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Praise for The Teacher

‘A terrific story, originally told. All hail the new queen of crime!’

Heat

‘A web of a plot that twists and turns and keeps the reader on the edge of their seat. This formidable debut is a page-turner, but don’t read it before bed if you’re easily spooked!’

Sun

‘A page-turner with a keep-you-guessing plot.’

Sunday Times Crime Club

‘Diamond neatly handles a string of interlocking strands.’

Daily Mail

What the reviewers said:

‘This is a story that immediately pulls you in and doesn’t let go until the last page … The story flowed so brilliantly and made me keep turning the pages; a thriller from beginning to end. Each scene was rich and vivid; highly recommended.’

‘It stands out a mile with its poisonous cover and the story within refused to let go of me.’

‘A truly page-turning, somewhat gruesome read. Well written, pacy and with great characters.’

‘The Teacher is a fast-paced grisly page-turner and an extraordinary debut from Katerina Diamond.’

Dedication

For my husband, without whom I would think about murder a lot less.

Table of Contents

Cover

Title Page

Copyright

Praise for The Teacher

Dedication

Chapter 1: The Pro

Chapter 2: The Survivor

Chapter 3: The Hunted

Chapter 4: The Traitor

Chapter 5: The Case

Chapter 6: Just a Boy

Chapter 7: The Fixer

Chapter 8: The Goddess

Chapter 9: The Lover

Chapter 10: The Scarred

Chapter 11: The Boat

Chapter 12: The Video

Chapter 13: A Boy Alone

Chapter 14: The Good Girl

Chapter 15: The Detox

Chapter 16: The Request

Chapter 17: The Intruder

Chapter 18: The Child

Chapter 19: A Boy and His Sister

Chapter 20: The Comedian

Chapter 21: The Forgotten

Chapter 22: The Connection

Chapter 23: The Question

Chapter 24: Inside

Chapter 25: The Third Wheel

Chapter 26: The Husband

Chapter 27: The Waiting

Chapter 28: The Lighthouse

Chapter 29: The Artist

Chapter 30: Best Laid Plans

Chapter 31: Sweet Air

Chapter 32: The Face

Chapter 33: The Girl

Chapter 34: The Player

Chapter 35: The Victim

Chapter 36: The Club

Chapter 37: The Blade

Chapter 38: The Host

Chapter 39: Loose Threads

Chapter 40: The Transfer

Chapter 41: The Admission

Chapter 42: Resolutions

Chapter 43: Locked and Loaded

Chapter 44: The Convict

Chapter 45: The Guest

Chapter 46: The Boyfriend

Chapter 47: The Deal

Chapter 48: The Hand

Chapter 49: The Hunter

Acknowledgements

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Chapter 1: The Pro
The present

Bridget could hear cars passing on the wet roadside below the windows of the listed Victorian building where she worked. The traffic around Exeter’s Quadrangle started to change at this time of night, from people making their way back from work, to people seeking something a little more interesting than what they had going on at home. She looked down from her window. The rain had abated for a few moments and the streets were empty, aside from the occasional vehicle. The only other sound she could hear was her flatmate, Estelle, in the room next door, ‘entertaining’ her client, headboard banging against the wall. She stared at the illuminated face of the clock tower a few hundred yards from her house and waited. Her visitor was late. He was never late.

There was a knock on the door and before Bridget had a chance to answer, Estelle burst in, half-naked and out of breath.

‘I need a solid.’

‘Sounded like you were getting one.’

‘Good one.’ She adjusted her bra and flicked her hair extensions back. ‘I mean I need a favour.’

‘What kind of favour?’ Bridget didn’t want to know; Estelle’s favours were always a little extreme.

‘I’ve got Hitchcock with me and he wants extra time. I need you to take the Baby.’

‘No way, Estelle, he’s your problem, not mine. Besides, I’m waiting for someone.’

‘Come on, please, Bridge! He doesn’t even do anything, he just needs a cuddle and he sleeps the whole time. I’ll be ten minutes – tops!’

Bridget looked at her watch.

‘Fine, but just this once, Estelle, you know I’m not into all that.’

‘I’ll owe you one, big time.’

‘You will.’

Estelle blew her a kiss and disappeared. Bridget couldn’t help but keep looking out of the window, waiting for Sam. He would usually let her know if he couldn’t come, and the silence was making her nervous. The city of Exeter was strangely quiet tonight. Generally, everyone went to bed early during the week, preparing for another hard day at work, but on a Friday it was usually busier than this. Tonight definitely had more of a Wednesday feel. She watched a car approaching. It was slowing as it got near. The rain made it hard to discern the make, so she held on to the hope that it might be Sam. But as the black four-by-four pulled on to the battered forecourt, her hope faded. Through the rain, she saw a man step out of the car and rush to the front door. The buzzer rang, Estelle’s buzzer; they had one each, so each girl could tend to her own clients. Two girls per floor over two floors, with a communal kitchen and lounge at ground level. The sound went off again. It was frowned upon to open the door to someone else’s bell, but Bridget went downstairs through the communal hallway and looked out of the spy hole in the shared front door. It was too dark to see the man, and his face was shielded from the rain by the collar of his trench coat. She took one last look through the spy hole and opened the door. The man kept his face covered and walked in, shaking off his umbrella.

‘Where’s Estelle?’ the Baby asked.

‘Come in, Estelle asked me to take care of you today,’ Bridget said nervously, stepping out in front of the man. The Baby must have come straight from the office – she hoped he had his own nappy on underneath that bespoke Savile Row suit because there were some lines she just would not cross, even in the line of duty. As she led him up the stairs and to her room, she got the feeling he didn’t much care who was looking after him, just as long as someone was. He was one of the less perverted of Estelle’s clients, and that was saying something.

Bridget slowly undressed him, hanging each item carefully on a mahogany clothes horse. She pushed him on to the bed and sat down next to him, pulling him close to her and wrapping her arms around him.

‘I’m hungry, I need milk.’ He nuzzled into her.

‘Oh, um … I don’t …’

‘Estelle usually keeps it in a bottle in the fridge. You need to warm it up though.’ He seemed annoyed at having to tell her these things.

‘OK, sorry, just wait there.’ She rushed out of the room, silently cursing Estelle. This was not the deal.

She found the milk in the fridge and put it in the microwave. She pushed the button and stared at the red digital clock counting down. When it got to zero, the clock went back to the actual time and looking at it, she realised with a pang that she ought to be with Sam right now. All week she looked forward to her Friday visits with Sam. They would drive out to the Double Locks pub and huddle together in the corner. She began to worry again; it wasn’t like him to be late, he was never late. That feeling was creeping under her skin, the feeling that if she didn’t hear from him soon she may never hear from him again.

She took the bottle and shook it to disperse the heat. As she walked back to the bedroom, the door to Estelle’s room opened and out walked the man they all referred to as Hitchcock. Bridget had never seen him up close before; he was fiercely private. She could only just see Hitchcock’s eyes, very dark, staring at her with a mixture of disdain and scrutiny. There was something familiar about him. She had always assumed that he was called Hitchcock because he looked like the famous director – no one used real names in this game – but he was tall and slim, his dark hair peeking out from under his fedora. He looked nothing like the original Hitchcock. He turned away quickly and Bridget ducked into her room to find the Baby curled up on the bed in a babygro, sucking his thumb. She rolled her eyes and walked towards him. She could hear Estelle and Hitchcock arguing at the front door before it slammed shut. A moment later, her bedroom door opened and Estelle walked in. Flustered, she took the bottle from Bridget and sat down next to the Baby, beginning to stroke his hair.

‘I can take over now; he had to go.’

‘What were you fighting about?’

‘He wasn’t happy about bumping into you, that’s all. I told him earlier I had the place to myself. I thought you would be out. Come on, Baby.’ She lifted the Baby’s head on to her lap and put the bottle in his mouth – he suckled away. Bridget supposed as kinks went, it was a pretty harmless one.

‘I’m going to take a shower, then,’ Bridget said, before quickly exiting the room.

Their hot water wasn’t working again so Bridget gathered her things and went to ask Dee, who lived upstairs, if she could use her shower.

‘Are you sure you don’t mind?’

‘No, it’s cool. I was just getting ready to go out. What do you think of this?’ Dee did a twirl in what was obviously a stolen dress: blue sequins with a low neckline. She was a notorious shoplifter; some of the gifts she had given Bridget in the past attested to that. Dee was in between flatmates – previous tenants always looked for another house share after spending a few weeks with Dee and her sticky fingers.

‘You know those earrings of mine you like, the vintage blue crystal ones? They would look really nice with that dress. They’re in our bathroom downstairs, if you want them.’ Bridget smiled at Dee. It was always better to offer her things before she took them anyway.

‘You’re a star. Maybe tonight I’ll meet my millionaire,’ Dee said, blowing Bridget a kiss as she made her way down the stairs to the floor below.

Bridget loved the feeling of hot water. Living in this house felt dirty, everything felt wrong. She wished she could be back home with her family, or even call her mother, but that wasn’t an option at the moment. She washed her hair for the first time in a week, feeling the filth and grime hidden underneath the layers of hairspray. Dirty hair held a style better. Estelle would make her hair pretty again with rollers and a curling iron. Bridget was never any good with that stuff. Luckily she was naturally quite appealing, in fact she looked better without make-up on, but the men here weren’t interested in natural beauty. They wanted the hot plastic on their arm, with the push-up bras and the fake tans; they wanted the glamour-model look, not the girl next door. Mostly Bridget just provided dates, unlike Estelle, who was all about the extra-curriculars – that’s where the real money got made, that’s where you got to meet the important men. Bridget hadn’t proved she could be trusted yet.

She turned off the water and ran her fingers through her hair, it squeaked between her hands as she worked through the tangles. It felt so good to get all that shit off her. She threw a towel around herself and headed into Dee’s lounge, where she spotted several things of her own that had gone missing in the last few days. She didn’t begrudge Dee; she knew it was something she had no control over, and none of those stolen things meant anything to her anyway. Nothing in this life meant anything to her, except Sam.

She walked down the stairs back to her flat, wearing just her towel. The door was ajar. Something was off. She pressed her back against the wall and peered through the gap. She could see Dee’s foot, her blue patent shoe hanging off at the heel. Bridget crouched down and peered in further, she could hear a noise coming from inside. Don’t panic, she thought to herself. You know what to do. Still, her stomach twisted as she saw what was inside the room.

Dee was laid out on the ground, eyes wide open, her face frozen in an expression of surprise. Bridget could see her body moving as she struggled for breath. Blood pooled beneath her, and her legs were wet with red. Bridget could see a five-inch slash mark high up on the inside of her thigh. Her femoral artery had been cut; she would be dead within minutes. One thought entered Bridget’s head.

Shit. They know who I am.

Bridget started to move forward into the flat, knowing she had to get her phone. It was barely six feet away. Dee’s eyes moved towards her, flashing her a foreboding look, a warning. She saw a tear falling from the side of Dee’s head on to the floor as her eyes filled with an emptiness Bridget was all too familiar with. This wasn’t the first dead body she had seen, but it was the first time she had actually witnessed someone die. She couldn’t think about that right now. Remember. What do you do now? Whoever had done this was still in the flat. She couldn’t risk it. You need to warn Sam. Bridget needed to get to a phone. Sam would know what to do.

Chapter 2: The Survivor
The present

First of all, Bridget needed some clothes. She backed up the stairs, trying to make sure she didn’t make any noise; she knew whoever had hurt Dee was still in the building, probably hurting Estelle.

She looked through Dee’s clothes hurriedly, grabbing a black velour Hooch tracksuit. It was the only thing that went down further than the thighs and higher than the nipples. She crept down the stairs again. She could hear a man talking on the phone, with an accent she couldn’t quite place.

‘What do you mean it’s not her? There’re two women here and one bloke dressed as a fucking baby … Yeah, one of them has black hair and the other is blonde. I sent you the pictures … Well, she’s not here then, is she … All right, all right, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to disrespect you. I’ll find her … Don’t worry, they’re all dead … No, no one saw me … There’s definitely no one else here … OK.’

She peered through the crack in the door again. The man was in her bedroom, his shadowy figure facing away from her. She could see her mobile phone on the side table, right above where all her shoes were kept, but she couldn’t go in. Slowly, she backed away from the bedroom, back into the communal hallway. Her breathing was fast and erratic but she tried to be quiet, tried not to disturb anything as she walked.

She opened the sash window in the hallway, wincing at the slight sound, and ran quickly down the fire escape. The cold, wet metal was a shock to her feet. She was trying hard not to make noise on the rickety iron staircase; in places the metal had completely eroded, so she had to be careful not to cut herself or put her foot through the steps. She ran down the side alley that was parallel to the back of the building, stopping at a yellow road-gritting salt box. The weather had been mild enough lately that she hadn’t needed to worry about it being disturbed for a while.

Bridget opened the box and reached inside. She dug around, the sound of the dirty chunks of rock salt scraping against each other setting her teeth on edge. She felt the leather strap of her backpack between her fingers and tugged hard. The salt displaced with a crunch, making more noise than she’d anticipated. She shot a look behind her to make sure no one was there. She was alone. She opened the bag and checked the contents. A roll of bank notes, a phone, a Leatherman multi-tool, an emergency power pack and a spare phone battery. The battery in the phone was dead so she switched it to the spare. There wasn’t a lot of battery left on the emergency one either. If this didn’t qualify as an emergency, she didn’t know what did. The only number on the phone was Sam’s. She pressed the screen.

Straight to answerphone.

‘Sam? It’s Bridge. Where the hell are you? Are you in trouble? A man came to the house while I was using the shower upstairs, but when I came back down they were all dead.’ She tried to keep the panic out of her voice, whispering furiously so as not to attract any attention. ‘I only saw Dee’s body. I didn’t see the others, but I heard him talking. It was me they were after … I didn’t see who it was though. He had a slight accent, I think, and he didn’t sound young, but that’s all I can tell you for now. I’m going to go to our meeting spot. Please be there.’ She checked over her shoulder, paused and took a deep breath. There was a feeling in the pit of her stomach that told her she wouldn’t be speaking to him for a while. ‘I love you, Sam.’

Bridget hung up, swinging the bag on to her back. She began walking towards the town centre, keeping one eye on a few drunks on the corner of the street. She wondered if they were who they appeared to be. Were they watching her? She surveyed the cars along the road, searching for a model more than twenty years old, as they were easier to get into. It was a long way to her usual meeting place with Sam. She needed a car.

Her eyes landed on a J-reg Vauxhall Cavalier. She dropped behind it and got to work, removing a paracord bow from the bag. Bridget kept one eye on the road as she worked, and ducked further down behind the car as she saw a man, walking in her direction. She didn’t have long. Her heart skipped a beat when she saw another, younger man emerge from the building behind him. The two men paused in the street, a few cars down from where she crouched. She could hear the rumble of raised voices as they began to argue.

Now was her chance.

She made a slipknot in the cord. She leveraged the door a fraction with the Leatherman and slid the string through the space, moving it slowly from side to side with one hand either end of the string until the loop connected with the bobble on the plastic door lock. She pulled each end of the string until the knot was tight around the lock then yanked the ends quickly upwards, unlocking the door.

The men both turned at the clunk, their faces hidden in the darkness. There was a beat of silence. Bridget waited a few seconds until they turned back to face one another, then carefully opened the car door. She reached under the steering column and unscrewed the cover, telling herself to keep calm. You’ve done this a million times before. She pulled out the wire bundle and stripped the two red battery wires of their casing, exposing an inch of copper with the knife on her Leatherman, then twisted them together. She stripped the brown ignition wire before getting in the car to crank the starter over. The moment that exposed ignition wire hit the battery the two men would know where she was; she had only seconds to get away. She took a deep breath and touched the wires together. As soon as the engine started, Bridget glanced through the window to see the two men moving, running to get to the car before she could drive away. She threw the backpack on to the seat beside her and pulled out into the road, turning the wheel so hard her hands hurt. If they had any doubts before they heard the wheelspin, they certainly didn’t now. Looking through the rear-view mirror, she was just in time to see the pair jumping into a car, ready to follow her.

Chapter 3: The Hunted
The present

Bridget took the road to St David’s station, wishing she had told Sam that she would meet him there, where there were people and places to hide in plain sight. She carried on driving, aware that the men were not far behind her. She saw them turn each corner as she reached the other end of the street, their car jolting on to the kerbs as they chased her. Bridget thought briefly about Estelle, and what must have happened to her. I should have called an ambulance. She couldn’t think about what she should have done, all she could think about was getting away from these men. Her eyes flitted between the rear-view mirror and the road ahead. As she drove down Bonhay Road she felt so exposed; there wasn’t enough traffic to get lost in.

They were gaining on her. She drove across the bridge towards Cowick. She would have to get rid of the car. It was good for distance but they were past that now. She just needed to make sure they didn’t get hold of her and she stood a better chance of that on foot. There were some smaller streets coming up, with lots of red brick housing set back from the main road. Glancing behind, she couldn’t see their car, and she quickly turned the steering wheel and drove through an entrance into a private car park behind a small row of houses, immediately killing the engine. They wouldn’t be able to see the car from the road – not yet, anyway. Bridget jumped out and ran as fast as she could towards the river. As she sprinted, she heard the sound of a car coming. It was them. She ducked behind a large council wheelie bin and waited for them to pass her. They had slowed right down, obviously searching for her. Her breathing felt as though it had stopped as she crouched on the ground next to the bin. She waited for the sound of the car to die, and when she was sure they had gone, she emerged, keeping close to the buildings as she ran down to the river, taking the underpass to the lower walkway that ran alongside the bank. Hopefully they wouldn’t see her down here from the road. She had completely forgotten that she wasn’t wearing anything on her feet; ignoring the pain of the tarmac, she made her way towards the Cricklepit Bridge. Everything was lit up, but she stuck to the shadows when she could and moved faster when she couldn’t.

Bridget looked behind her, sure that she was not alone. Even the pubs along the bank looked derelict. She longed for a crowd to lose herself in, wanting to bury her presence like a needle in a haystack. She felt as though she was standing on a stage with a spotlight pointed right at her face. Looking to the left, she caught sight of the children’s play area, and felt a stab of relief. She ran to it, clambered over the fence and squeezed her body into the adventure castle, grateful that she had grabbed something warm to wear. Stay out of sight, at least until you catch your breath.

As she watched the riverbank, a man emerged from the path she had just scrambled away from. He was scanning the area – was he the man who’d killed Estelle and Dee? Was the Baby dead, too? Was he still in his romper? Bridget remembered his wedding ring and wondered how his family would feel when they were notified that he was found dead, dressed as a baby with a prostitute on either side of him.

It was drawing close to the hour. Bridget felt a thud of realisation: the backpack. She had left the backpack in the car. There was no way she would make it to the rendezvous on time, and she had to find a way to let Sam know.

Judging by the intense way the man was surveying the bank, Bridget couldn’t shake the fact that it was definitely him: the one who had killed her friends. He was a big man, thick set with a beard but no hair on his head; he almost looked like a caricature of a strong man from an old circus poster. He was out of place in the picturesque setting of the river. He walked with sinister purpose, getting closer and closer to the play area. She was trapped in the wooden castle. If he thought to look in there, he’d find her immediately. Her heart stopped when he paused at the entrance to the play area, but then he carried on to the bridge and walked across, stopping again on the other side. She breathed out. She was going to have to make a break for it before he retraced his steps. It’s now or never. She slowly climbed out of the wooden structure and, with one eye on the man, she quickly moved back across the playground to the railings and slung one leg over, followed by the other. Losing her balance, Bridget fell, straight on to a broken bottle. The area was a popular spot with disaffected teens from the estates; she’d seen them guzzling their miniature ciders before returning home after school. There were discarded bottles everywhere.

‘Fuck!’ she said, louder than she should have.

The man’s head whipped around; he turned back towards her and sprinted towards the park. Bridget pulled herself to her feet using the fence as leverage; she could feel broken glass digging into her kneecap but she knew she had to shake the pain off. If he got hold of her, it was the last thing she would need to worry about. She could feel the blood draining from her face; she limped as fast as she could towards the Haven Banks housing complex but then thought better of it – she was bleeding and would leave a trail. At this time of night, the silence was so deafening that even the smallest intake of breath would be heard inside that complex – it was a nicer part of town, there would be no late-night parties, no drunks littered in the hallways or dealers pushing their gear. She should have run to one of the rougher estates where it was easier to disappear. She should have gone to a hotel and hidden. What the hell had she been thinking?

Bridget looked around and quickly assessed her surroundings, deciding where the safest place to hide would be. Where would he be least likely to venture? Suddenly it became obvious to her as she stared at the black water of the river. A few miles down the river was her meeting place with Sam, if he would just hold on she could make it there, in the water, if she didn’t pass out on the bank first. The man was getting closer and she needed to make her move now. She swiftly edged over the side into the water, being careful not to make a noise as her body became immersed in the icy cold. Breathe. If he knew where she’d gone he would follow her. She was completely in shadow as she moved through the water, hidden under some overgrowth that hung over from the bank. She was grateful that she couldn’t see any swans. That was the last thing she needed. She could hear the man on his phone approaching.

‘She was here, I just saw her. Yes. I know how important this is … Are you sure? OK, I’ll meet you there.’

He was out of earshot again. She would have to stay put for a few minutes, make sure he was gone, because as soon as she ventured out from this spot she would be in full view again. It was cold in the water, so cold; she reached down to her knee and felt the glass poking out of it. She didn’t know whether to pull it out or leave it in. Her mind buzzed with stories, thinking of reports she’d read where stab victims were fine until the weapon was removed, at which point they bled to death. She couldn’t remember if any major veins or arteries ran through the knee. Sam would know what to do. The adrenaline was pumping so fast that she couldn’t think clearly; was she afraid or just really fucking cold? For now she just needed to concentrate on getting to Sam. She had to get to their place. It was her only chance.

She edged along the side of the river towards the back of the pub where she hoped Sam would be waiting. It’d be shut now, but it was secluded enough that they wouldn’t need to worry about being seen together. She was out of breath from the cold. She hadn’t heard the man for a long time. Maybe it was safe to get out? She wanted to let go of the edge and just let her head fall beneath the surface. Moving slowly was even more exhausting. She was so tired. Is this hypothermia? Drowning wasn’t even something that she cared about; she just wanted to fall asleep for a bit. Just a little sleep, then she could start moving again. She tried not to think about what was in the water. Since she had been small and seen a documentary about a giant deep-sea squid Bridget had had a fear of dark water. She could see it now as she blinked. Each blink seemed to last a little longer than the one before. The only thing propelling her to open her eyes again was the thought of that squid with its enormous red head and the tentacles that swept through the water like wet velvet, heavy but effortless. Always just about to touch her as she moved forward beyond its grasp.

Bridget reached the Double Locks pub and dug her frozen fingers into the grass on the embankment, dragging herself out of the water. She had made it. The upside of the extreme cold was that she no longer had any pain in her knee, or any feeling in her legs at all, for that matter. She was so exhausted; she had to rest for a moment. The damp grass was warm and soft compared to the sharpness of the water. She could barely move and it was so dark that she just lay there, looking up at the moon with the clouds rolling over it. Don’t fall asleep. Her eyelids became heavy and as much as she wanted to fight it, her body was taking over. It was time to close her eyes.

Chapter 4: The Traitor
The present

DS Adrian Miles sat at his desk in Exeter Police Station, making origami mandarin ducks out of report forms. It was the best possible use he could imagine for them at the moment, as he certainly wasn’t going to be filling any of them out.

He looked over at his partner’s desk. DS Imogen Grey was due back to work today. Adrian had offered to swing by and pick her up but she had been determined in her refusal. She was an obstinate one all right, rejecting help of any kind. They hadn’t really spoken while she’d been off, just the odd phone call here and there to tell her about the less exciting proceedings going on, like DI Fraser becoming the new acting DCI, and the shake-up within the department. A shake-up which included an investigation into every officer there. That had been fun.

Imogen Grey walked into the room, a slight smirk appearing on her face when she saw her desk, which was completely littered with origami animals.

‘Busy then?’

‘I made you a welcoming committee.’

‘You’ve got quite the talent there, Miley. I hope each one doesn’t represent someone you’ve killed, like in that Chinese movie about the baby.’

As the seconds passed, Imogen’s smirk turned into an uncomfortable smile, the kind of smile that says, I don’t want to talk about it. Her eyes were flat and Adrian knew that walking through those doors had taken her all kinds of courage. He really wanted to get up and give her a hug, but he also didn’t want her to thrust her knee into his genitals, so he just stood up and shook her hand. He stroked the back of her wrist with his thumb, his way of saying ‘I’m glad to see you back.’ She pulled away and took a deep breath before taking her jacket off and sitting down.

‘Can I get you a coffee?’

‘Don’t, Miley.’

‘Don’t what?’

‘Don’t … be nice to me, I can’t handle it.’

‘What?’ He put his most affronted face on. ‘I’m always nice to you! You’re the mean one!’

She considered this for a moment.

‘OK, fine, black with two sugars then, please.’

He stood up and walked over to the machine; within seconds he had a steaming hot cup of what looked like watered-down mud. After smelling it, he decided against getting himself one. He put the sugars in and took it back over to Imogen, who was just taking a file from Denise Ferguson, the desk sergeant.

‘We have a case!’ she said, taking the coffee from him and sniffing it, before putting it on the desk as though it was a urine sample. ‘I’ll get us some coffee on the way.’

‘What’s the case?’

‘Triple homicide.’

‘Whoa! Do you think that’s a good idea?’

‘They can’t hurt me, Miley, they’re dead.’

‘I know, but wouldn’t you rather start out with something a little less gruesome?’

‘It’s sweet of you to be concerned,’ she said sarcastically. ‘But I want to work, I want to catch the bad guys before they catch up to us.’

‘As long as you’re OK.’

‘I will be. Believe it or not, I’ve been through worse.’

‘I know you have. I wish you’d talk to me about it, Imogen. That stuff you said … About what happened before you transferred from Plymouth – I’m here for you, if you want to talk.’

‘Miley, drop it, please. Fraser is waiting for us at the crime scene.’

‘OK, I’m dropping it. Let’s go.’

The road was cordoned off outside the house when they arrived. Adrian parked a few streets away, nearer to Exeter prison. He was glad it wasn’t night time. The darkness carried the sounds from inside the jail and left them whispering in the air. At least in the daylight you could pretend you weren’t standing so close to all that scum. Imogen was looking up at the prison windows, almost in a trance. Adrian thought he could see tears as she stared at the formidable red brick structure.

‘You OK?’ he said, putting his hand on her shoulder. She snapped her head round and looked at him; he moved his hand immediately and they set off for the crime scene.

As Adrian walked into the flat, he could tell it was some kind of brothel. He saw the blonde girl first; she was translucent and her skin looked almost wet. It must have been some kind of body glitter designed to make her glow, but on the dead skin it looked like the silvery sheen found on rotten meat. With her short, sparkly blue dress and her white legs covered in red, it was like some kind of horrific superhero costume. He thought of his battle-ready, limited-edition boxed Wonder Woman toy and his throat constricted.

He stepped over her and into the bedroom. There was a man in what appeared to be an adult babygro with a ladies’ comb sticking out of his neck, the long metal spike at the end jammed firmly into his jugular with several other puncture marks surrounding it. A vision was thrust upon Adrian: someone rapidly stabbing the man in the neck with great force. He had seen enough to know there were no hesitation marks: whoever had done this had killed before.

‘Are there any IDs on the bodies?’ Adrian asked DCI Fraser.

‘They took the man’s car already. We managed to trace him through the registration; he didn’t have any ID on him. His name is Edward Walker. As for the girls, we think the one out there lives in the flat upstairs.’

‘There’s another girl?’

‘Yeah, Estelle Jackson. She’s in the other room. It’s not pretty.’

Adrian followed DCI Fraser back past the blonde and into the bathroom. His hand immediately went up to his mouth.

‘What the hell?’

‘Jesus Christ.’ Imogen was standing beside him.

Adrian wanted to step in front of her to block her view but he knew it wasn’t his place. He just looked to see if she was OK. If she was shaken, she was hiding it well, but she couldn’t quite disguise the shallowness of her breath.

The girl lay in the bathtub, her face caked in blood, her stomach open and her guts piled up in her lap. Her eyes were wide open, which was probably the most disturbing part. Like one of those paintings where the eyes follow you around the room. She had obviously tried to stand up at some point; the shower curtain was on the floor and the tiles were covered in desperate handprints.

‘According to the coroner she was still alive when … this … happened. She bled out in the night. She probably tried to get up which is why … those bits have fallen out.’ Fraser gagged as he said it and turned away so that he could no longer see the girl. In all the time Adrian had known Fraser, he had never reacted like that to a crime scene.

‘Why would they do this to her specifically, and not to the others?’ Adrian peeled his eyes away from Imogen, who hadn’t once taken hers off the body.

‘Well, she was obviously the main target of the attack, or at least the closest thing. Judging by the nature of her injuries, she was tortured, my guess is they were after information on something, or someone. There’s another girl who lives here, her name is Bridget Ford, apparently. She isn’t anywhere as far as we can tell,’ DCI Fraser said eagerly.

‘Do we know what she looks like?’ Imogen piped up, her eyes firmly fixed on Estelle’s body.

‘Yeah, there are some photos of them together, and the Ford girl’s handbag is still in the bedroom. The guys are looking upstairs, apparently the hot water wasn’t working down here so we think Ford went upstairs to take a shower and when she came back she found all this.’

‘And we have no idea what happened to her after that?’ Adrian asked.

‘No.’

‘You think she got away?’ Imogen said.

‘Or she was involved. I mean, why hasn’t she called the police?’ Fraser said.

‘Or she could be dead some place else?’ Imogen offered.

‘Well, until we know differently, she’s a suspect, I guess,’ Fraser said.

‘Innocent until proven guilty? Do we not do that any more?’ Imogen seemed to be annoyed. She stomped out of the flat.

Adrian sighed. Even he found it hard to look at the girl in the bathtub. He stepped outside after Imogen, and smiled at the familiar sight of her sucking on a cigarette.

‘Hey,’ he said.

‘Hey.’ She pulled out her packet of cigarettes and offered him one.

‘I’ve given up.’

‘Sure you have.’ She continued to hold the packet and he took one. Today didn’t feel like the right time to argue.

‘Are you OK?’

‘I thought we talked about this, Miley? Ask me if I’m OK one more time, I dare you.’

‘I’m not OK,’ he said, lighting the cigarette, ‘so I was just guessing that you probably aren’t either.’

She turned to him with a consolatory smile and put her hand on his shoulder.

‘Miley, I am OK, but I really don’t want to look at that poor woman in the bathtub again. We should talk to the neighbours.’

‘Fine with me.’

After hours of no useful responses from the neighbours, Imogen drove Adrian back to the station. She was happy to have his familiar presence in the passenger seat again. It had been a long time since Imogen had felt that level of trust with someone – she didn’t think she’d ever have it again after the way she’d left her old force in Plymouth. She swallowed hard, touched her stomach surreptitiously. She could still feel the scar. Adrian looked over and smiled at her; in spite of herself, she grinned back. Adrian was one of the good ones; she looked forward to getting into more morally ambiguous situations with him, as crazy as that sounded.

Talking of moral ambiguity – as they walked into the station, Imogen was met with a bad taste in her mouth as she saw who was sitting in her chair, no doubt waiting to speak to her. The one person she thought she’d left behind.

Chapter 5: The Case
The present

Imogen’s old police partner, DI Sam Brown, was persistent if nothing else. Before being transferred to Exeter, Imogen had been partnered with him in Plymouth. She had moved to the other side of the county just to get away from him, had had to leave Plymouth after everything that had happened. How could he be here now? On her first day back at work she was being confronted by the duplicitous shit-bag who had sent her into one of the most horrific situations she had ever encountered. He was the reason for her trust issues. They had been friends, real friends, but then he had betrayed her. He was at least partially responsible for the giant scar on her torso. Coupled with the bullet mark she’d sustained in the Exeter schoolteacher case, she was building up quite a nice collection.

‘Are you …’ Adrian said. He trailed off before finishing the sentence, obviously thinking better of it.

‘I’m glad you didn’t finish that thought, Miley,’ she said, just about ready to punch anyone who asked her if she was ‘all right’.

‘What are you doing here?’ Adrian called across the room to Sam.

‘I need to talk to you both.’

‘This is not happening right now, come back some other time.’ Imogen slammed her bag down on the desk and pointed at the man who had the effrontery to sit in her chair.

DCI Fraser walked over with a big smile on his face. He always had been hopeless at reading social indicators.

‘I just realised you guys are called Brown and Grey and you were partners. That’s pretty funny.’ Fraser laughed.

‘Can we talk in private?’ Sam asked.

‘No, you absolutely cannot,’ Adrian interjected.

‘Keep your knickers on, I need to speak to you too, Detective.’ He turned to Adrian.

‘You should go with him. It pertains to the murder case,’ Fraser said.

‘A woman turns up with her insides hanging out … should’ve guessed you would have something to do with it.’ Imogen sneered.

‘Please,’ Sam implored. ‘I have some important information about your triple homicide.’

‘Fine,’ Imogen said.

She walked to the family liaison office, followed by both Adrian and Sam. Adrian slammed the door and Imogen stood with her arms folded. She was aware of the prying eyes from around the office, all staring at the large glass window, clearly trying to discern what the conversation was about.

‘Come on, guys, sit down, please.’

‘I’m just dandy standing up.’

‘Look, I’m not going to bring out all of the excuses but there are a few things you aren’t privy to here. I was given clearance to tell you this morning when all this shit went down.’

‘Clearance? What are you talking about?’

‘Imogen, I was undercover in Plymouth. I was investigating the department. You’ve got it all wrong.’

‘I repeat: what are you talking about?’

‘I know you’re angry with me about what happened. But there’s so much you don’t know. I’m sure after everything else that’s happened here lately, you can appreciate what I’m talking about.’ He glanced from Imogen to Adrian. ‘I heard about Harry Morris. The schoolteacher case.’

Adrian shook his head. ‘We’re not talking about that now, DI Brown. That case is closed. Finished. Get to the point.’

Sam held his hands up, a gesture of mock-surrender.

‘There were things happening in Plymouth, Imogen. Things you weren’t aware of, things that went on back then which are still going on. A whole world we didn’t uncover at the time. I had to get on the inside and see who was a part of it. I’ve been working on it for the last year.’

‘Were you investigating me? While I was there?’

‘A little, yeah. We had to know who was involved.’

‘Involved in what?’

‘At any one time in the UK, there are four thousand trafficked human beings in the country. We had it on good intel that there were members of the Plymouth police force who were not only complicit in these dealings, but actively running some of the operations.’

‘Are you serious?’

‘Women and kids, brought into the country illegally, sold into slavery, prostitution, pornography, we still don’t know all the details. This investigation has been pretty hard to get a hold on without blowing our cover and getting a bunch of innocent people killed. It’s a delicate situation.’

‘What’s that got to do with our homicide case?’ Adrian asked.

‘The girls you found dead. The girl that’s missing is an undercover, her real name is DS Bridget Reid. Ford is a pseudonym. She’s been working as a pro for the last six months in that brothel.’

‘She’s been working as a pro?’

‘Not a real one, her clients were all set up. Anyway, she was there the night the other girls were killed, she was on the scene but she managed to get out. She left me a message. I gave it to DCI Fraser already and he’s looking into it.’

‘Did she see the killer?’

‘She said she didn’t. I lost contact with her. I was supposed to meet her down at the pub by the locks but she never showed.’

‘Do you think she’s dead?’

A look passed across Sam’s face. ‘I don’t know. I need you to find her, please. I can’t look, it would blow my cover.’

‘Wouldn’t want to do that, now would we?’ Adrian was staring Sam down. ‘We’re going to need everything you have on her operation.’

‘It’s all here.’ Sam looked more concerned than Imogen had ever seen him before.

‘Is she smart?’ Imogen asked.

‘She is. She’s important, OK? This isn’t like her. If she hasn’t been in contact, it’s because she can’t.’

‘She’s your girl?’ Adrian raised his eyebrows at Sam, who nodded.

‘She is. She’s a good officer, too.’

‘Why me? After what you did, what makes you think I would help you?’ Imogen asked, stepping forward, facing up to her former partner.

‘Because what you think you know is not what happened, Imogen! I tried to warn you over and over to keep away from certain things, but you just couldn’t help yourself, could you?’

‘Well, I’m a detective, that’s kind of my job.’

‘You have no idea how big this is, Imogen. Every name leads to another name, and it takes time to find out who exactly is doing what. We just didn’t know if it was a genuine lead or not; it’s taken us this long to find out.’

‘You could have told me at the time!’ Imogen pushed back the tears. ‘You could have told me when I was still in Plymouth!’

‘I tried to tell you. That’s why I got myself assigned to this place when they made the call for extra cops. I wanted to look out for you, but you wouldn’t let me. We were friends once – I thought you might hear me out.’

‘Can you blame her?’ Miles butted in.

‘It wasn’t clear who I could trust, Imogen, I swear, until you got attacked that night I wasn’t sure if you were part of it or not.’

‘You didn’t know if I was involved in the trafficking of women and kids? I think that says everything about how close we were. You and Stanton were the only people who knew where I was going that night.’ She was seething. ‘And stop saying my fucking name!’

‘Look, we will find DS Reid,’ Miles said.

‘Bridget, her name is Bridget.’

‘OK, we’re already looking for her. We’ll take extra care when we pick her up, and we will let you know straight away,’ Miles said. ‘But you can’t be a part of this investigation. You have to trust that we are doing the best we can.’

‘Let me ask you something.’ Imogen turned to Sam.

‘OK, but I may not be able to answer you; this is an ongoing investigation.’

‘Are you still investigating the police?’

‘Yes.’

‘People from the Plymouth station? The Exeter station too?’

‘It’s a big operation; it would be naive to think they could pull all of this off without any inside help. At the very least it’s happening under your noses and nothing is being done. Either everyone in your precinct is stupid, or someone knows something and is covering it up.’

‘And you have no idea who?’

‘I’m sorry, no.’ He moved closer to Imogen, she felt Adrian step in too, like a guard dog. ‘For the moment it would be good if we carried on like you hate me. That’s been pretty good for my cover, believe it or not.’

‘I do still hate you, Sam, this changes nothing. You can say what you want but you were the only person who could have betrayed me in that way.’ She paused and glanced at Adrian before continuing, uneasy about exposing herself. She lowered her voice. ‘You were the only person I told I was pregnant, and they knew, Sam, they knew before they cut me. That’s how I knew it was you.’

Sam’s face changed, he looked genuinely confused; she couldn’t tell if he was being sincere or not. Imogen slapped him across the face. She could feel Adrian silently cheering her on. Sam grabbed his cheek and his face flushed with anger.

‘Find Bridget, that’s all I care about.’

‘We will.’

DI Brown left the office, still rubbing his face. When he was well out of earshot and view, Imogen turned to Adrian.

‘I believe him,’ Adrian said as he rested on the edge of the table, folding his arms across his chest. ‘I know you hate him, Imogen, and I still don’t know what the hell happened to you back in Plymouth, but if DI Brown knows something about this investigation we owe it to ourselves to look into it. After what happened a few weeks ago … We need to be on it.’

‘I know. I agree.’ Imogen kicked the chair.

Chapter 6: Just a Boy
Age 10

I’m trying really hard to concentrate on the face in the wallpaper. When I stare at it long enough I see the face of a grumpy old man. He is staring at me, frowning. The pattern is really girly but it’s always the old man I see. Sometimes I pretend the old man is God and I pray to him. I say pray, but really I just give him a list of questions and wait for his expression to change. Naturally his expression never changes and my questions remain unanswered, loitering in my head.

This is my sister’s room but she’s not here any more. My mum keeps it the same in case she comes back, but she’s not coming back. You don’t come back from there. I don’t know if I believe in heaven, really, or hell for that matter. I like to pretend heaven is real though, and that she is there, stuffing her face with ice creams and chocolates. Pistachio ice cream was her favourite, sometimes Baba would buy a whole big tub of it, just for her.

Since my sister died, my mum cries a lot. Understandable, I suppose, but when I walk into the room she dries her eyes and smiles at me, as if her smile could disguise the despair. I may be young but I’m not stupid. She doesn’t talk about my sister and we aren’t meant to either, but I do. I come here and talk to God about her.

My mum’s cooking lamb for dinner; she must have upset Dad in some way because lamb is usually reserved for Sundays. Today is Tuesday. In four days I’m going to be eleven years old, so maybe this is an early birthday dinner. My stomach is rumbling. I can feel the hollow pit; I haven’t eaten since breakfast yesterday. I should go back to my room before I get caught in here. I’m not supposed to be here, if my father catches me I will likely have to do without dinner. On an ordinary day I might risk it, because I like being in this room more than the food my mum usually prepares. The smell of that lamb though – it’s made my mouth water.

Back in my own room, I feel more alone and the smell of the food isn’t nearly as strong as it was in my sister’s room, which is just a few steps down from the kitchen. I can’t feel my sister in here. I pick up the book that sits by my bed. It’s my father’s favourite book so I’ve been instructed to read it. Apparently it will prepare me for when I am older. It’s important to him that I am not weak. Every day he gives me a passage to learn and I must recite it for him before dinner, before I’m allowed to eat. Yesterday I wasn’t in the mood but the smell of the lamb has made me not want to take another stand. My father likes it when I stand up to him, to a point. I see his lips curl upwards when he thinks I am not looking, so sometimes even if I’m starving I make the sacrifice in order to make him like me. I like it when he likes me.

At dinner, I recite the passage he has asked me to remember. He seems disappointed that I couldn’t hold out even longer, he’s disappointed that I learned the words. It seems that no matter what I do I am the disappointment. Some days I think it is all about the words I’m asked to remember, some days I think he wants me to defy him and other days I think he wants me to starve to death. I gave up trying to figure my father out a long time ago. Soon he will think of an alternative punishment for learning the words, as I seem to have got better at memorising them. I guess that comes with getting older. He can’t trick me any more. I wonder what I will have to do next.

My mother is silent throughout dinner; she is often silent. Her face has changed since my sister died, I don’t know whether it’s just because she has cried so much that she has changed her face forever. She is thin, too; sometimes she’s not allowed to eat either.

The lamb is delicious and I want more as soon as I’m finished. When I am older I want to be a chef so that I can cook for myself. My father doesn’t think there is any money in that profession, though; he wants me to be a businessman. I never really understood the term ‘businessman’ – surely any work is business and so anyone with a job is also a businessman. I don’t really understand a lot of things like that. My father is a businessman, he wears a suit and he makes money. Sometimes I will open a drawer at home and there will be a big bundle of notes held together with an elastic band. I once found twenty thousand pounds in the bottom of my parents’ wardrobe. My father doesn’t talk about his business much in front of my mother; occasionally he might say he has a good or a bad day but never any more detail than that. He has promised me that when I am older he will take me to work with him and I can see how to earn good money, because nobody wants to be poor.

My dad usually goes out again after dinner. Sometimes when he comes home he smells funny. I don’t know what the smell is exactly but it’s a mixture of smoke and whisky. I don’t know how people can drink whisky; I think it tastes horrible. One time my father left the drinks cupboard open, he has a lot of whisky from all over the world. He is a collector of whiskies, he told me that one of his bottles of whisky cost as much as our house. He wouldn’t tell me which one though. I look through the collection and try to figure out which one it might be, but they all look the same, and when I unscrew the cap and sniff, none of them smell very nice. I took a few swigs though and it was like that horrible washing-up-liquid taste, like your mouth just wants it gone. It burned my throat, too.

After dinner I make a start on my next passage in my room. I tend to go up as soon as possible in case my parents argue, because they like to bounce insults off me: your mother wraps you up in cotton wool, how will you ever become a man? If I’m not there the arguments are usually over much faster. If they’re not arguing about each other’s shortcomings then they’re arguing about my sister and whose fault it was that she died. The general consensus in my family is that it was my fault.

Before I have read through the passage even once, my bedroom door opens and my father’s head appears. He tells me to get my shoes on and go with him. I am excited and nervous. Sometimes when my father comes home from his night-time expeditions his knuckles are bloodied. I’ve seen him hit my mother with some force before, but never enough to make his own hands bleed. So it must be from something else.

In the car we don’t talk. He puts loud music on. We pull up to a restaurant of some kind but when we get out of the car we don’t go inside, we go through an alley down the side of it instead, and into a house that’s nestled behind it. My father has the keys. The house is smoky and smells strange. There are two women whose faces instantly change when my father enters the room; they look scared and they sit up straight. I feel somewhat better now that I know it’s not just at home that my father makes people uncomfortable. There are lots of weird things on the coffee table. Strange-shaped jars and containers, white powder, bags of pills and green leafy stuff and razor blades strewn about.

Mindy is the blonde girl’s name. She has black smudges under her eyes, she doesn’t look very clean and her hair is dark in places where it’s greasy. She has bruises on her legs although she doesn’t seem to notice them. I see her eyes travel to my dad’s hands and she relaxes when she sees they are empty. The other girl is called Margot. Margot seems like a posh girl’s name, or I always thought it was, it reminds me of that old TV show with the lady who wears the long wafty dresses. Margot doesn’t look anything like that though, she has blue hair and so much eye make-up I can barely tell what colour her eyes are. Margot’s head is shaved up one side and she has a tattoo on her neck. It’s a word, but I can’t read it.

The girls refer to my dad as ‘Daddy’, which is confusing to me because they obviously aren’t related to us in any way. Margot jumps up and comes over to my dad, she kisses him on the lips but he pulls away and pushes her hard, so that she knocks into the table and some of the beer falls to the ground. Mindy rushes to pick it up. It occurs to me that Mindy is also a name from an old TV show my dad likes to watch sometimes. I wonder what the girls’ real names are.

Dad tells me to sit on the sofa while he does some work and he tells Mindy to look after me. He takes Margot by the wrist. I can see he’s grabbing her hard but she doesn’t pull away or cry or anything, she just follows as he leads her out of the room. Mindy puts the television on a music channel; it’s all rap music which I don’t really like. She takes the bag of green leafy stuff and rolls it into a cigarette. I watch as she lights it and draws in, sucking hard, so that almost half burns away before she pulls it from between her lips. She exhales straight into my face. The smoke smells strong and musky, not like my dad’s cigarettes. Her lips are cracked and sore looking but she gives me a nervous smile. She looks so much prettier with it. Her hand is on my leg and I act as though it were not my leg at all, even as she circles her fingers around my knee. I watch the TV instead.

By the time my dad comes back, my head hurts a bit, not like a headache, like a foggy soup inside my mind. Margot is nowhere to be seen and Mindy looks somewhat panicked for a moment until music starts upstairs, obviously reassuring her that Margot is OK. I know that feeling; sometimes my dad goes into a room with someone and they don’t come back out. I’ve waited outside my mother’s room for hours before, waiting to see if she reappears. She always does.

My dad speaks to Mindy in whispers and I can see her biting her lip, trying to look pretty but she looks so tired and scared. I didn’t notice it before but now I can see that she’s shaking, a barely noticeable shudder every time my father reaches for her. She’s afraid to flinch but her body desperately wants to. She obviously knows the penalty well. I can hear her making quiet excuses as her breathing grows shallow. She’s telling my dad that I’m only a kid and she couldn’t do it. Couldn’t do what? Apparently I have to grow up some time and she should do what she’s told. I still feel woozy and guilty for not helping Mindy. My dad is going to hit her, we all know it and so there is nothing more to say. I just sit and watch the spectacle.

As expected, Dad grabs a fistful of Mindy’s hair and smashes her face into the wall. Blood spurts from her nose but she barely whimpers. To my surprise, my father calls me over and pushes Mindy’s face towards mine. She kisses me gently on the lips and I can taste the metal in her blood as it drips from her nose. She also tastes a bit like liquorice, which I don’t really like. My father lets go of Mindy and she takes my hand. My father tells me he will be back for me in a little while and then Mindy leads me upstairs to her bedroom.

Later, as we drive home, I go over in my mind the passage I am to recite for my father tomorrow. The words take on a new significance.

Just as I have come from afar, creating pain for many

men and women across the good green earth,

so let his name be Odysseus …

the Son of Pain, a name he’ll earn in full.

Chapter 7: The Fixer
Plymouth, two years earlier

The girl was lying on the ground, her skirt hitched up around her thighs, exposing needle marks and soiled underpants. Imogen looked at the room: cold, stark and empty. What a place to die. The former girls’ school had certainly lost its charm quickly after its closure. Obscenities were scribbled on the blackboard and the windows were thick with dirt. She wanted to cover the girl with a blanket, to keep her warm, to lie with her and stroke her hair, tell her everything was going to be OK. She looked so lonely and forsaken. Imogen had to look away for a moment, and force those feelings down.

‘Jesus!’ she exclaimed, slipping back into her role as someone who wasn’t bothered by things like dead bodies. She held her nose for effect. The smell of the week-old corpse left festering on the floor of the unventilated room was overwhelming. Imogen had to maintain the guise of a hardened exterior, everyone in the Plymouth Police Force did. It was important that they all kept up the bravado, the illusion of morale. If they expressed their true response when they saw these things, these hideous things that occurred, then it would be easy to fall apart, inevitable even. It wasn’t always the big things that got you, it was the things like the girl’s hair being stuck to her face, or that it was winter and she had summer clothes on.

‘Any ID on her?’ her partner DI Brown asked. He’d been her partner ever since she’d started at Plymouth a few years ago, and the pair of them got on well. Most of the time.

‘You look if you want, I’m not touching her.’

‘We’ll let the techs look, I’m not touching her either. She looks about ready to pop.’

Imogen noted the distended and discoloured skin. Her body had reacted the way we all do when we die; it started destroying itself, digesting itself. The bacteria in the poor girl’s body were trying to make their way out, the gases under the skin causing it to swell until even the slightest touch could cause it to burst.

‘You ever touch a popper, Sam? It’s not cool,’ she muttered, subconsciously smoothing her own skirt down because she couldn’t adjust the girl’s.

‘No, I guess it isn’t,’ Sam said, distracted. ‘Come on, let’s get out of here, I’m starving. I’ll buy you lunch.’

‘You’re hungry?’ She couldn’t imagine anything worse than eating at this particular moment in time.

‘A nice mixed grill or something extra greasy, that’s what I fancy.’ Sam smiled.

‘You’re going to have a heart attack if you keep eating like that.’

‘I’ve got to take care of my figure, Grey, takes a lot of work to maintain this fine physique.’ He rubbed his belly. Samuel Brown was a short man with a thick-set body and more hair poking out of his shirt than was actually on his head. You couldn’t accuse him of being vain, that was for sure.

‘I’ll pass, thanks. I’m off shift in an hour so I thought I might go get this paperwork filed.’

‘Suit yourself. You can cover for me then, I need to eat. You seeing your mother tonight?’

‘Yep, same as yesterday. Probably same as tomorrow.’

‘You can’t keep this shit up, Grey, you need to get a life of some sort. She needs to accept help from someone other than you.’

‘Everyone we try just ends up walking out on her. She’s a nightmare, but she’s my nightmare. Anyway, she gets worried when she doesn’t see me.’

‘No wonder you’re single, you won’t even give yourself a chance at a normal bloody life.’

‘You’ve supposedly got a life, Brown, and yet you’re still single, what does that say?’

‘I’m a lone wolf. It’s a choice, you can’t harness this beast. It wouldn’t be fair to all the others. Besides, me being single isn’t a consolation prize, this is how I choose to live my life.’

‘Yeah, well, this is how I choose to live mine.’

‘I think I saw a burger van up at the intersection, I’m going to grab something on the go then talk to some of the charming residents of this street, see if they saw anything. You sure you don’t want a nice fat juicy burger all dripping with fat and cheese?’

‘As appetising as that sounds, no thanks.’ She smiled and walked out.

As Imogen turned the key in the lock to her mother’s place, she could smell burning. She rushed into the kitchen and saw smoke. There was a blackened pan on the stove, full of four burst boiled eggs and no water. Her mother must have put them on well over an hour ago. Imogen looked up at the fire alarm; it was smashed to pieces where her mother had obviously attacked it with the broom. That was the second one this month. Imogen would have to get on to their handyman about fixing it.

‘Hey, Mum, I brought you some fish and chips.’

‘You’re abandoning me, aren’t you? You’re always banging on at me about my cholesterol levels but today you bring me fish and chips,’ Irene said.

‘You should have been a detective,’ Imogen replied as she threw the greasy parcel on the only available part of the kitchen counter and searched the cupboards for a clean plate. She should stay and wash up; the stagnant water in the sink was overflowing with almost every item of crockery her mother owned. Flies hovered over the surface. She made a mental note to get her mother paper plates from now on.

‘Where are you going?’

‘I have a date,’ Imogen lied, looking around the room. It was filthy; she could feel her skin crawling. God only knew what bacteria were in the air. Imogen almost wished she was back at the crime scene. She’d have to phone a cleaner at the same time as the handyman.

‘A date?’ Irene’s eyes lit up. ‘With a man?’

‘No, with a buffalo.’

‘Thank God, I was starting to think you were …’

‘Yes, I know what you thought.’

‘Is he a criminal? You haven’t gone and fallen for someone you arrested?’

‘No, he’s not a criminal.’ Imogen tipped the fish and chips out on to a plate. She hastily squirted ketchup on to the side and then handed the plate to her mother.

‘I don’t like tomato sauce.’

‘Then why do you buy it?’ Imogen walked away, wiping her greasy hands on an even greasier kitchen towel. Irene was stalling, but Imogen didn’t care. She wasn’t going to be emotionally blackmailed into staying for her mother’s own personal amusement; she did have a life, despite what Sam thought. She knew it was only a matter of time before the name-calling began, before Irene tried to make her feel like shit as per usual. She was going to make sure that she was out the door before her mother got the chance.

A little while later, away from the chaos of her mother’s house, Imogen pulled up outside Plymouth Police Station and looked at herself in the rear-view mirror. She pulled out her mascara and reapplied it.

She walked in and sat at her desk, before pulling out the relevant forms for her report about the dead girl. She looked over at Sam’s desk. He was long gone already, a discoloured apple core lying on top of the crime scene photos. It can’t have been his, she was pretty sure he was allergic to anything that wasn’t processed or dripping in trans-fats. She leaned over and picked up the photos, tossing the core in the bin. Something about apple cores made her feel sick, maybe it was the myriad of tooth marks and the knowledge of all the saliva and forensics that put her off. Since spending a weekend on a forensics seminar she had been put off a lot of things. Apple cores, hotel rooms, the backs of taxis. They were all very evidence heavy, in the form of bodily fluids.

She looked at the images of the girl. As she stared, the phrase ‘There but for the grace of God,’ sprang into her head. She wasn’t a religious person, but she appreciated that particular sentiment. It could have easily been her who was lying face down in her own excrement and vomit. These things happen gradually. You make one bad decision, then another, each one slightly more fucked up and soul destroying than the last. Then bam, before you know it you’re an addict; willing to do absolutely anything to get that next fix. It wasn’t lost on Imogen; if she thought about it she could probably pinpoint the exact moments in her life where she had fought with herself to make the right decision. Where, thanks to God or whoever else was in charge that day, she hadn’t had the overwhelming urge to self-sabotage. She’d had the opportunities, she just knew that there were some decisions you couldn’t come back from. She was grateful, because it was in her DNA to mess up; it was genetic, hereditary. At least that’s what it felt like. Not for the first time, she wondered about her father – what had he been like? Had he too had the same streak as her mother, that awful capacity to self-destruct? She’d never known him. She never would.

‘Detective Grey?’ DCI David Stanton’s voice snapped her out of her trance; she put the photos down and turned around. He stood in the doorway to his office, looking sullen and stern like he always did. Sullen and stern, but undoubtedly attractive. Imogen felt her stomach flip slightly.

‘Sir?’

‘My office!’

She walked across the room, aware that the sound of her heels carried, hoping no one would look up. The day was coming to an end; only the brown-nosers would be around now. The brown-nosers and her. She stood to attention as Stanton closed the door behind her. Her boss was a tall man, a good few inches over six foot. He had medium-brown hair with flashes of grey at the temples and he was never completely clean-shaven, almost, but not completely.

‘Is there a problem, sir?’

‘I thought you were gone for the day?’

‘Just wanted to get my paperwork done tonight, sir. You know, while it was fresh in my mind.’

‘I admire that work ethic, Grey.’ He walked back around and released the shutter on the blind. ‘It couldn’t wait till tomorrow?’

‘It could have, yes.’

He was a foot taller than her. She could feel his warm breath brush the top of her ear as he stood behind her, close but not touching.

‘So, why are you really here?’ he whispered. The hairs on the back of her neck stood on end, her skin prickled as he said the words. She could feel his body heat, he was right there, right behind her. She wanted him to throw her down on to the desk.

‘I’m not sure, sir,’ said Imogen at last.

‘Stop calling me sir, Imogen.’

He was really close now, as close as it was possible to be without contact. She could feel the desire in him, feel his temperature rising. They were touching without touching, longing to put skin on skin. To feel fingers tracing the lines of each other’s body, to kiss, to lick, to bite. Their flirtation had almost reached breaking point. How much longer could they play this game?

‘What should I call you, then?’ she asked quietly, suggestively. Every part of him was leaning towards her. She was delirious with excitement and anticipation. As he leaned closer still, there was a sudden knock at the door and she felt Stanton take an abrupt step backwards. The spell was broken.

‘Come in,’ he said, clearing his throat, moving away from her. Imogen swallowed hard, trying to slow her heart rate back down.

The door opened as Stanton smoothed his tie and sat down behind his desk, in an obvious attempt to hide his stimulated body. He didn’t look at Imogen.

Jamie, the desk sergeant, entered and handed a file to Stanton.

‘Thanks, Jamie. Detective Grey—’ He looked up at her. She could feel the heat in her cheeks. ‘You can go home now; finish your paperwork tomorrow. You’re done for tonight.’

Imogen nodded. Without making eye contact with him, she walked out of his office and grabbed her stuff from her desk. Looking back once, she saw Stanton putting his jacket on, shrugging his arms into the sleeves. She forced herself to look away. She needed to get home, and she needed a cold shower.

Chapter 8: The Goddess
Plymouth, two years earlier

Imogen and Sam walked into the pathologist’s office. The dead girl was laid out on the slab. She was cleaner, her hair was brushed and she looked almost peaceful. Imogen was glad that she had finally been treated with some respect.

‘So what’s the verdict, doc? Do we know who she is or what killed her?’ Sam asked the pathologist.

‘Overdose of epic proportions; she took something pretty horrific. There’s no hits in the database for her DNA. I sent her pics over to missing persons already. You’ll have to check with them,’ Dr Carol Foster said.

‘Did you do a rape kit?’ Imogen asked.

‘No obvious signs of sexual assault,’ Foster said. ‘But there is something. She has some scarring that indicates that she’s given birth, at least once, but possibly multiple times.’

‘How old do you think she is?’ Imogen asked.

‘Twenty if she’s a day. God only knows. She’s been through a hell of a lot. She could be younger.’ They all stood over the body staring, each lost in their own ruminations.

‘What about the toxicology report?’ Brown interrupted.

‘Well, it seems to be a crystal meth-like compound, but it’s got something else in it, I’ve not seen anything like it before. The full report will take a while,’ Foster said, obviously grateful for the return to science. Anything to avoid getting emotional over a case.

‘Is there anything else?’ Imogen asked.

‘Actually, yes.’ Foster walked over to the girl and lifted her hand. ‘She has the remnants of a UV stamp on her hand; I think it’s entry to some sort of nightclub.’

‘Let me see,’ Imogen said, leaning forward as the doctor shone the light on the girl’s left hand.

‘I know that stamp! It’s for Aphrodite’s, that club down town,’ Sam said immediately.

‘Aphrodite’s?’

‘Yeah, it’s owned by that Greek family. Bit of a dive.’

‘Never heard of it.’ Imogen shrugged.

‘Not being funny, Grey, but that’s kind of an endorsement in itself. When was the last time you went to a nightclub?’

‘Aphrodite? The Goddess of Love – is it a strip club?’ She wouldn’t be surprised if Sam knew all about the local strip clubs – some of the comments he made on a daily basis had her working hard to resist punching him in the face.

‘No, but I’ve heard rumours about the things that go on behind the scenes there – you know, bung the manager a few quid and he’ll arrange for some extra entertainment out back.’ Sam let out a big cheesy smile as he spoke.

‘Underage?’ Imogen asked.

‘Nah, just the usual skanks.’

‘That’s really nice, Brown. Skanks are people too.’ Imogen shook her head.

‘Whatever you say.’ Sam was indifferent as usual, lifting the blanket and checking out the rest of the girl’s body.

Imogen shook her head. She could never quite discern if this was all part of her partner’s bravado act, or if he really was just a misogynistic pig.

‘Is that where they got the drugs do you think? The nightclub?’

‘I don’t know, but let’s check it out.’

Aphrodite’s was a pink and red monstrosity, a stone’s throw from the infamous Union Street in Plymouth. The club was clearly trying to cash in on the vintage retro mania that was taking over the town, and yet somehow it missed the mark entirely. It was a clash of red leather booths and deep pink walls, mosaic mirror tiles almost wall to wall, and everything else was made of shiny black surfaces. There was an overriding theme of pink flamingos, and the male bar staff wore Hawaiian shirts while the women wore fifties-inspired dresses that looked more like swimsuits, and left very little to the imagination. There were poles dotted around the room, but maybe they were just for show. There was definitely an undertone of sleaze about the place. Imogen didn’t even want to think about what was going on behind the scenes.

‘We’re not open yet!’ a man called out from behind the bar.

‘I’m Detective Brown and this is Detective Grey.’ Sam pulled out his badge as they walked across the room and leaned against the bar.

‘Really? Those are your real names? Or are you just Tarantino fans?’ the barman asked, looking Imogen up and down.

Imogen looked at Sam and he shrugged.

‘Reservoir Dogs, you know, Mr Pink and Mr Orange, stuck in the middle, the world’s smallest violin?’ Another voice came from the end of the bar. There was a man sitting there holding a scotch, one eyebrow raised at them. He wasn’t wearing the bar staff uniform.

Imogen shrugged. ‘We need to show you a picture. We have a body in our morgue that needs identifying, and the victim had a stamp on her hand from this place.’ She walked over to the man with the scotch; he seemed comfortable, like he spent a lot of time there.

Sam wandered off in the opposite direction, looking around the club.

‘OK, let me see your ID first, please. Can never be too careful around here.’ He smiled and held his hand out. He had toffee-coloured hair and a natural tan. His eyes were amber and green with a sort of Clint Eastwood squint that was incredibly distracting. She imagined he spent a lot of time staring menacingly into the distance.

Imogen reached into her pocket and pulled out her wallet, holding it up for the man to see her ID. He took the card from her hand.

‘Imogen. That’s a pretty name.’ He tilted his head and looked at her; unlike the barman, he didn’t break eye contact. He stood up slowly, keeping his eyes fixed firmly on hers, and moved closer to place the ID back in her hand. ‘How can I help you, Imogen?’

She wasn’t sure if he was trying to intimidate her or flirt with her. His eyes were dancing and he had the most confident smirk she’d ever seen. Imogen cleared her throat.

‘You can start by telling me your name.’

‘My name is Dean. Do you want my number, too?’ He grinned, the furrow in his brow relaxing.

‘I want you to look at this picture and tell me if you recognise the girl.’

She pulled the photo out of her pocket and handed it to him. He briefly shifted his gaze from her to the photo before handing it back.

‘Sorry, I don’t know her.’

‘Are you sure? Are you the manager here, Dean?’

‘I’m afraid not, just passing through.’ He looked at her and smiled, softer this time. When she looked into his eyes she could see the hardness behind the smile. She blinked and looked away, unsure what his pull was. She decided it was best to avoid eye contact with him for now. Something about him was deeply unsettling.

‘Do you know the proprietor, Elias Papas?’ She saw him flinch.

‘I know him, yeah; he’s not here much though. He’s more of a silent manager.’

‘What about his brother, Antonis Papas?’ She was almost certain he was trying to hide a sneer as he drank from his glass, avoiding the question entirely. From what she’d guess, he knew him all right, and he didn’t like him.

‘You’re sure you don’t know the girl?’ Sam appeared by Imogen’s side, his eyes fixed on Dean. Imogen hadn’t even noticed him approaching. Dean’s eyes were still on hers; she wasn’t looking at him but she could feel him grinning at her discomfort.

‘Best I can tell you is we have a ladies night here on Thursdays, it’s more than likely she was here then.’

‘We? I thought you were just passing through?’ Imogen said.

‘It’s a figure of speech.’

‘Sure it is.’

‘Do these cameras work? Wait, don’t answer that, I’m going to use my special psychic powers and say they don’t,’ Sam scoffed.

‘I believe they’re out of order at the moment, but you’d have to check that with George over there. He works here. George! Come here!’ The uniformed barman walked over to them and smiled. Dean held out his hand for the photograph again, and passed it to his colleague. ‘George, you seen this girl?’

‘No, sir, I haven’t.’ The barman shook his head.

‘Sir?’ Imogen smiled. Passing through my ass, she thought to herself. ‘Is that a figure of speech, too?’

‘Would you believe me if I said yes?’ Dean said.

‘My instinct is telling me you’re pretty liberal with the truth,’ she said. He was leaning towards her, dangerously close.

‘Do they teach you how to read people in detective school?’ Dean smiled at her and moved backwards, returning to his drink. Imogen took the photo from George, and returned it to her wallet.

‘George, are the cameras in here working at the moment?’

‘I’m sorry, Detective, they aren’t.’

‘Well,’ she shook her head. ‘Thanks for nothing, guys.’

Dean pulled out a business card and handed it to Imogen. She glanced down at his name: Dean Kinkaid.

‘Shouldn’t you give me one of yours, you know, in case I think of anything?’

Reluctantly, Imogen pulled out one of her cards and handed it to him. She was already certain that this was not the last she’d see of him. She couldn’t figure out how important he was. Generally speaking, people stick to their own and there was nothing Greek about Dean Kinkaid, not with his green eyes and dark sandy hair. His name suggested Irish origins. Maybe he would be useful in the future; it was easier to flip someone who wasn’t blood loyal.

Chapter 9: The Lover
The present

The first thing Bridget could feel was her leg. It was throbbing, beats of pain working their way through her body. She opened her palm and touched the surface underneath her; it wasn’t the muddy riverbank that she’d fallen asleep on. It was a bed.

My head is killing me. She opened her eyes. As they adjusted to the light, she saw a sliver of sunshine peeking from the far corner of the room. From her surroundings she discerned that she was in a basement or cellar of some kind, below street level, that was for sure. She could see where the grate led up to the road; she could also see the shadows of people’s feet as they occasionally walked over the glass bricks. Where the hell am I? She looked down and saw that her leg had been bandaged. She no longer had the tracksuit bottoms on, just her underwear and a hooded jacket, the one she’d taken from the brothel. It gaped open; instinctively she pulled it closed. She felt groggy, as though she was hungover, but she hadn’t been drinking the night before so it was probably just from the swim and the water. The room smelled of damp, with torn, filthy wallpaper falling away from the walls. There was a wrought-iron bed and a Persian rug. There was also a large standard lamp with a pink lampshade, almost exactly like one her grandmother used to have. In the corner sat a yellowing kidney-shaped dressing table with a brush and a handheld mirror laid out on the surface. There was even a picture hanging above the bed. It looked like someone’s bedroom.

She swung her legs over the side and stood up. Dizziness forced her back down and she stared at her hands for a moment. They didn’t look like her hands. She ran to the metal door on the far wall, her leg protesting as she moved. Bridget tried in vain to push it, pull it, anything, but it wouldn’t open. The window was the same, frosted and thick, there was no way out. There was a piece of fabric hanging in the corner, she walked over and saw a dirty old toilet behind the curtain. This room felt as though it had been made just for her. She tried to think. Surely whoever had put her here wouldn’t have gone to all this trouble if they were going to kill her straight away.

Her head was thumping now, the air was stale and she could feel the damp coating the walls of her throat as she breathed in. There was a vent in the corner above the door, she raised her hand to it but couldn’t feel any airflow at all. Where were the rest of her clothes? She glanced around, spotting her tracksuit bottoms folded at the end of the bed. She rushed over and pulled them on. They were clean, and smelled of washing powder. It was warm down here, wherever here was. There was a half-empty bottle of mineral water by the bedside table; she grabbed it and drank thirstily. What’s that funny taste? Perhaps the man who’d been chasing her had caught up to her at the riverbank. Could he have carried her to a car and then taken her back into the city? She felt the foundations of the place vibrate, and wondered if she was near a train station. Was she even still in Exeter?

There was no way out. Bridget banged on the door, but it was thick and made barely any noise. She moved her fingers along the walls to see if any of the exposed bricks were loose, but they all held tight. She looked at her hands again. When she was a child, Bridget would often get put in her room as punishment. Her current surroundings were strangely reminiscent of that room, right down to the bad seventies painting hanging over the bed. When she was grounded by her father, Bridget’s brother would sneak treats in to her and she would stay there with no television, no contact with the family. Her father’s strictness had been reflected in his own police work; he was part of the reason she’d joined the force in the first place. She could deal with this. She would find a way out eventually. She knew she would.

Bridget suddenly heard the sound of a key turning in the lock. She hobbled back over to the bed and lay down, closing her eyes almost fully. She needed to get some information; she needed to see what she was dealing with. The blurred image of a man walked into the room. She wasn’t sure why, but she wasn’t scared. Immediately and without reason, she felt that she could trust him. It was the strangest feeling, going against all her police training. She sat up.

‘You’re awake?’ The man had a tray of food with him. He put it on the chair next to the bed and sat down next to her. A thought popped into Bridget’s head: you’re not Sam. The stranger brushed the hair out of her face and kissed her on the cheek.

‘Why am I here?’ Her voice sounded strange to her ears.

‘I’m sorry Bridget, I’m just trying to keep you safe. Remember, I am always on your side.’

‘I need to get in touch with Sam.’

‘I spoke to Sam. He’s going to come for you when he can, for now he told me to tell you to stay put.’

‘He did?’ She was confused. ‘Can I call him?’

‘I can’t let you use a phone, I’ve told you, they’re always watching us.’ He pointed to a camera she hadn’t noticed in the darkened corner near the window. ‘When I can, I will get you out of here to safety. I’m sorry, my beautiful girl.’ He put his hand on her shoulder; to her surprise it felt good, comforting. ‘You should eat. Keep your strength up.’

She looked at the plate of food on the tray. Whoever this man was, he knew what she liked. Lucozade was her comfort drink, her brother used to buy a bottle of it on his way home from school and smuggle it in to her if she was grounded. There was a red apple too; she loved red apples, as a child she would take out the pips and make pictures with them. She and her brother had invented their own secret language using the pips, leaving each other hidden messages around the room. There was also a yogurt with a spoon, and a chicken salad sandwich with mayonnaise and mustard on granary bread: perfect. How could he know these things?

The man smiled at her. He moved his hand around her back and pulled her closer to him, lowering his lips to hers. Her thoughts blurred: I can’t remember your name. She kissed him back, his lips were so soft and he tasted of cigarettes. Hazily, Bridget put her hand up to his face and stroked his cheek. He kissed her hard, pushing her on to the bed. She clawed at his clothes, desperate for the feeling of security she somehow knew she would get from being in his arms. She pulled her underpants off and they slipped under the covers together. Bridget climbed on top of him; the weight of his body was making her leg ache. Quickly, she unzipped her top and he put his hands on her, moving them up and down her body. God, this felt good.

As they moved together, Bridget was overcome by a wish for the man to stay with her, but somehow she knew that this was just a stolen moment, that they didn’t have much time. This man was protecting her, he couldn’t be her captor. Her whole body felt as though it was on fire. She had never felt like this with Sam. Had she?

When he was done, the man stood up and pulled his trousers back on, doing up his flies as he stared down at her on the bed. He handed her the hooded sweatshirt back and Bridget wrapped it around herself. He smiled at her and went behind the curtain to use the bathroom; Bridget picked up the sandwich, and ate the whole thing in a few bites. Leaving the yogurt, she picked up the spoon, put it in her pocket and thirstily drank the Lucozade. The man came back to the bed. He grabbed a bag from the side of the room, rummaged inside it and handed her a bottle of water. She took it gratefully.

‘I’ll come back soon. I promise.’ He went to the door and then turned back. ‘I forgot, you need to take your antibiotics, you don’t want your leg to get infected.’

He pulled a tub of pills out of his pocket and handed her two. She placed the pills on her tongue and washed them down with the water. She immediately needed the toilet. When she emerged from behind the curtain, the man was gone, along with the empty tray. He’d taken the apple back too.

Bridget ran to the door and pulled on the handle. It was locked. She sat back on the bed as a wave of dizziness washed over her. She shouldn’t have taken those pills. What was the matter with her? She had an overwhelming urge to sleep again; she lifted her knee on to the bed and started to undo the bandage. The wound wasn’t as bad as she thought it would be, it was scabbing over already. It had felt so deep when it had happened. The memory of cutting it by the river seemed distant now, as though it was slipping further and further away from her.

There was a sudden scratching noise in the room. Bridget turned her head. It was coming from the corner behind her, it sounded as though someone was clawing at the wall. But it wasn’t a person; to her surprise there was a dog sitting there. It looked strangely familiar; with its brown and white markings, it looked like her old dog, Wilberforce. He was scratching at the concrete floor in the corner, trying to dig his way out. The sound of his panting was comforting to her, like an old friend, a reminder that she wasn’t alone.

‘Hey, doggy!’ she called out.

How did he get in here?

The dog turned around and dashed over, sitting obediently at the side of the bed and breathing excitedly in her face. She didn’t know how it was possible, but this was Wilberforce, it had to be – he had a bone-shaped brass tag on his collar with a big W engraved on it. Wilberforce had died when Bridget was just thirteen years old. She was dreaming. She must be. As Bridget stared, the dog lay down on the ground and started to wheeze. She watched him struggle for breath, remembering the day they had found him dead – knocked over by a car in the street. To her horror, she realised that it was happening again, before her eyes – the blood was oozing out from underneath him. The puddle of blood was spreading, carpeting the floor, beginning to rise. Bridget began to panic. What was in those pills? She lay down, trying to steady herself, trying to keep a hold of her thoughts.

‘It’s not real, it’s not real,’ she repeated over and over to herself.

Bridget lay on the bed, red water now lapping at her sides. It was splashing on to the throw. She could taste it in her mouth as the waves got more and more aggressive. Her hands, her hands were red. Was this some form of latent guilt for what had happened to Dee? If only she had been watching, then Dee would still be alive. I’m so sorry, Dee. It’s not real, it’s not real.

The bed rocked. Bridget lay as still as she could. The sensation reminded her of when she was a child, when she used to play hide and seek with her mother. She would lie under the duvet, keeping totally still as her mother frantically searched the house for her; to this day she didn’t know if she really couldn’t see her under there or if her mother had just been playing along. The first explanation was more likely. Finally, the rocking stopped. Time seemed to stretch. Bridget cautiously opened her eyes; sure enough, the red water was gone, taking Wilberforce with it. The room had returned to normal, and apart from a banging headache, Bridget felt calm again.

She re-wrapped the gash on her leg and lowered herself off the bed, grabbing the stool from under the dressing table and taking it over to the camera, trying to stay out of its view. She got on to the stool and reached for the camera, pulling at the wire that snaked from the side. It came loose. It wasn’t attached to anything, it had already been cut. It was just for show. Why did he tell me they were watching?

Safe in the knowledge that she wasn’t being watched, Bridget grabbed the baseboard of the bed and pulled it towards her. It was heavy but she was determined. Her leg throbbed. Her brain began to feel patchy, as though her memory was slipping away. She felt in her pocket for the spoon she’d taken from the tray. She would use it to scratch a message into the floor, in case she forgot everything again. She couldn’t put it anywhere too obvious. She walked to the end of the bed and then she saw it. Her blood ran cold.

There was a message there already. Lying next to the words was a metal spoon, the end of it worn down to almost nothing. Her name was carved into the floor, again and again, the handwriting growing more and more manic as the words stacked up. She had been here for a while. She had done this before. What was wrong with her memory?

Bridget got down on her knees and started to scribble her name once more. Over and over. Her hand began to ache. Her head hurt and she felt nauseated. Who the hell was that man? The man that had made her feel so good, who she had wanted to stay with her. Who she had wanted to sleep with? She searched her mind for a name. Nothing happened. She couldn’t find it. Was he another hallucination? What the hell were those pills? She hoped to God she would remember. She didn’t want to go to sleep again for fear of forgetting everything. God knew how many times she had forgotten all this before. She lay down and clutched at her head, hoping to stop the spinning. Her eyes grew heavy and sleep drew closer. It was pulling her down, down into the darkness …

Chapter 10: The Scarred
The present

Imogen stumbled around the bathroom in the morning half-light. She thought about running herself a hot bath, but she didn’t want to lie in the water looking at the remnants of her stomach wound. Since leaving Plymouth, she’d found baths harder, preferring to shower so that she couldn’t see her body. Although the scar was pink and faded she liked to pretend it wasn’t there. The scar wasn’t the only thing: if she looked down, she could just see the bullet wound she’d sustained in the schoolteacher case too. It had healed in the last few weeks, forming a neat plum circle. Somehow, that one hurt less; it didn’t give her the same amount of trauma as the injury she’d sustained in Plymouth. She closed her eyes, the memory of what had happened rushing back. Leaving Plymouth. Transferring to Exeter. Sam. The scar.

Imogen turned on the shower. She had to keep going. These days, she spent hours every morning smacking the shit out of the punching bag she’d installed in her garden. Rain or shine, she was out there kicking and punching her way back to work. Still, she couldn’t look at herself until the towel was securely around her, hiding her embarrassment. Twice now she had almost been killed. Twice she had failed at her job. Twice she had needed rescuing. Never again. She picked up her baggy combat trousers and loose-fitting raglan t-shirt and got ready for work.

When Imogen arrived at Adrian’s house there was no answer. She knew he was home; his bike was still chained up to the front railings. She banged on the door again and saw the blinds upstairs twitch before hearing thumping on the stairs. The door swung open and he appeared, shielding his eyes from the sunlight that poured through the door.

‘Have a good night?’ She smiled. Adrian groaned.

‘What time is it?’

‘Time to go, Miley, get dressed.’ She looked down at his trousers, pulled up but not done up, socks and shirt in his hand.

‘How’s my car?’ Adrian had given Imogen his car after crashing in her own at the end of the last case they’d worked on together. The sort of thing Sam would never have done. Adrian was a better partner in so many ways.

‘Hideous, Miley, but I do appreciate it. I need to get something a little less middle-aged-travelling-salesman though.’

‘You leave her alone.’ He pulled his shirt over his head, still buttoned up from the day before.

‘I’m going car shopping this weekend; you’re welcome to help me out.’ Imogen heard the toilet flush upstairs and Miles looked away sheepishly. Imogen raised an eyebrow. She knew exactly what had made him sleep in late this morning. He pulled on his boots and grabbed his keys.

‘I think I’ve got Tom this weekend.’

‘Bring him along, he probably knows more about cars than you.’

‘Hey! I’ve taught my son everything he knows.’

‘If you say so.’ She walked over to his car and got in.

‘Didn’t you lock it?’ Miles asked.

‘Trust me, I could leave the engine running and the door open and no one would steal this piece of crap, Miley. No offence.’

Adrian and Imogen walked into the station to find DCI Fraser trying to catch their attention without anyone else noticing, raising his eyebrows at them across the room. He looked so shifty that they couldn’t help smirking at each other. Fraser was one of the few people that Adrian trusted, as much as he trusted anyone. Not quite unconditionally, but there was an innocence about him, with his constantly raised eyebrows as if he had just been told something very surprising indeed and he just couldn’t wait to tell the next person he bumped into, confidentiality be damned. Upon entering his office they closed the door.

‘Forensics are down by the river at the moment scouring the place. There’s a lot of pressure from above to find this Bridget girl in one piece. Apart from anything else, we have a lot of questions for her.’

‘What’s with all the subterfuge?’

‘I know your ex-partner has a vested interest in this, Imogen … I mean, Grey … and I know he thinks he’s heading the investigation, but he isn’t. For starters, her being his girlfriend means that he’s way too close to this, and secondly, we don’t know his involvement at this point. The fact is, we have to treat him as a suspect in her disappearance.’

‘I think that’s wise, sir,’ Imogen snorted.

‘I don’t know exactly what happened at your old station, Grey …’ He looked at Adrian.

‘It’s OK. You can talk in front of him.’

‘I know you claimed that DS Brown was instrumental in an attack you sustained and I know about the restraining order. If you don’t want him in this office, I can arrange for him to come for briefings when you’re out. I wish I could keep him away altogether but we need to keep him close, at least for the time being. We need to find DS Reid.’

‘No, it’s fine. I can deal with it.’ She looked embarrassed at this concession. ‘But thank you.’

‘So what’s the plan then, Fraser?’ Adrian asked, trying to divert the attention away from Imogen.

‘The plan is we find her. They’ve gone over the riverbank near the pub where she was supposed to meet Brown, but they can’t see anything. A car was reported stolen near her place and found near the river – we’re just confirming the forensics but it looks as though it was definitely her. We’re looking a bit nearer to the bank now as she was most likely on foot the rest of the way.’

‘What about us? What do we do?’

‘The usual. Go over her phone records. Request any private CCTV footage from the area. Sam said she had a camera set up in her room to record stuff going on, in case she had a run in with anyone important. I will liaise with Brown, so any information you get comes to me first, OK?’

‘I thought all her Johns were fake? Informants and plants.’

‘We’re a bit blind at the moment. All we have are second-hand accounts of what went on. The tech guys have her laptop, so you can go see Gary Tunney if you want.’

‘Thank you, sir.’

‘Oh, and just to let you know, Tunney’s transfer is official as of next week. He will be our very own computer forensic nerd. With us full time.’ He gave them a thumbs up.

‘Good to know,’ Adrian said as they left, heading straight for the laptop.

Chapter 11: The Boat
The present

‘What have you found?’ Adrian asked Tunney, who was fiddling around with Bridget Reid’s computer.

‘Well, she had a motion-activated camera in the brothel, so every time she, or anyone else, came into the room the camera switched on, recorded what happened, and sent the info straight back to this hard drive, which is time and date stamped. It’s more sophisticated than a lot of surveillance equipment, and from looking around on her laptop I can see that she knew her way around technology. Which obviously helps us out.’

‘Did you know her?’ Imogen asked.

‘She came to my lab once, yeah, she was a smart cookie.’

‘Let’s not use past tense just yet,’ Adrian interjected.

‘So did you watch any of the footage?’

‘I did, and it’s a lot of her on her own in her room; when a guy visits she locks the door and they just sit around with loud music on.’

‘Anything else?’

‘Well the girl from upstairs comes in and takes clothes, goes through her stuff when she’s out, bit of a magpie, I think. Don’t see much of her actual flatmate except when they’re in there together.’

‘What about Sam?’ Imogen asked.

‘Friday night regular. Under the covers stuff. Obviously they both know the camera’s there and so …’

‘So they’re in bed together?’

‘Yeah, a lot of whispering and stuff. I don’t know about anything else. Seemed kinda wrong to watch any of the sexy stuff. So I just forwarded through it, nothing of much interest there. I mean … well you know what I mean.’

‘Someone’s going to have to watch it.’ Imogen pulled a face.

‘I’ll watch it. I don’t know him so I can be more objective,’ Adrian offered.

‘So she doesn’t talk about any information she might have gained in these Friday night meetings?’

‘Nope, all her communications are via encrypted email, like seriously encrypted. She had some skills. I mean has,’ Tunney corrected himself as Adrian shot him a look.

‘Anything else on the drive we should know about? Footage of the murders’d be a hell of a bonus.’

‘Well, there is an anomaly in the metadata; I think there are some videos missing from the file.’

‘Can you find those videos?’

‘Short answer is yes.’

‘What’s the long answer?’

‘It’s going to take me some time. Like I said, she has skills.’

‘And it’s not possible these videos are just clips of her and Sam?’ Imogen asked, a slight grimace on her face.

‘Well, she left those in, so it seems unlikely it’s just that.’

‘But she’s the one who will have deleted the files?’

‘Yeah, but this isn’t as simple as just clicking delete, she’ll have had to work to get rid of that data. After a point the information gets sent to whichever tech is dealing with her stuff, my guess is she didn’t want them seeing it.’

‘You’d better find that data then.’

Adrian’s phone beeped and he looked at the message. Fraser.

‘Fraser has the CCTV from all the cameras at the riverbank, all the ones that are working at least. He says they’ve found something.’

Thanking Tunney, Imogen and Adrian set off back to Fraser’s office. On the way up, Imogen looked around the corridor to make sure they were alone. She put a hand on Adrian’s arm, clearly agitated.

‘I know what Sam’s been saying, Miley, but I don’t trust him. There are a lot of things he isn’t telling us. Believe me, he was my partner, I know. He isn’t – he isn’t a good person. He’s hiding things.’

‘Well, it’s a classified operation. There must be things he can’t tell us.’

‘I worked with him, Miley, and I know when he’s lying. I wouldn’t be surprised if it was him who deleted those files, whatever they are.’

‘Does he have those kinds of computer skills?’ Adrian asked her, surprised.

‘He could have had help.’

‘Well, Tunney is on the case.’

‘I’m just letting you know that you can’t believe a word that comes out of Sam’s mouth.’

‘Are you OK, Grey?’

‘Really?’ She looked as though he had just spat on her face.

‘I mean … you seem really upset. I don’t know this guy as well as you do, but look – he’s still working, he can’t be as bent as you’re thinking. Are you sure this isn’t paranoia getting the better of you?’

‘Fuck you!’ She pushed him hard and he slammed against the wall. It didn’t take a detective to realise she was upset.

Adrian knew that feeling and made a deal with himself not to be such a prick in the future. He remembered how people called him paranoid at times when he started spiralling out of control, and it did nothing but make him worse. He wouldn’t do that to Imogen. She had just got back to work; he should give her a break.

In Fraser’s office, the three of them gathered around the CCTV. They saw Bridget running terrified into the park and hiding inside a children’s adventure castle. They saw a man coming down to the river and looking for her, getting close and then going the wrong way.

‘Why doesn’t she go to one of the flats or something?’ Imogen asked, leaning in to look closer at the screen. Adrian had already tried that and it was no use, the faces were a blur. As they watched, a car pulled into the shot and the fuzzy figure of Bridget slipped into the water, clinging to the side of the river and moving along the bank.

‘She must be fucking freezing.’ Adrian felt cold just watching it.

‘Yeah but she’s alive, that’s something,’ Fraser offered.

‘What’s that?’ Imogen pointed to the screen.

‘What?’

‘Look, the boat, that one there, it’s moving.’

They watched as Bridget disappeared down the river, a few moments later the boat Imogen was pointing to started to follow her, moving in the same direction.

‘Can you read the name on that boat?’ Fraser asked hopefully. ‘It would be great if I can tell the press something.’

‘No, but it’s got those distinctive stripes on it. We’ll go down and have a look, see what’s what.’

‘What do you think they’re doing? Do you think this is an opportunistic attack?’

‘I don’t know, maybe it’s a coincidence that this boat is travelling in the same direction as she is.’

‘I don’t believe in coincidences,’ Adrian said, moving towards the door.

‘Well, whatever’s going on here, there’s a good chance the guy in the boat saw something.’

‘I know how much you like the water, Grey. Let’s go,’ Adrian said, trying to crack the frosty atmosphere. He knew Imogen didn’t have any sea legs.

‘I’ll get on to the company that handles the boats down there, see if I can get a list of the owners,’ Fraser said.

The boat was surprisingly easy to find. Glitterbug was a small blue ship with two stripes of different thicknesses; Imogen and Adrian found it moored near the spot where it had been in the video footage. Adrian watched as Imogen approached the boat first, peering inside.

‘I think there’s someone in there,’ she said finally. ‘I think I hear a radio or something.’

Adrian stepped aboard and offered his hand to Imogen. He banged on the cabin door and heard shuffling coming from inside. The door opened and a man peered out. Adrian held his badge up.

‘I’m DS Miles and this is my partner, DS Grey of the Exeter Police Force. We’re making inquiries about something that may have happened here on Friday night. CCTV in the area saw that you were on your boat. A police officer went missing.’

‘Oh, do you mean the girl in the water?’ The man stepped out on to the deck.

‘You saw her?’ Imogen asked.

‘Yeah, I did, I dunno what she was doing. I thought she was hammered. I was going to call someone but I didn’t want to get involved, you know?’

‘So what did you do?’

‘Well, I followed her a bit in the boat, but it got too dark to see and I didn’t want to hit her. I called out a few times but no one answered. It’s not very well lit the further down you go.’

‘You still didn’t call the police?’

‘You see all kinds of crazy shit down here, kids mucking about, pissheads and stuff. I just figured she was fine.’

Imogen was shaking her head furiously. She pulled out her phone and started texting someone, her fingers flying over the keys.

‘What were you doing on your boat so late anyway?’ Adrian asked, resting a hand against the door of the cabin.

‘I just like it at night, it’s usually quiet and no one bothers me down here.’

‘Did you see anyone besides the girl?’

‘Not at first, no, but I did see a silver car come and look around.’

‘Did you see anyone in the car?’

‘There was only one bloke in it, I think.’

The detectives exchanged looks. If there was only one person in the car then it couldn’t have been the men from earlier, unless one of them had come back on his own. Or maybe it was Sam Brown. Imogen’s phone beeped.

‘Do you know what kind of car it was?’ she asked the man, her eyes on the phone screen.

‘A saloon, that’s about all I can tell you; like I say, it was really dark and I wasn’t exactly close.’

‘Anything else you remember about the car? Anything at all?’

‘No, I’m sorry. Nothing.’

A phone started to ring on the boat and Imogen looked past the man into the darkness of the cabin. The ringtone was coming from inside.

‘Hmm,’ Imogen said, holding up her mobile, ‘I just dialled DS Bridget Reid’s phone. That’s interesting. You want to tell me why you have it?’

Adrian immediately pushed past the man before he had a chance to react. He went into the cabin and found the vibrating phone resting on a little table to the left of the door. The man raised his hands up.

‘Look, look, OK, I found it in the park. I had no idea it belonged to the girl in the water. How could I?’

‘We’re going to need you to come in and make a statement.’

For a moment, the man looked as though he might be going to resist, but then he nodded. ‘No problem, anything to help the police.’

The detectives watched closely as he locked the cabin door, and followed Imogen and Adrian willingly off the boat.

Imogen watched the man from the boat through the glass window of the interrogation room. He seemed very calm, but there was something about him that made her skin crawl.

‘His name is Ben Vickers and he’s got previous.’ Miles burst in with a file.

‘What kind of previous?’

‘Well, he’s on the sex offenders’ register, for a start.’

‘You’re kidding?’

‘I wish I was. No, he’s been cautioned three times for stalking and he lost his job after he sexually assaulted one of the women he worked with. It wasn’t a violent assault, but still. He was a security guard up at the shopping centre.’

‘Any connection to Bridget Reid?’

‘None that we can see. No connection to that house either. There’s a note here that says he was arrested for soliciting a prostitute, but he got out of it.’

‘It’s tenuous, Miley, but I guess he might have known Bridget through her flatmate or something.’

‘So why aren’t you in there?’

‘He’s waiting for his lawyer. But we can go in now, if you like.’

They stepped into the room and sat opposite Ben Vickers, who had a disconcerting smirk on his weather-beaten face.

‘I don’t expect my lawyer to be much longer,’ Vickers said. ‘I hate to keep you waiting like this. I just know how these things work, and I’m not talking to you without representation. I been stung before, you see. But I expect you know that by now.’

‘Yes, we are aware of your record. It’s not a problem, we don’t mind waiting.’ Adrian folded his arms and settled in, staring down Vickers. Vickers stared straight back.

Eventually, the door opened and in walked the lawyer, a tall man in a sharp black suit. He sat next to his client and addressed Adrian directly.

‘My name’s Jonathan Clark and I’m here to represent Mr Vickers. Can I get a moment alone with my client?’

‘It’s all right son, I got nothing to hide,’ Vickers exclaimed.

‘Mr Vickers, you are not under arrest. We just need you to tell us exactly where you got that phone that was found in your boat,’ Adrian said.

‘I told you, I got it in the park.’

‘When?’

‘Well, I saw the girl come out of the park, the kids’ play area bit, and I saw her get into the water, so after I tried to follow her I went to the park and the phone was there. I was going to bring it in but I forgot.’

‘So the last time you saw her was in the water?’

‘Not exactly.’

‘But you said you couldn’t follow her in the boat and so you went back.’

‘Yeah, that night, that’s right.’

‘OK, so you saw her after that night?’

‘First light I went down to the river and I saw her lying on the grass. I slept in my boat, woke up with the sun.’

‘And you didn’t call the police then either?’

‘Not my business, is it?’

‘What state was she in?’ Imogen said through gritted teeth. What was wrong with people?

‘I’m pretty sure she was asleep.’

‘So did you approach her?’

‘No, I’m not stupid, probably get done for something or other if I did.’

‘Did you even check if she was alive?’

‘Some bloke in a black car came along and lifted her up, she was out of it but she was definitely alive, moaning and stuff she was.’

‘What bloke? What did he do with her?’

‘Put her in the passenger seat of his car, that’s why I thought he probably knew her, didn’t shove her in the boot or nothing.’

‘Jesus Christ,’ Imogen muttered. What upset her most was that this kind of thing wasn’t unusual, people watched crimes take place all the time but didn’t want to get involved. It made her job so much harder.

‘Was this the saloon you told us about before?’ Adrian leaned forward as he spoke to Vickers.

‘No, it wasn’t a saloon, it was like one of them poncy cars’

‘A sports car?’

‘No, no, like a Jeep thing, you know, a four-by-four. One of them what’s got the big wheel on the door of the boot.’

‘Like a Land Rover or something?’

‘Yeah, that kind of thing.’

The door opened and Fraser stuck his head in, nodding for them both to come out. Imogen looked up at the clock before turning to the tape recorder.

‘Interview suspended at 13:41.’ She switched the tape off and then looked at the lawyer. ‘We’ll be back in a bit.’

‘They found the other videos on the laptop,’ Fraser whispered to Imogen once they were outside the room. ‘I think maybe we need to have another word with your ex-partner.’

Chapter 12: The Video
The present

Adrian, Imogen and DCI Fraser walked into the tech lab to find Gary Tunney concentrating grimly on the laptop.

‘What did you find?’

‘Well, it looks like she set up a cloud account that all her videos were automatically sent to. It wasn’t easy to find. She used layer upon layer of encryption, but anyway, I’ve got them.’

‘I’ve always suspected that you’re a wizard,’ Imogen said, patting Tunney affectionately on the head.

‘So …? Don’t leave us hanging!’ Adrian interjected.

‘Right, well, one of the guys who visits her is an undercover, and they definitely seem like more than just friends. She puts the music on and then he gets a bit fresh, just a kiss, instigated by him. She pushes him away.’

‘So that’s it? Do we know who that is?’

‘I’ve put in a request to find out the name, we can’t blow his cover and we might not even be able to interview him,’ Fraser said.

‘Well, that’s bullshit.’

‘Do we think Sam knew about this guy and her?’

‘It’s possible,’ Tunney said, clicking on another one of the entries. ‘We know he wasn’t happy about something.’

Cue Sam bursting into her room and literally pulling Bridget out of the bed by her throat and pinning her against the wall. Tunney paused the tape and looked at them both.

‘Woah!’ Imogen exclaimed.

‘I should warn you, what happens next is not cool.’

‘Play it.’ Adrian braced himself.

Tunney turned the machine back on and they saw Sam Brown repeatedly hitting Bridget Reid in the face and stomach. Adrian felt himself getting light-headed just looking at the screen. It was a horrible reminder that your first instincts about people are usually the right ones. The first time he had met Sam Brown he hadn’t trusted him, but he’d allowed himself to be suckered in, had given him the benefit of the doubt. He felt guilty for what he’d said to Imogen earlier. The scene reminded him of being a child, of the awful times that he’d seen his father smacking his mother around, usually high on something or other.

‘So maybe it was Sam who made her delete the files.’

‘I think that’s a fair assumption.’ Tunney nodded.

‘Does this happen at any other time? Does he do it again?’

‘Yeah, none quite like this one, but he definitely hits her one or two other times.’

‘So maybe she knew something was going to happen to her, and she was collecting evidence,’ Adrian said, almost to himself.

‘That’s a hell of a leap, Detective,’ Fraser responded.

‘Desperate times.’

‘Undercover is very isolating, I doubt she felt like she could do much from where she was. Probably fewer than a handful of people knew what she was doing.’

‘Is it possible that she just ran away? We need to speak to that UC, he looked pretty friendly with her.’

‘I’m working on it,’ Fraser said apologetically.

‘What do we do about Sam?’

‘What do we do with any suspect? Bring him in,’ Fraser said.

‘Do we cut Vickers loose?’

‘Let’s just wait for forensics to go over the boat, the weather’s on the turn again so they’re doing their best to get it done before the rain starts. Find out what car Brown has and I’ll find out what this other fella drives.’ Fraser paused for a moment. ‘I shouldn’t need to say this out loud, but if any of the press approach you, don’t say anything. Only the people in this room know about this tape. Let’s keep it that way.’

‘Turn it off,’ Adrian said to Tunney, who still had the footage from the room showing: Bridget slumped against the wall with Sam consoling her. The disturbing familiarity made it impossible for Adrian to look away.

Chapter 13: A Boy Alone
Age 14

My dad’s really upset. I’ve never seen him like this, in fact I didn’t even think it was possible. Mum has been in hospital for a few days now; they don’t know when she’s coming out. Last week after I got home from school I found her on the floor of the kitchen. She’s had a stroke, apparently. Her face looks weird, weirder than usual. It’s kind of droopy but stiff at the same time. Like she was left for too long in front of an open fire and started to melt, but was snatched away just in time.

We go to the hospital every day, my dad goes when I’m at school too. I can’t be bothered with school at all, I just want to be free of it. I don’t feel like I’m learning anything and most of the time the teachers don’t treat me with any respect. I have this one teacher who talks to me like I’m scum; I don’t know what his fucking problem is but one day he’s going to regret it.

There’s a girl I like too, her name is Claire Hastings. She’s almost one of the popular girls, but she is like the quietest of all of them. She doesn’t parade around with her skirt rolled up at the waist like a total skank. Sometimes she talks to me, when no one is looking. I think she likes me but she would never let any of her friends see; she hasn’t quite made it to the inner circle, and being seen with me would put a stop to that. Part of me likes the secret friendship we have, but part of me is angry that she’s ashamed of it. None of the other girls at school look at me. I’m invisible. I’m not on the rugby team, I’m not one of the blonde-haired, blue-eyed boys who follow them around ready to burst, the girls prick-teasing them with their shirts that are a size too small, pulling at the buttons across their chests. Skanks.

On Friday nights my dad takes me to the club. I feel better about it now that I’m taller – it was awkward for a while. I had a growth spurt when I was thirteen and now I’m almost six feet tall. The girls are used to me now. I like the girls in the club better than the girls at school. They make a fuss over me and generally do whatever they’re told. At school no one knows who I am, but at the club I’m important. I’m not the foreign scum who gets treated like a second-class citizen – I was born in this country, but that doesn’t seem to make a difference anywhere else.

Mum has been given a date to come home, finally. Dad actually seems a little better, back to his normal self. Dad being back to his normal self isn’t actually such a great thing, but at least I can predict his behaviour, rather than living with his weird outbursts. I know he feels guilty about Mum’s stroke; I think he thinks it’s because he hits her. But he doesn’t even hit her that much any more, not really, not compared to how it used to be. Surely it would have happened before now if it was to do with that.

I find it weird that Dad loves Mum. He isn’t even remotely faithful to her. I’ve seen him with loads of other women. I never really knew what he was doing before, but now that I have done it too, I understand. Sex is weird, it’s like a game or something, it’s all about pretending to be in love with someone for a little while and then when it’s over you can go back to being strangers. The girls I have been with so far change into different people when I have sex with them. The girls at the club, I mean. I think all of the girls at school like to act like they’ve done it, but I know they haven’t. They hold it over the boys like some big prize. I’m still not sure what the big deal is, to be honest with you. The girls at school are nothing like the ones my dad knows. Most of the girls he knows are all hooked on ‘shit’, as he calls it. He says it keeps them in line.

Dad tells me we need to get ready for Mum’s return; he has brought some of the junkie girls back to our family home, which feels weird. I don’t like them touching my mum’s stuff. Dad is making them clean the place, although I don’t think they know how to clean. He says he has an errand for us, a surprise for Mum. We get in the car when the junkies have left, but I want to stay and clean the place again – I know where those sluts have been.

We drive all the way across the city to a part of town I haven’t been in before. We’re parked under a tree and my dad is watching the street. It’s very quiet, not that there’s silence, but there’s an eerie lull in the air. I can hear children playing and car stereos, but still it feels quiet. It’s a warm day and there’s a man washing his car further down the road. I wonder what we could possibly be here for. Then I see her. I feel like I have been punched in the gut when I look at her properly. It’s like looking at my sister, except it can’t be her because she’s dead. But there she is, playing with a bucket of mud in her front yard. My dad tells me to go and speak to her, to ask her for help to find my lost dog and to get her to come to the car. This is the present for my mum, the little girl. A replacement girl.

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