ...

[11.10.2012 21:46:52] She: that is why it is very important to meet in reality, and i have no problem with that at all

[11.10.2012 21:47:14] She: cos to me each and every minute i feel closer to you, and i feel like we will meet very soon

[11.10.2012 21:47:31] She: and i have no problem with that

[11.10.2012 21:48:41] Me: This is what I also feel, and I must confess that it makes me 'being through the wind' while thinking of meeting you in real life ...

[11.10.2012 21:49:11] She: i just can't wait myself

[11.10.2012 21:49:12] She: trust me

[11.10.2012 21:49:20] She: i do not care if we only meet in few days

[11.10.2012 21:49:23] She: to me i feel

[11.10.2012 21:49:24] She: like

[11.10.2012 21:49:26] She: i have

[11.10.2012 21:49:29] She: known you

[11.10.2012 21:49:31] She: for years

[11.10.2012 21:49:33] She: trust me

[11.10.2012 21:49:39] She: i cannot lie to you

[11.10.2012 21:49:41] She: this is what

[11.10.2012 21:49:45] She: i feel for you

[11.10.2012 21:49:47] She: okay

[11.10.2012 21:51:42] Me: Okay darling, this feels soo good to me, and also some hours ago as I was thinking about us, I thought much more time must have been passed since we met ... 'Beaming' would be my all time favourite invention now ...

[11.10.2012 21:53:15] Me: When are you planning to come back to Canada ...?

[11.10.2012 21:54:35] She: i was planning next month, but since i came here, you have realised i need to help some kids here at the church i go to .. i believe this is the will of God for me to help them out

[11.10.2012 21:54:55] She: but if you want me to come and visit you, i will take some time and come to you

[11.10.2012 21:55:18] She: i do not know .. i feel God wants to use me to work by helping people

[11.10.2012 21:55:26] She: do you get what i mean?

[11.10.2012 21:56:50] Me: Yes, I guess, you follow the Will of God as you put Him first, and this is always the best solution, although sometimes we only get his intention while going this way, His plan for us reveals during the travel ...

[11.10.2012 21:57:50] She: yes honey, you have said it all, and i do not know .. anytime i go to church and i see these kids i feel pity for them

[11.10.2012 21:58:51] She: but do you have in mind when you want me to visit you?

[11.10.2012 22:00:04] Me: Oh, I guess 'as soon as possible', so what would be the best duration, I guess 2 or 3 days would be fine ...

[11.10.2012 22:00:21] She: yes, it will dear

[11.10.2012 22:02:53] Me: Hmmmh, I will think about it and tell you tomorrow in my mail, and then we can discuss that in detail, I guess we should spend our time together in a hotel in my hometown Smallcity, or the next town Bigcity, staying at my home is no alternative I would say ...

[11.10.2012 22:03:40] She: that is okay by me my dear ..

[11.10.2012 22:04:29] Me: I mean we could stay there together for some hours a day, having a coffee, going out in nature, going for a walk, maybe go sightseeing ...

[11.10.2012 22:04:52] She: awww .. that would be such a lovely time dear

[11.10.2012 22:05:15] She: today i want us to have a lot more time over the phone and chat, and get used to our voice

[11.10.2012 22:05:20] She: what do you think?

[11.10.2012 22:05:39] Me: Okay, shall i call you now?

[11.10.2012 22:06:12] She: wait

[11.10.2012 22:06:35] *** Call ended, duration 54:13 ***

(Phone call for some minutes)

[11.10.2012 22:15:43] She: am here dear

[11.10.2012 22:16:02] Me: Hi, I was interrupted, sorry for that, but our apartment isn't that big, so maybe my soul mate could hear me talking to you, and that would be a problem I guess. Although our feelings are very strong now, we have to take care of that for now, sorry ...

[11.10.2012 22:16:31] She: it's okay dear

[11.10.2012 22:17:54] Me: In the morning and during the day we can talk on phone for longer as I'm out of home, also at work or on free days and weekends ...

[11.10.2012 22:18:59] Me: So is it okay to go on with chatting for now my dear ... ?

[11.10.2012 22:22:05] She: that's okay my dear, and i am sorry to put you through this big problem, okay .. forgive me for that, and also i want you to know that i do understand that clear, and i know life is not always perfect, okay?

[11.10.2012 22:25:36] Me: okay my dear, thanks for your understanding ...

[11.10.2012 22:27:42] She: there is no need to thank me my dear .. i do not want you to feel being put under pressure or anything of that sort, okay?

[11.10.2012 22:28:07] She: I want you to be yourself and know that i want the best for you, and anything possible for your happiness is also my happiness

[11.10.2012 22:31:00] Me: Ohh, okay, I will try to keep being myself and find the best possible solutions ... So tomorrow morning at 8/9 a.m. (your time 7/8 a.m.) I would like to call you again and have the chance to talk to you for longer, would this and the time be okay for you?

[11.10.2012 22:32:05] She: okay dear

[11.10.2012 22:33:25] Me: Oh, I'm smiling and already looking forward to it, just one night full of sweet dreams (I hope) and then I will be able to call you, a great perspective ...

[11.10.2012 22:35:23] She: yes dear .. and i can't wait for this moment ...

[11.10.2012 22:36:23] Me: Oh, me too, and I'm again having soo strong feelings for you, it's just as if you were next to me ...

[11.10.2012 22:38:23] Me: Shall we allow a break for us to have a good sweet sleep, and therefore being well the next morning (no adventure movies tonight) ...?

[11.10.2012 22:40:06] She: honey, i am feeling the same and want to be by your side .. be so close to you that i can feel your body temperature ... lie on your shoulder ... cry on your shoulder and also look deep into your eyes, and say all that my heart beat speaks honey

[11.10.2012 22:41:13] She: i am not too tired but rest is very important for us. We need it for the next days honey. We can take a break if agreed by both

[11.10.2012 22:45:43] She: honey??

[11.10.2012 22:46:01] Me: Oh, soo sorry for interrupting you/us, I cannot see the 'pencil icon' while you are typing ... and yes, having you next to me, feeling your body next to mine, feeling your heartbeat on my chest, having your head on my shoulders would be paradise for me, I'm often thinking of this, especially when I'm lying in my bed ... I want to have you by my side so dearly, I wanna hear your breath next to me, I wanna hear what your heart speaks to me, I wanna drown in your eyes, I wanna feel the complete you ...

[11.10.2012 22:47:06] She: honey, always have in mind that i love you more

[11.10.2012 22:48:35] Me: I will so, I will so my darling, you make me sooo happy while telling me what you really feel for me, this draws me much closer to you as it is now ...

[11.10.2012 22:51:22] She: you have really changed my world ... and have touched my inner being ...

[11.10.2012 22:53:00] Me: I can feel this ... and there is nothing more to say for me ... I'm so full of joy being with you that close and intense ...

[11.10.2012 22:54:31] She: you make my heart beat ... and this has never happened to me before .. never smiled to myself this way before ... all cos you have made me feel real love for the very first time in my life

[11.10.2012 22:59:13] Me: I could cry for joy that you have that pure love for me as I have it for you ... my heart is beating heavily while reading your words ... nothing more to say ... love is infinity ... and in infinity we should be together my love ...

[11.10.2012 23:01:51] She: i am willing to be around you, be there for you at all times and make you happy, cos you deserve a true heart

[11.10.2012 23:04:20] She: you have my heart

[11.10.2012 23:06:27] Me: Oh my darling, I can feel you always around me, and I know and feel that you are there for me at all times as I will be there for you also, and with your heart I have the truest heart I've ever known, so God really blessed me with you and your love for me ... I kiss you ...

[11.10.2012 23:13:33] Me: Honey, everything okay with you ... ?

[11.10.2012 23:13:54] She: honey, you are all i have since we met, cos i had nothing in this world to claim as mine, but now i can boast of your heart and love. I have it all to myself, and you deserve more than you think and I am not willing to let go of you, cos i have found true love, true happiness and everlasting smile in my heart, mind and eyes

[11.10.2012 23:14:55] She: is it time for bed??

[11.10.2012 23:15:29] Me: Yes darling, it is ...

[11.10.2012 23:15:45] She: i kiss you good night and sweet dreams.

[11.10.2012 23:15:51] She: i love you ...........

[11.10.2012 23:16:12] Me: I love you my dearest ........

[11.10.2012 23:16:26] She: i trust you honey

[11.10.2012 23:16:42] She: and tomorrow i will scan to you the receipt for the laptop .. ok

[11.10.2012 23:17:56] Me: Okay, that isn't necessary as I also trust you, but it's okay, why not ...

[11.10.2012 23:18:58] Me: So have a good sleep there also honey, one last kiss ...

[11.10.2012 23:23:21] She: kisses to you too ..

[11.10.2012 23:23:34] She: sound sleep

[11.10.2012 23:24:02] Me: Hugs ...... bye for now honey ... (heart) ...

[11.10.2012 23:24:10] She: bye love

Next day in the morning

[Friday]

Her good morning mail to me at 9:32 a.m.

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“Hello Darling

I went to bed thinking soo much about you and was soo glad when i woke up this morning to have a phone conversation with you .. trust me, that really put a big smile on my face as well my darling ... Every time I think of you, I get closer to you again and again. I know that I only know you for less than two weeks of my life, but I feel like I would know you since the dawn of time ... I'm never tired of having you in my thoughts, reading your mails that you've written to me. All of these things keep me so happy and feeling so blessed that I have truly found the one person that I want to spend eternity with. You are the only person on earth that has ever been able to restore my happiness after a longer period of time and i kiss you for that ... Stefan, thinking of you makes my day great.

I could have a crappy day, but at night when I get to chat and think of you, you lift my gloomy spirits. You never make me feel like I can have a bad day, and that is so uplifting to me, like I said so many times, you're my Angel, sent from heaven above to be my one and only. Am having a great feeling that your touch will excite me one day when we are together .. I wonder if you're really in my life or did I just had a sweet dream.

Stefan, I choose to love you in silence, for in silence I find no rejection. I choose to love you in your loneliness, for in your loneliness no one owns you but me .... your name will always be kept in my dairy. Wherever I am in life, no matter what happens, it'll never change.
GOOD MORNING, God bless you and I wish you all the best of luck today and will wait for you online tonight, and also i must say again thank you soo much for the money for the laptop.

Always Love

Rosina”

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[12.10.2012 10:30:52] Me: Hello my angel ... I just read your lovely email, and I wanna thank you very much for that ... I am replying to your mail now and will send it to you later, just wanna give us the chance to chat here again, cause I'm having another free day (long weekend) ... needs not to last long, but will shorten the long time till we can chat this evening ... but if you have other plans for today it's okay, I just saw you coming online here while writing my mail to you ...

[12.10.2012 10:32:12] She: Good morning my dear ... i am happy to have you here with me, but you mean today you are also at home, and all this weekend you will be at home and not go to work unless Monday??

[12.10.2012 10:32:32] Me: Yes, you are right ...

[12.10.2012 10:33:39] She: ohh, that's very nice, so that means we can have more time for ourselves and chat more, and that really makes me happy, cos the rest of this week i will be just at home, so i am happy to have your company

[12.10.2012 10:34:04] Me: We are blessed ...

[12.10.2012 10:34:11] She: but i have a problem with that tracking number you gave me .. it seems i cannot even track it from Germany and also not in Ghana

[12.10.2012 10:34:18] She: have you tried yourself?

[12.10.2012 10:37:11] Me: Oh, I would do this after replying to your email, but I guess this has to do with the deliverer ... I asked for a DHL letter at the post office, but they suggested to send it with standard Air mail by ‘German Post' to save money for me, and I was okay with that … So that could be the reason why not traceable online with DHL ... I will check if there is a 'German Post' tracking site online and let you know today ...

[12.10.2012 10:39:10] She: thank you my darling, but can you do me a favour by taking a photo of the paper the post office gave you for me, if that will not disturb you?

[12.10.2012 10:40:11] Me: Sure, no problem at all, just give me 3 minutes to take a picture, save it on my computer and upload it here to you ...

[12.10.2012 10:40:26] She: thank you honey

[12.10.2012 10:44:05] *** Me sent IMG_0114.JPG ***

[12.10.2012 10:46:24] Me: Sorry, it's jpeg format (2.85 MB) and I forget to convert it to bmp, skype says 1 min left ...

[12.10.2012 10:46:40] She: okay honey

[12.10.2012 10:58:21] Me: Okay, I've found the site: ‘Link to tracking site of ‘German Post’ and checked the tracking ID, status: ‘ordered’, means it's on the way now. The next mile stone will be airport or similar, so I've talked to the delivery service, and they told me that the next change of delivery status will take place in around 6 days. So till that the status will keep the same ... I was told during the order yesterday, that it will last 8-11 days till the letter will arrive at your address ...

[12.10.2012 10:59:25] She: okay honey

[12.10.2012 10:59:31] She: thank you soo much

[12.10.2012 11:00:09] Me: You're welcome, I always like to do some favour for you or help you in any way I can ...

[12.10.2012 11:01:14] She: that is soo sweet of you honey .. i guess you had a good day for you, and also i am sure you are still preparing the mail reply?

[12.10.2012 11:02:35] Me: Yes honey, I'm still working on my mail reply to you, the first part has been finished just before I went to you online here ... shall I send this first part now to you or wait till after our chat?

[12.10.2012 11:03:45] She: well, i will leave you now, cos i have a prayer meeting today at the church and it will last only 1 hour, so i will leave you now to finish with everything, okay

[12.10.2012 11:04:26] She: cos today i will be leading the group, so please allow me to go and then get back to you in 1 hour, okay?

[12.10.2012 11:05:02] Me: Okay, I will finish my mail reply to you, and sure I will wait for you ... have a blessed meeting, bye for now ... till then ...

[12.10.2012 11:05:32] She: thank you for you loving understanding..

[12.10.2012 11:05:46] She: see you soon, and please take care of yourself for me, okay

[12.10.2012 11:06:09 | Edited 11:06:28] She: and i will pray for you and your business to go well as well, and also pray for your protection and more success, okay

[12.10.2012 11:06:57] Me: Okay, that is so generous from you .. I will take care of myself darling ... I love you ...

[12.10.2012 11:07:18] She: I love you too

[12.10.2012 11:07:23] She: bye for now honey

[12.10.2012 11:07:25] She: and meet you soon

[12.10.2012 11:07:29] She: (heart)

[12.10.2012 11:07:31] Me: Bye

[12.10.2012 11:07:34 | Edited 11:07:45] She: my heart is yours

[12.10.2012 11:07:53] She: (wave)

[12.10.2012 11:07:57] Me: Same to me (heart)

[12.10.2012 11:08:19] Me: (wave)

2 hours later

[12.10.2012 13:09:29] Me: Hello honey ... soon I will leave to town for my coffee and spare time, so have a nice day and till this evening ... bye

1 hour later

[12.10.2012 14:20:35] She: hello honey, i am back here with you

Four hours later in the evening

[12.10.2012 18:48:42] Me: Hello honey, I'm here now ...

Half an hour later

[12.10.2012 19:23:23] She: hello honey .. am here too and happy to have you here

[12.10.2012 19:24:01] Me: Ohh, heaven ... hello darling ...

[12.10.2012 19:25:03] Me: my smile goes around my face ...

[12.10.2012 19:25:26] She: yes honey...

[12.10.2012 19:27:16] Me: Oh I missed you these last hours, seems much too long as I was away, but now nothing else matters ...

[12.10.2012 19:29:01] She: i also missed you while i was leaving for the church and was also praying for you as i told you about, and when i got home also you were all in my mind, and i am happy to be with you here again my darling, and i am sure all is well with you and your family

[12.10.2012 19:29:08] She: ?

[12.10.2012 19:30:01] Me: Yes, all is well with me and my family ... so good to talk to you ...

[12.10.2012 19:30:53] She: i am happy to hear that .. i am also doing good and my girlfriend as well

[12.10.2012 19:31:01] She: have you got something to eat for me?

[12.10.2012 19:34:38] Me: Something to eat for you ...? I had dinner 1 hour ago, and I hope you will have enough to eat there too, or did you mean did I eat enough, so that I'm healthy and you don't need to have sorrows about my health ...?

[12.10.2012 19:35:55] She: well, i asked if you had taken your dinner but you have answered my question, and i am happy to hear that, cos for me also i have had my dinner

[12.10.2012 19:36:43] Me: Okay, so no break again for us ...

[12.10.2012 19:38:17] She: yes honey, there will be no break for us and i miss you soo much

[12.10.2012 19:38:43] She: some people will say we are crazy to feel in love with each other this short while, but i guess it is the Will of God to give us this sweet and adoring love

[12.10.2012 19:39:43] Me: Oh yes, this is what i mean and feel also, God has given us this sweet and adoring love, and we only belong to each other and God, so no reason ever to worry about us and our love ... it's only meant for us an no one else ...

[12.10.2012 19:40:46] She: it seems all this while i was not really feeling this love between us, but last night the feelings for you got more and more, but i have a little problem

[12.10.2012 19:41:22] She: don't you think i am an obstacle for you and your soul mate ...?

[12.10.2012 19:41:55] She: do you get me?

[12.10.2012 19:44:35] Me: Oh, I get you ... you are no obstacle at all, it's rather the opposite, only you can make me that happy, and I only have this deep longing romantic feelings and love for you, so if I become happy cause of you, then my soul mate also becomes more happy, as she sees and feels that I'm feeling well most of the time now, which wasn't the case 2 weeks ago before I met you … There were long times of depression like moods with me, and she didn't know how to build me up ... okay ...?

[12.10.2012 20:46:59] She: i get what you mean, and i am happy to get you over all this bad times my darling, and am also happy that all this depression is gone and now only happiness is in your heart, and like i promised you before, i will always try to build you up with happiness and also much more love and everything to put a smile on your face, i will do it my darling

[12.10.2012 20:48:15] She: i just hope that our words will not just been in vain, but someday we will find time to meet, cos to me i will be a happy woman to meet you

[12.10.2012 20:48:45] She: so let's be happy and have good times, okay .. I love you and i can not hide it my darling

[12.10.2012 20:48:53] She: (heart)

[12.10.2012 20:48:56] She: (F)

[12.10.2012 20:49:01] She: :*

[12.10.2012 20:50:16] Me: Oh my heart, you are so lovely and pure to me, you don't know how much and intense my life and mood has been changed because of you during the last 2 weeks ... I kiss you for that and thank you forever, okay ... and yes, let's be happy and enjoy our times together ... :* (heart)

[12.10.2012 20:50:56 | Edited 20:50:59] She: what do you want me to do to make you happy?

[12.10.2012 20:51:10] She: and also tell me what will make you go sad

[12.10.2012 20:51:17] She: and what will make you get mad at me

[12.10.2012 20:51:19] She: ?

[12.10.2012 20:53:04] Me: Okay ... first of all keep being yourself and keep being honest with me as you always do, this will make me always happy and is the most important thing of all ...

[12.10.2012 20:57:55] She: i am happy to hear that

[12.10.2012 20:58:02] *** Call to She ***

[12.10.2012 20:59:47] She: and i also want you to know that i expect the same thing from you .. to be yourself and always be honest with me, cos if you lie to me, then it's like you have placed a knife in my stomach ... tomorrow i will scan the receipt of the laptop i bought for you, okay

[12.10.2012 21:03:26] Me: So to make me happy just tell me if you need something, or if there is something you want to know, or if I should help you with something, or if you need to be hugged or soothed or anything else, I mean just keep it as it is with us, it is perfect this way, we do not have any problems with each other right now ... And what will make me sad is when you won't call me on skype or mail me for more than 1 day, without telling me before that there will a break or a 'free' time for you due to job, church or anything else … I just need to know that you are okay, because I'm easily getting sorrows about you if I hear nothing from you, because you mean so much to me ...

[12.10.2012 21:03:32] Me: bless you ... (She nags on cam)

[12.10.2012 21:07:32] *** Call to She, no answer. ***

[12.10.2012 21:08:15] Me: Okay ... back again honey ...

[12.10.2012 21:09:50] *** Call from She ***

[12.10.2012 21:10:13] She: sorry, i missed your call here

[12.10.2012 21:10:20] She: my girlfriend called me

[12.10.2012 21:10:23] She: and i had to go

[12.10.2012 21:10:24] She: sorry

[12.10.2012 21:12:06] Me: Last question about going mad with you ... I guess and hope this will never happen, because you are always honest with me and keep the contact as I do and inform me early if something is or seems to be wrong, that would be the only thing which would make me mad with you, not knowing what's going on if something isn't right ... So I will never be mad, okay, I love you ... and am glad to see you again, and it's okay that you went to your girlfriend ...

[12.10.2012 21:13:17] She: i will always tell you everything and also inform you about anything, okay

[12.10.2012 21:13:22] She: you know how much you mean to me

[12.10.2012 21:14:29] Me: Okay ... oh thank you honey, there's nothing more needed for us to keep it perfect as it is ..

[12.10.2012 21:15:02] She: have you got a new necklace pendant?

[12.10.2012 21:16:45] Me: You are so perceptive with these things, not the necklace pendant is here (delivery lasts up to 7 days from now on, so will be there maybe next Thursday) ... but the golden necklace, I will show to you now, it's a little too thin, but you can comment please, i need your advice in that ... (I show her my new golden necklace)

[12.10.2012 21:18:40] Me: I guess it's to 'short' for my neck ..

[12.10.2012 21:18:44] She: it's really nice but small, so i can't see it well, but it fits you well and i like it around your neck, trust me

[12.10.2012 21:18:59] She: why would you like a longer one?

[12.10.2012 21:20:03] Me: Oh, just was insecure, I guess when I will get the golden cross and hang it to the necklace it will be okay for me, and thanks for your comment, I always trust your advice ...

[12.10.2012 21:21:11] She: i love you

[12.10.2012 21:21:27] She: and if it is not nice on you i will tell you

[12.10.2012 21:21:38] She: you are my man and my lover, and it fits you very well, okay

[12.10.2012 21:21:42 | Edited 21:21:45] She: believe me

[12.10.2012 21:23:24] Me: Oh honey, I love you too and always my heart starts beating heavier while saying this to me ... Now I love my new chain, and I will always think of you while I'm carrying it, it's my first 'material' connection to you, so now it's holy for me, the chain is my lucky charm ...

[12.10.2012 21:24:48] Me: AND I love you smiling at me SOOOOO MUCH ....

[12.10.2012 21:25:11] She: yes honey, i know that, and it is the same way i will wear mine later when i get it honey

[12.10.2012 21:25:27] She: can you give me the site you bought the necklace from?

[12.10.2012 21:25:39] Me: Yes, just one minute please ...

[12.10.2012 21:25:48] She: ok

[12.10.2012 21:27:35] Me: It's a search result on Amazon Germany for necklaces and crosses: ‘Internet link to that site’ ... should be similar on Amazon US I guess, I will try it there also now ...

[12.10.2012 21:28:45] She: do they also sell second hand iPads there or slightly used iPads or tablets??

[12.10.2012 21:29:37] Me: I will see, but normally under iPads they display new ones with prices and used ones with prices, I will search and send you then, 2 min please ...

[12.10.2012 21:30:13] She: ok

[12.10.2012 21:31:18] Me: Look here, the 6th position, Apple iPad new nnn EUR, used nnn EUR: ‘Internet link to that site’ ...

[12.10.2012 21:32:51] Me: Could you load this site and see it there?

[12.10.2012 21:32:58] She: do you have iPad or tablet on your own?

[12.10.2012 21:33:55] Me: Oh now, only an iPhone4s, my laptop is enough for mobile big resolutions ...

[12.10.2012 21:35:29] Me: Apple is high end and expensive ... other companies are offering tablets in good quality for lesser prices ...

[12.10.2012 21:37:51] She: iPhone4 .. that's expensive back in Canada .. i use Nokia x2, and would you mind if i ask you get me an iPad and not brand new but a used one for myself, if that will not get you crazy, cos it has been my dream to have one for myself, but don't know when i will be able to get one myself??

[12.10.2012 21:41:06] Me: Hmmmh, how do you mean that? I can buy you one on Amazon and give it to you when we meet next time in reality and then: Will you give me the money I paid for it, or do you ask me to make it as a present?

[12.10.2012 21:42:12] She: well, to be honest with you, i don't know when i will pay you back

[12.10.2012 21:43:41] Me: Just to know for me: Do you have money on your own, or did the church pay your flight to Ghana, or your aunt? How can you pay for apartment, food etc. in your life now ...?

[12.10.2012 21:46:38] *** Call ended, duration 36:48 ***

[12.10.2012 21:47:11] Me: Honey?

[12.10.2012 21:50:13] She: let me tell you the main reason why we are here .. my late father used to work with my girlfriend's father back in the days, and that is why we both have the same first name Rosina, cos we are like a family and like as sisters ... her father and my father were buyers of diamonds and gold and sold to their international buyers back in the days, but due to some problems ... things got bad for both of them .. my father became sick and her father also get caught by police, cos of some murder case. Her father is not the person who committed the murder, but he appeared at the scene of the crime, so all fingers pointed at him.

[12.10.2012 21:50:55] She: And also he has a misunderstanding with that person who was murdered, so everybody believed he was the one who murdered the man.

[12.10.2012 21:51:02] She: Do you follow what i mean?

[12.10.2012 21:51:10] She: sorry, bad network

[12.10.2012 21:51:24] *** Call from She ***

[12.10.2012 21:51:40] Me: Yes, I follow ...

[12.10.2012 21:52:26] She: So my girlfriend's father is in prison now cos of the murder case.

[12.10.2012 21:53:52] She: So it was he who asked us to come here to Ghana, to get this gold from here to bring it to Canada, or find a buyer to sell it so we can use the money for his appealing, and also i will get what belongs to my father

[12.10.2012 21:53:54] She: do you get me?

[12.10.2012 21:54:10] She: i have never told you this, cos i didn't know you that well

[12.10.2012 21:54:49] She: for me coming here was paid by myself, cos i had to come as a tourist to get what belongs to us

[12.10.2012 21:55:32] She: i believe i am getting you confused, right?

[12.10.2012 21:57:34] Me: Okay, you are 'working' to get your heritage of your father and are there in Ghana on your own costs, but after solving the problems and selling the gold to other buyers or bring it to Canada and sell it there, you will have some money (maybe rich if your father had luck before that) ...?

[12.10.2012 21:58:25] She: i will, surely

[12.10.2012 21:58:50] She: but not too much

[12.10.2012 21:59:33] Me: So how long do you guess it will last till you get the problems solved there, and do you expect to be successful in any case?

[12.10.2012 22:00:43] She: well, for me i believe in my living God and am always positive .. so i know i will get well and be okay

[12.10.2012 22:01:21] She: cos we have met with the lawyer and we have been to the storage house where the gold is kept, and we have went to tested it and all is well

[12.10.2012 22:02:29 | Edited 22:02:53] She: just some documentation are needed, and that is what we are fighting for now, and as soon as we get it, we will be the rightful owners .. and then bring it to Canada or find buyers to sell it to them

[12.10.2012 22:03:32] Me: Okay, much success in that for you and your girlfriend/'sister' ...

[12.10.2012 22:04:22] She: thank you my dear, but i want you to know, that since i came here to meet you .. you have been the main backbone for my happiness

[12.10.2012 22:05:14] She: cos i was totally disappointed for been here ... though i have been to many tourist places, i was not feeling the happiness i get from you

[12.10.2012 22:05:18] She: and i am sure you understand that

[12.10.2012 22:05:29] She: i guess what i am saying to you is getting you bored and confused

[12.10.2012 22:05:39] She: so let me stop and we talk about something else

[12.10.2012 22:05:40] She: okay?

[12.10.2012 22:06:51] Me: No, not at all, this was important for me to get some background information about your situation there, and I thank you for that information ... and okay, let's change the subject for now ...

[12.10.2012 22:08:06] Me: Honey, I can't get enough from looking at you and you looking in my eyes, that feels soo good in my heart ...

[12.10.2012 22:09:18] Me: I appreciate and enjoy each second here with you .. just wanted you to know that ... no matter what we will discuss ... you mean so much to me ...

[12.10.2012 22:10:13] She: you also mean the same thing to me Stefan

[12.10.2012 22:11:33] Me: I want to be at your side now so bad, just be at your side and be with you and listen to your voice and laugh about something and spend the time with you ...

[12.10.2012 22:12:00] She: same here honey

[12.10.2012 22:12:04] She: and like you know

[12.10.2012 22:12:17] She: am always free to meet you

[12.10.2012 22:12:20] She: ok?

[12.10.2012 22:12:56] *** Call ended, duration 21:32 ***

[12.10.2012 22:14:42] *** Call from She ***

[12.10.2012 22:17:08] Me: Okay, I will write beside my morning mail tomorrow a second mail with some details and proposals for our first meeting here in Bigcity (next to Smallcity) like duration (2 days), when to take place (as soon as possible for us), type of hotel for you, some suggestions for a time frame with actions like sight seeing, going for a walk, zoo etc. ... I will add some pictures of the airport, the hotels I would suggest, and pictures about my suggestions for spare time activities, city plan of Bigcity with marks where the places are and the hotels etc., and also the facts like costs and who will pay for what etc.. So till tomorrow with that details ...

[12.10.2012 22:18:24] She: okay honey .. I am looking forward to that

[12.10.2012 22:18:50] Me: I can't wait to hold you in my arms from now on ...

[12.10.2012 22:20:40] She: same here

[12.10.2012 22:20:59] Me: Oh darling, I'm so happy with you and I can't get away eyes from you

[12.10.2012 22:22:02] She: same here honey, and i cannot wait, okay

[12.10.2012 22:22:12] She: i want you to know how much you mean to me, okay

[12.10.2012 22:22:54] Me: I don't know how I will stay the next days without you by my side ... Yes, I cannot wait either and I know and feel how much I mean for you and always thank you for that

[12.10.2012 22:24:31] Me: I wish to hold you tight to me now, till we get blessed with a peaceful sleep and a great next morning and day together ...

[12.10.2012 22:25:24] She: i do not know what to say, cos you have said it all

[12.10.2012 22:25:54] She: but all that i will say is ... that i am looking forward to this sweet day, okay

[12.10.2012 22:26:14] She: just to be right next to you and also for the mail and when to meet as well

[12.10.2012 22:27:54] Me: Okay, tomorrow we will plan it and discuss it then, and find the best solution for us ... With God's help we can hold each other very soon, I need you and holding you more than the air to breathe ...

[12.10.2012 22:28:26] She: okay honey

[12.10.2012 22:28:32] She: i am looking forward, okay

[12.10.2012 22:28:41] Me: Okay ...

[12.10.2012 22:29:09] She: (y)

[12.10.2012 22:30:22] Me: Yes, here we go, children of the Lord with faith in Him and no worries in our minds as He is blessing us always ...

[12.10.2012 22:31:13] She: he is watching us and he will make our dream come true soon, ok

[12.10.2012 22:31:40] Me: Ok, oh I'm soo in love with you ...

[12.10.2012 22:32:02] She: i love you too my darling

[12.10.2012 22:32:18] She: and i will always love you with all my heart

[12.10.2012 22:33:53] Me: and me too, as my heart is beating so strong for you, I don't believe that it could beat even stronger as it does this evening and now ...

[12.10.2012 22:35:36] Me: You are more than sweet, looking at you 'feeds' my heart, and my heart is growing very big now ...

[12.10.2012 22:35:36] She: i get what you mean and i feel the same way, and that is why i do not know to write well, cos my heart is beating more and more for you

[12.10.2012 22:37:06] Me: I even cannot tell it with words, but looking in your eyes feels like eternity and heaven at once ... I hug you ...

[12.10.2012 22:37:58] She: i understand you honey and i must say Glory be to God and you for making me happy

[12.10.2012 22:38:40] She: cos you have bought me a laptop for our smooth chat and a lot more happiness

[12.10.2012 22:39:41] Me: You are right my dear .. you are my little 'tiger' this evening (if you don't mind), you are move so smooth and silent with your arms and body

[12.10.2012 22:40:19] She: i never knew you were this loving my dear

[12.10.2012 22:40:21] She: ...

[12.10.2012 22:40:48] She: but you have make me believe that you can make me happy, and i am proud of that

[12.10.2012 22:44:44] Me: Thanks so much ... I'm glad to be able to make you happy, there's nothing more than I wish to be able to do that always and make you happy ...

[12.10.2012 22:45:06] She: you're welcome

[12.10.2012 22:45:53] Me: Honey, you look sweeter and sweeter from minute to minute, my heart is going to 'explode' ...

[12.10.2012 22:47:49] Me: And I didn't tell you that I also love your hands and fingers, some days ago I wished nothing more than to hold your sweet fingers in the palm of my hand ...

[12.10.2012 22:48:33] She: i wish the same thing my dear

[12.10.2012 22:48:44] She: do you have any idea when we will be meeting?

[12.10.2012 22:48:54] She: i want to know, so i will know how to plan my trip

[12.10.2012 22:48:59] She: i do not want to come to Germany

[12.10.2012 22:49:03] She: and go back to Ghana

[12.10.2012 22:49:06] She: again

[12.10.2012 22:49:14] She: i want to move from Germany to Canada

[12.10.2012 22:49:53] She: maybe i can get some buyers there to buy my gold, cos we will be sharing these things after getting the documents

[12.10.2012 22:52:24] Me: Get some buyers in Ghana, Germany or Canada (just to be clear about it)? So when do you guess you will be able and have time to fly back to Canada over Germany? I mean I/we will make the planning referring to your 'schedule' and best options ...

[12.10.2012 22:53:13] She: i will not make a mistake to get a buyer here

[12.10.2012 22:53:29] She: cos here they do not see gold to be that high

[12.10.2012 22:53:30] She: gold is common here

[12.10.2012 22:53:41] She: i will make my deal in Canada or Europe

[12.10.2012 22:53:50] She: i do not want to lose

[12.10.2012 22:54:02] She: here they will offer you a very low price

[12.10.2012 22:54:59] Me: The World market prices are on top at the moment, so perfect for you ... you will make the best deal for you, I believe in that ...

[12.10.2012 22:55:59] She: do you know much about gold Stefan?

[12.10.2012 22:57:35] Me: No, but I'm reading daily newspapers with business overviews, and since some months back the gold prices are increasing because everyone is investing in gold due to the European money crises and the stagnant global economy ...

[12.10.2012 22:59:45] Me: Okay, when do you plan to be able to fly back?

[12.10.2012 23:02:03] She: as soon as we are able to get the documents .. my girlfriend and i have to get it, and then after that we get the gold from the storage house and then share it first before leaving this country

[12.10.2012 23:02:43] *** Call ended, duration 48:01 ***

[12.10.2012 23:03:02] She: but now we haven't been able to raise the money for the documents, and that is what is keeping us here, if not we will have left here a long time ago

[12.10.2012 23:07:52] Me: Okay ... what timeframe do you expect to be real, to raise the money, getting the documents, getting the gold, sharing it and then fly to Europe ...?

[12.10.2012 23:09:45] She: i can not tell, cos with the money my aunty got for me yesterday and if i add that to my girlfriend's money, will not be enough for the documentation

[12.10.2012 23:09:48] She: so i do not know when my dear

[12.10.2012 23:10:23] She: if we are able to raise this money, then by Monday or Tuesday we will share this gold, and we will be in the next flight to our destination

[12.10.2012 23:14:41] Me: Okay, so we'll have to wait and pray ... and for our planning ... tomorrow I will just plan with you and suggest the hotel, places to go etc. with pictures and so on, and we can discuss that tomorrow in detail. And as soon as you get the money, then we can plan the date of your flight, your flight to Bigcity, the arrival time and the leaving date, leaving flight from Bigcity to Canada, direct flight or indirect flight etc. ...

[12.10.2012 23:18:48] She: that's okay by me my dear, but i have to make it clear to you that .. now my aunty is broke and if you going to wait for this moment to come, then i can not tell you when this dream can be reality, okay .. cos my aunty is the only family who supports me, so if you really want the best for us, and want me to be happy to get these things and have my life, then i guess i need to count on you for a help, and you have to book it down as a loan and not a present, cos yesterday i was talking with my girlfriend and all we discussed was your help, so since we are talking about this, i guess i have to tell you this right away

[12.10.2012 23:19:54] She: you will think, if you have not met me what will i have done ..well, the answer is .. God sent you to me, cos he knew i would be needing help and God said .. no matter what my children will go through, they will come out as successors

[12.10.2012 23:20:05] She: and you are here to rescue me

[12.10.2012 23:20:10] She: so that is the news

[12.10.2012 23:20:26] She: you will not be happy, but i have to tell you that we need your help

[12.10.2012 23:20:29] She: okay

[12.10.2012 23:20:40] *** Call to She ***

[12.10.2012 23:22:53] She: my girlfriend has little money ... yesterday also my aunty sent me some money and if added, it still can't reach the money we need for the documentation ... and my girlfriend and i are counting on you for a loan or any how you will take it

[12.10.2012 23:23:36] She: i can send you my passport

[12.10.2012 23:23:56] She: if that will serve your security to help us

[12.10.2012 23:25:42] Me: Yes, please, send me a copy of your passport (tomorrow mail), and tell me what amount do you expect from me, I've told you I'm not rich, just average income ... so the amount is ...

[12.10.2012 23:26:23] She: i know you are not rich my dear, but God sent you to help me to get to a better position, okay

[12.10.2012 23:26:35] She: or will you love to buy from me this gold?

[12.10.2012 23:27:16] Me: Just the amount, as we are now in business discussion, only facts are counting now ...

[12.10.2012 23:27:44] *** Call ended, duration 07:04 ***

[12.10.2012 23:28:21] *** Call from She ***

[12.10.2012 23:28:46] She: i understand honey

[12.10.2012 23:28:53] She: i see you are not happy

[12.10.2012 23:32:32] Me: Sure not, I'm surprised and have switched my mood to business mode, so I'm neither happy nor unhappy, but in concentration about the issue and how to solve it to the best of you and me, means win-win situation ... If I should lend you a money, if i can afford the required amount, we will make a contract before, and you have to sign it and send it back to me by fax. Before that I will check the contract with my lawyer, and then I will send you the money, you can get the documents, the gold etc.. And when we meet and/or you are back in Canada an have made the gold transferred into money, you can pay the loaned amount back to me, in the way the contract between us will describe it ... is that okay for you?

[12.10.2012 23:35:15] She: but this money we need for the documents will be 1,230 euros in converted

[12.10.2012 23:35:29] She: and you want us to sign a contract on 1,230 euros?

[12.10.2012 23:35:32] She: ohh honey

[12.10.2012 23:36:04] She: tell me we should contract on 1,230 euros?

[12.10.2012 23:39:24] Me: Honey, I really love you, but if I will not get back those 1,230 euros, then I have problems, and will not see neither you nor the money again. This is no mistrust, but with money 'friendship' ends it is said, and the people are right in that. Once the money is away from you, you have to fight to get it back, not the other one ... And please do not start (you didn't do till now for God's sake) to feel that my mistrust means I do not love you, I'm just careful and use my brain for now ... please let us discuss this in peace ...

[12.10.2012 23:40:35] She: i get what you mean, okay .. so i ask you again

[12.10.2012 23:40:49 | Edited 23:41:01] She: we will make contract on 1,230 euros?

[12.10.2012 23:41:16] She: wait

[12.10.2012 23:42:01 | Edited 23:46:44] She: before you answer that .. ask yourself, what will i gain or get, when i run away or move away from you cos of 1,230 euros ..?

[12.10.2012 23:42:13] She: then i will be a fool cos i love you

[12.10.2012 23:42:24] She: and to me this money will not separate us

[12.10.2012 23:42:45] She: or you should even think of it, that i will move away from you cos of this?

[12.10.2012 23:42:49] She: do you get what i mean?

[12.10.2012 23:43:12] *** Call ended, duration 14:51 ***

[12.10.2012 23:43:20] *** Call from She ***

[12.10.2012 23:48:35] Me: I get what you mean. My offer: I will think it over and tell you in my mail tomorrow till 11:00 a.m. Then we can chat till 2 p.m. and discuss it. I must get clear about that and what will be the best way. If I wouldn't get hurt before, that wouldn't be a big problem. And I'm not able to hurt you, so please let me sleep over it, and tomorrow with a clear mind I can tell you what we can make to solve this for our best, okay?

[12.10.2012 23:48:49] *** Call ended, duration 05:29 ***

[12.10.2012 23:49:35] *** Call from She ***

[12.10.2012 23:49:38] She: okay honey

[12.10.2012 23:49:47] She: i even want to go to bed and i was about to tell you

[12.10.2012 23:49:51] She: but please and please

[12.10.2012 23:49:58] She: if you do not feel comfortable with it

[12.10.2012 23:50:07] She: please do not worry your head at all

[12.10.2012 23:50:10] She: okay?

[12.10.2012 23:50:18 | Edited 23:50:25] She: i am not here to force you and anybody

[12.10.2012 23:50:38] She: i love you as you are, and like i told you before

[12.10.2012 23:50:49] She: i hate to be a pain in the neck

[12.10.2012 23:50:59] She: so if you are not comfortable with it

[12.10.2012 23:51:08] She: do not even bother thinking of it

[12.10.2012 23:51:25] She: God will see me through in everything, no matter how long it will take my darling Stefan

[12.10.2012 23:51:56] She: i wish you all the best of sweet dreams and good night as well, and please do not forget you have made me love you, and this love will always be in my heart, okay

[12.10.2012 23:52:05] She: kiss to you

[12.10.2012 23:53:56] Me: I love you and I miss you much more now .. I kiss you and sleep well my beloved one, this evening was wonderful (beside that other stuff), so I thank you for that, till tomorrow my love, I could cry, bye darling, in my dreams I will sleep tonight by your side, I kiss you again my love ...bye ... :* (heart)

[12.10.2012 23:54:27] She: (heart)

[12.10.2012 23:54:35] She: stop thinking, okay

[12.10.2012 23:54:53] She: i can see you are sad and not happy, and i want you to be calm and relax, okay

[12.10.2012 23:55:02] She: do not let this bother you that much, okay

[12.10.2012 23:55:25] Me: Okay honey, I will do so, I just love you and will find peace in my sleep ...

[12.10.2012 23:55:39] She: bye love

[12.10.2012 23:55:46] She: (wave)

[12.10.2012 23:55:49] Me: bye love

[12.10.2012 23:55:50] *** Call ended, duration 06:15 ***

[12.10.2012 23:56:02] She: my heart is yours

[12.10.2012 23:56:37] Me: I feel this and I'm crying now, oh how I love you my heart, God bless you ...

(You see, my mind was clear. And with sending passport, making a signed contract and letting it check by my lawyer the story would have ended here, because my lawyer would have told me that this is a fake story, or she wouldn't have signed the contract; anyway, the relationship probably would have ended. Maybe my heart had override my sceptic and rational mind, and from that crucial first point on, fate took its run (The first 'mistake'. All the other actions and decisions were 'following/resulting mistakes'. So this one error in the beginning caused a lot of other errors, 'nip it in the bud', well, I didn't ...))

Next day

[Saturday]

My first mail to her in the morning at 10:34 a.m.

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"Good morning my darling

Uhhh, my heart is still beating because one minute ago I could talk to you on phone, my heart was jumping while I was talking to you, and I'm smiling, your lovely voice is so sweet in my heart ... So I wanna thank you for that lovely and intimate chat with you yesterday evening, I will never forget that evening ...

Never looked so often in your eyes, my love for you again has become much stronger, you are always in my heart ... And when I talk to you, you feel so present in my heart, it's almost physically, so that feels soo good to me and gives me peace, to have the feeling to have you by my side, all the dark clouds of this morning have been disappeared because of talking to you, I love you so much my darling, my sweetheart ... I'm loving to wear that necklace more and more, because it reminds me always of you, and the golden necklace is as soft, tender and beautiful as you are ... And sorry for that stress with the money yesterday, I will send you a second mail within the next 30 min regarding this ...

I'm so full of joy now, I really was weak and dark this morning, but now I'm happy again,

see and feel how strong and mighty our love already has become, it works wonders ...

I hug you and I kiss you and I look in your endless lovely eyes ...

Have a beautiful and bright day full of wonders and blessings for you, as you deserve the best in your life ...

God bless you,

Always,

Stefan"

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My decision mail to her in the morning later at 12:34 p.m.

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"Hello my dear

Now I'm writing to you concerning your question to loan you some money, the 1,230 EUR you asked me for.

After sleeping over it, I can tell you that this is no problem for me to loan you that amount.

I understand your situation, and that you need that money to get the required documents to get your gold. And as your aunt helped you, I also will help you with that my darling ...

I also believe that God has foreseen this as he knows everything, and I feel honored to be able to help you with this ...

So on my credit card I have now (today) 900 EUR free for Money transfer company transfer, which means due to Money transfer company exchange rate 2,091 GHS (Ghanaian cedi).
Today I also will book 500 EUR to my credit card, which lasts 2-3 working days till available

on my credit card, so on Tuesday (16.10.2012), lately on Wednesday (17.10.2012) next week I will be able to send you the rest amount (I planned 400 EUR so 929 GHS).
So then lately on Wednesday you will have